Chapter 4

Sorry it took so long to update

I have been in London, where I found orces nest and had bubble tea, and went to practically everywhere they did on the day in our life Christmas version... It was a accident aswell I was actually trying to find a theater cause I was watching a production but ended up recreating their foot steps. Where they go shopping to is a pretty rubbish place to shop aswell... I couldnt find any good shops there. Annnyyywayyyy I'm rambling so enjoy! :3

I cried staining the carpet with my wet soggy tears, and leaving patches on the floor. Every breathe I took felt as though someone had took a knife and stabbed me in the chest. My body bruised and broken I laid as still has possible unable to force myself to move. I didn't know how long I had been laid there for it could have been minutes or hours I wasn't sure, but she had left me alone and that's all that mattered.

I heard her cries from up stairs as she smashed up our room. I was certain all my belongings where going to be ruined. I didn't care, they where worthless to me. The taste of blood inside my mouth hung around like a bad after taste not wanting to leave. I didn't really feel anything. I was numb.

I tried to push myself up but collapsed falling back towards the floor screaming out in horrific pain. I had broken my arm. I knew I had. I gasped holding my breathe in hope he didn't hear me. I was so scared.

I curled up in a tight ball trying to block out everything. I wasn't here i was somewhere warm, somewhere nice. I was safe...

BANG!

"Police open up!" I snapped from my day dream opening my eyes in horror, who called the police?

I heard Eva run down the stairs running into the room and laying down next to me. My heart smashed against my rib cage as if it was gonna burst open. She bit her lip, slowly brushing the hair out of my face and them smiling softly at me. I gulped hard unsure on what pain I was going to endure next. She lent forward towards me placing a small delicate kiss upon my bloody lips, her smooth texture making me forget what she had done for a few seconds.

"I called the police on myself because what I have done to you isn't right Dan. What we do to eachother isn't right Dan. I hope you understand that I do love you, but this isn't love Dan this is abuse" a tear dropped down her face as I felt my heart break a little.

"N...no..I" I had no energy to speak and these words where all I could mange to pull from my voice box. She placed a finger on my lips shutting me up.

"Goodbye Dan" I closed my eyes tight. She jumped up running away from me, her disappearance making me feel lost.

The door sung open and a small gush of wind feel across my body making me shiver slightly. I heard the police man enter slapping handcuffs onto her wrists as paramedics came rushing towards me. This pain was much worse than any physical pain by a long shot. My eyes started to drop as my head started to go all over the place. I couldn't focuse, I couldn't think...

I blacked out.

My eyes fluttered open, as I tried to adjust myself to the lighting that had fell upon me. I moved round slightly pulling myself up with all the effort I had before I remembered. Eva. I noticed a nurse with bright blonde hair and red rosy cheeks stood at the other end of my room. I was in hospital. She saw me move around and ran towards me polishing her fake smile and pushing me back down into the bed.

"Honey you need to rest" he focuse was so sweet and fake it made me feel sick.

"NO! Where is Eva!" She looked taken back by my sudden out cry.

"Daniel is it, now she is police custody for what she has done to you, you do understand what she has done right?" I felt as though she was patronising me acting as if I was a little child who need to be spoon feed. Of course I knew what happen! But it's not like it hasn't happened before...

I glared at her falling down into the bed and making myself comfortable I need a rest.

"Mister Lester is waiting for you in the waiting room now your awake maybe he could come in?" my eyes widened in shock as my breathe got taken away a little.

"H...how did you get his number?" i stuttered my stomach turning into butterflies. "Your phone it was on the floor and Mr Lester was the only contact you had so we had to call him... I hope that was okay?" I nodded coking on my own words

"yea-yes that's okay"

Phils Pov

Sprinkles of snow settled on the ground outside like a white blanket filling the street. Footsteps ruined most of the clear white snow, but I wasn't that bothered there was a little bit darkness in everything beautiful.

I wrapped my coat around me in a desperate attempted to keep myself warm, but the coldness still hit me sending shivers down my spine. Maybe coming for a walk wasn't the best idea. Oh well you're out now phil, might as well explore the area around the hospital instead of running past it all.

My feet started to lead me off to a small ally way. I gulped softly trying to see but it was too dark to make anything out. I frowned I hated that. Suddenly footsteps began to draw closer towards me, I spun round on the heel of my foot to see an short man with short choppy brown hair staring me in the face. He scowled at me trying to push past, I shoved quickly past him.

He was a drug dealer. That wasn't hard to suspect, the rundown appearance of his face with dark circles hiding under his eyes, but smart clothes so he gets a fair share of money, his hand dug deeply in his pockets as if he is holding something. And the smell of weed was also a massive give away!

I walked quicker; I was in the wrong neighbourhood. Again...

I wrapped my coat round me even tighter, looking round the deserted ally checking if anyone was behind me. Gangster of the year was gone. I wrapped my jacket round me rubbing my hand furiously together in a desperate attempt to get warm. The warm soothing air that was once comforting me in the hardest times, had now turned against me going cold and making it look as though I was smoking every time I took a deep breath. I brushed my fringe out on my face, walking down the dark gloomy street that was light up by a single lamppost, which just flickered anyway because it didn't work properly

I had to get out the hospital, even if it was for a few hours.

I had called Dan's family who were determined to come down and see him. How could I decline?

The doctors still refused to let me see him and allI had been told is that Dan had a few broken bones and a mild case of brain damage due to Eva repeatedly smashing him in the head. That was all I knew and I needed to know more.

My throat stung as I tuck a swig of water. I gulped it down allowing it to sooth my aching throat, making it better. I was tried and just wanted to curl up in a ball and go to sleep, but I knew I had to do this.

I was back at the hospital.

I held my head up as I made my way in. I walked back into the oh so familiar waiting room. A girl who had been cry the whole time I had been here was silent. No silent whimpering. No hands burring in her face. Just quiet with a stern look on her face. I noticed her turn to talk to me, with her small, elegant voice.

"When you did do you think there is a heaven? Or anything" I blinked slightly, gulping hard.

"No I don't do you?"

"No it's bullshit. All of its bullshit" I watched her eyes hover towards the floor, her face completely motionless.

"You got to stay optimistic though...I guess" She glanced at quickly. We both knew that was hard given our current situation. And I guess I wasn't being very optimistic myself I was just was too scared to believe anything could get better. Anything.

I placed my hands on my knees, my eyes closed shut in a desperate attempt to get away. I didn't know where I was going to go exactly; I never really made myself a happy place, maybe I should have done. My feet dangled downwards swinging backwards and forth, backwards and forth. The swinging was starting to make me feel sick but I refused to stop the continuous pace even though it made my stomach turn. It was making me feel better, like a drug you shouldn't do but feel like you should.

I chewed the bottom of my gum, the waiting was killing me, endless waiting. The hardest bit was not knowing if the person is going to be okay, of course though you couldn't blame the Doctors or nurses they were just doing their best to help you, but sometimes you just feel as though they don't really care and that you're just another problem moaning for help. That's what we all were doing; moaning for help, everyone in this hospital wanted it. That's why however much the waiting was killing me I also loved it to bits.

I had never even met Dan in my life but the need to make sure he was okay was overpowering, and I must say I cried a little when I go the phone call. It was a long way to travel but I made it. I had to see he was okay.

This hard plastic chair was pulling a massive strain on my back sending little shots of pain down my spine and in my muscles. The 5 walls of this waiting room where sending me into delusions with its white and green swirls across the room.

The waiting.

The magazines where all spread out across the table after I had disposed each one flinging it back after I had looked through them all. I now knew what disaster Kim Kardashian had gone through this week as she walked out in the wrong outfit, and also how horrible it was for Paris Hilton when she lost her favourite purse. Honestly to me it was more like a joke magazine than a gossip one with the amount of crap that filled each and every one of the pages. But it did make the time pass so I wasn't massively bothered.

The waiting!

I rubbed my eyes sending myself into a small galaxy with swirls and patterns of light running around in my eyes until I finally pulled my hands away.

Just then a woman with long brown hair approached me a broad smile running from each corner of her mouth. "Phillip Lester?" I jumped up as quickly as I could.

"Dan's awake you wanna come see him?"

"Yes!" I exclaimed making my way to his room.