Lonely Book.
A.N. Wow, surprise! Update sooner than I thought. Though I'm rather depressed I didn't get as many reviews as my previous chapters… :/ oh well I guess. Well here is a well needed journal update, since our dear Kaggie hasn't had one since she'd been stuck in the hospital.
Disclaimer: I don't own Inuyasha. Not one bit.
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~ Lonely book that holds the secrets of the hell hole,
I'm sure you feel like you were forgotten, but you weren't, in fact I wish I had you the last couple of days. You see, I've been in the hospital, no, not sick, but for a reason that I believe could have been avoided, if I didn't have to screw everything up. Maybe my parents were right all along.
Fine, I'll tell you why I was there. I had returned from my normal morning walk when I had heard my dad yelling at my brother, something about how he was an embarrassment and Kikyo is his only child. Now I've heard this a ton of times, given the fact that I am a screw up, but it really ticked me off when he said it to Souta. Well I told Souta to leave with his friends, whom I ran into on my way in, and it made me even madder that Souta was crying. My dad however didn't like the fact that Souta was leaving and started going on about how he was gonna teach him a lesson on how to be a real man, and when Souta went to run out of the house to his friends my dad was gonna stop him but, stupid me, decided I was going to stop my dad. This all leads to some bruised ribs and loss of blood, nothing big. I know, I know, it's a big thing to most people, but I feel as though this could have been avoided. Nobody had to…
Any who, I told Sango about me and Dogboy's "date." Told her about how he was being nice since I got ditched by Hojo and didn't want to ruin his reputation and so I couldn't tell anyone, well Sango isn't just anyone, she's Sango. I told her about the diner and the dancing, how beautiful it all was and how I really enjoyed it, and about the kissing, which resulted in a swimming puppy, and then going home angrily. Sango thought the whole thing was funny and honestly; I was laughing with her, because thinking back it was hilarious. She also said it didn't surprise her that Inuyasha did all that for me, whatever that means. Probably has something to do with my sister.
Speaking of the devil she came in right after I told Sango what happened and was glaring at Sango and me like we weren't allowed to be happy and laughing. Souta the little bugger was all happy to see me, like he thought I was gone or something. He had no clue what had happened though so it confused me, unless Kikyo filled him in before she got there. Well I ended up asking Kikyo if Dogboy called her and she flipped! Kicked Sango and Souta out and was all don't go anywhere near my property. Poor Dogboy, he is owned by my sister. Tisk Tisk. Well after that Kikyo had punched me in the side hitting my ribs. Honestly all I could think was, 'Inuyasha please help.' Bad huh? My sister is warning me to stay away from him, even though all the cases of me being around him is because she puts us together, and all I can think about is how I want him to save me. It's probably just because he saved me before, a couple times in different ways. The irony though is that he showed up, and he was pissed. For a second I believed he was going to dump my sister right then and there, then he just looked out of it, and Kikyo started hanging all over him.
Anyways, while I was in the hospital I got this small white bear. Cutest thing ever, who gave it to me, I have no clue, but every day there were new flowers, even now that I'm home. There was a note after the first day. The note said, "These flowers will be new, for each day I think of you, sadly I must stay true, to the one who looks like you. ~For the one that's always on my mind." Who it's from I have no clue, but someone is thinking of me, and personally I find it kind of creepy, but it's kinda cute, all except for the part this persons already taken. Who looks like me? Well besides Kikyo, I don't know, but I can assure you one thing, it is no way on earth its Dogboy! He is no good, he was all mad at Kikyo, for I believe hitting me, then they were hanging all over each other. Dis-gus-ting!
I didn't have a whole lot of visitors while I was there. Kikyo and Dogboy came often, always together; it was more of them making out then to see if I was okay. Probably Kikyo's way to make sure I know he is hers, but trust me I know and I really don't want him. Then Sango brought the whole group with her, well everyone but Kagura. That woman still has a problem with me, won't let me settle it either. Miroku's "cursed" hand tried to get me a few times but Sango was always to the rescue. Koga was talking about how he should have been there to protect me and I should call him next time instead of the mutt. It makes me laugh how much he bad talks Dogboy. It's sad he is already taken for good and had dibs on by Ayame; he seems like a decent enough man. Honestly though, I don't feel that way towards him, maybe it's just 'cause he is taken, but I really don't know. I believe I have bad taste in guys, look at Hojo, he ditched me, pretty explanatory.
I got home this morning, its nice being somewhere you're used to and can move around freely. I still have to be careful though with things that I do because of my ribs. I've been in my room avoiding Kikyo and Dogboy at all costs; yes he has been hanging around our house recently. Why? I have no clue. Kikyo maybe; more he is mine don't touch unnecessary therapy. She seriously needs to be checked out. Ever since the first threat, she's been threatening me every chance she gets, that he isn't around. Oddly enough every time he catches her, he just gives me an "I'm sorry" look. Sorry for what? He didn't do anything. I can say one thing, with her threatening me… ain't no way I'm gonna tell her about the kiss; well kisses. I'd be dead then. Wait, maybe Dogboy told her about it and that's why she's doing this. Hah! Makes sense of why he looks at me like that too!
With everything that has happened, I'm actually surprised. Souta doesn't seem to be fazed at all; just living his life like normal. Kikyo got over it that night and was more concerned about me taking Dogboy. My mother on the other hand, she's been acting rather weird. She's been rather mopy, and very distant. She's almost never home, when she is she never says anything just sits in her room. I don't understand why, I mean for someone who cheats, and beats the other, why would it faze them at all? I really don't understand, but then again it's what they've always called love, and again, I believe I'm better off alone.
You know… this house feels weird knowing he… you know. I don't like it at all really; it's so strange with him gone and knowing he did that. I can't walk past that room; I do all that I can just to avoid it. Heh, this all could have been avoided though, if it wasn't for me making so many mistakes. I'm sure he wouldn't have done anything that bad to Souta, and I'm sure it wouldn't have turned out like this. I feel like I… did it with my own hands. I feel like I killed him, because it was my fault. ~
Kagome stopped writing and put her head in her hands and started to cry. Slowly getting up she stumbled to her bed; crawling under the covers and curling up into a ball, crying herself to sleep.
Down stairs a certain hanyou's ears twitched. He heard her crying, and did everything he could not to run to comfort her. Looking down at the girl in his arms and sighed before getting up and saying his goodbyes and headed home; not wanting to hear her cry.
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