HIi guys! I know its been soooo long since I last updated- I thought I'd never take this long but its easier to slip into then I thought :/ with exam etc. but thanks so much to the people still supporting this story! Thanks guys hope you like this Chapter! :P
I search through the muddy thoughts in and out of dreams and nightmares there's something I'm looking for- but what? It's something really important but I just can't remember what?! Suddenly I'm thrown back into reality the feeling in my body slowly return along, with my right sense of mind.
I move each of my finger one by one until my whole hand is working, my arms, my legs, then slowly but surely I crack open my eyes, only to shut them closed tight again- stupid light I think.I try again this time at a snail's pace until- I'm staring blankly up at the bright lights of the hospital wing.
How long have I'm been out? I day-week or 2? I'm not sure I try hard to remember what's happened and why I'm here then suddenly it all comes back to me.
My birthday… Eating those bloody spiked love chocolates! Lavender. I think about her for a moment… but it doesn't happen- not what I expected- that constant feeling to keep something up between us… I think I'm done… trying.
I can't do it any more, now maybe I realise why I dated her in the first place maybe it was just a cover up… for what I really felt. I feel guilty all of a sudden but at least I realise I finally need to end this. But there's something else…
Hermione! I bolt upwards. Suddenly she all I can think of. What the hell were we thinking?! What was I thinking? Ignoring each other, not practicing her ice-skating, not hanging out with Harry much- and her not at all! Her hair…her eyes…I shake my head to clear my thoughts somehow they get all muddled up when I think of her. Anyway weird feelings or no feelings- she still one of my best friends- I can't believe we let any relationship between us I need to set this straight.
I huff loudly -since Madam Pomfrey practically got me chained to my bloody bed I just have to sit and wait for someone to come-for her to come. This is so boring! I think inwardly whining like a little kid, counting the freckles on my left hand- something I only come to in the dullest of moments- this is what I've been reduced to, It think dully. There's a loud crack of the door and I sit up straight in anticipation I'm both scared and hoping its Hermione,- but its Harry.
"Harry!" I shout surprising myself at how grateful my voice sounds. Probably 'cause you're not prepared for herrrr my thoughts say in an annoying sly voice.
"Ron!" He shouts back and rushes were both laughing and slapping each other on the back,
"How you feeling mate?" Harry says anxiously, I shrug,
"alive " I say and were both laughing again I don't know why but I'm suddenly so glad to see harry again. He starts to explain what happened about the chocolates, the poised mead,- I shudder at that part.
"Blimey the days really are darkening"
"Tell me about" harry says we talk about everything I've missed. Finally the topic moves somehow to lavender. I sigh heavily
"How's she been?" I ask half-heartedly. Harry shrugs
"Yeah alright just going to lessons-crying that she missing you- telling everyone how brave you are, the usual" he says. Good old harry-always sugar coats everything-not. I groan and lean back in my pillow- I can't avoid it now.
"I'm gonna do it Harry" I say I think a bit too ambiguous
"Can you specify please" harry laughs; despite myself I grin at how his brain hasn't change much from when we were 11. I hit him with a pillow- which he dodges. Lucky Git. I laugh, and then I'm serious again and take a deep breath. Here goes nothing
"Imgonnabreupwilaveder!" I say all in a rush.
"Bless you"
"No! ok" I pause thinking but the shake my head there just no point in pretending anymore "I think I'm gonna break up with lavender." I say, there's a pause.
"Really?!" Harry says his eyebrows going up his forehead
"Really." I say miserably and the thought of lavender crying to everybody.
"well not gonna pretend I didn't see it coming, what made you have this realisation" he says with a half-smile. I rack my brain for an answer.
"Errr well I don't know Harry! You know it just the way she's never leaves me alone always kissing all the time" I say with a stupid blush gose with the stupid answer! you sound like a bloody moron! My thoughts scowl. Harry raises an eyebrow- yep he knows im lying.
"I think we both know Lavender's constant kissing isn't the only reason mate" he says seriously. My thoughts automatically switch you Hermione, I feel my face getting hot.
"I-I- Don't know what your talking about." I stutter stupid stutter just adding to his point I think annoyed. Harry rolls his eyes
"Yeah ok just do what you thinks right ok?" he says with a slight "Knowing" smile on his face and exits the wing leaving me in muddy thoughts all over again.
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Hermione POV
I feel like its been months since Ron got poisoned I'm starting to get so anxious. It's so worrying to just see his eyes closed every time I dare sneak a visit when lavenders not around …I just want to his eyes looking back in mine…his deep blue eyes. I quickly steel myself away from my emotions, but I can't help it- I need to see him again even if he's still not a awake I just need to see him.
I speedily power walk through the halls down the enchanted stairs and into the hallway of the hospital wing, with every step I take I get the old familiar feeling of anxiety-but excitement and the same time.
I reach the door and place my hand on the doorknob taking a deep breath I go in. My eyes do a sweep around the room and I find him.
Eyes closed. Cheek resting on the pillow, deeply breathing… unconscious again and my heart sinks.
I walk slowly to his bed and quietly sit on the chair right beside it. I look at him- at his face, his bright red hair, all those freckles- and suddenly the full impact of the truth hits me all again-he's still unconscious. I bury my face in my hands and close my own eyes feeling the emotion and tears welling up in my eyes. About 5 minutes go by with me like this I should go now I think my head still in my hands come back later but I always come back later and nothing changes.
"Hermione?" I startle at the deep voice- I don't even dare to think, I slowly lift my face from my hands and I'm suddenly locked in a stare…with two sea blue eyes. Before my brain has any time to comprehend this, I find my body has already thrown itself onto Ron's in such a tight embrace that I don't think I would ever let go. Ron laughs and returns my hug. As sappy as it sounds I'm so happy to hear his laugh again. I think I hold to tight because a minute later Ron's saying
"Hermione…Hermione! I can't breathe!" he gasps and I let go and speak
"Ron I- I- your" I can't even speak Ron laughs again and smile his lopsided grin
"You missed me!?" he said raising his eyebrows in mock surprise I'm laughing and my eyes are watering
"Yes I did" I say barley containing my emotion his face is so close I can count all his freckles- but then I suddenly remember and my sense floods back to me. I'm not supposed to be this close to him in case someone comes in… I draw back slightly before my heart burst…or breaks. Ron's smile falters and looks at me questionly- I avoid his eyes contact I can't do this.
Ron's POV
Seeing her almost made me yell out with happiness it was almost like old times-less complicated times. I can't even say what seeing her has done to me…its hit me in a way only she can, and her laugh brings a warm feeling inside me like hot butterbeer on a cold day - but now she seems distant and I remember why. I'm suddenly angry. Angry with myself- how did I ever let it come to this.
"Hermione… please look at me" I say and she reluctantly turns her face towards me, I get stunned by the chocolate pools of her eyes but I blink and take a deep breath.
"Im so sorry" I say, she looks shocked as if she never imagined me doing this bloody hell Hermione give me some credit I think with a slight smile but my eyes show true seriousness " I'm sorry that I've been so distant from you… a-and Harry" I stutter slightly then steel myself again "I won't let anything come between you and me… a-and Harry's! friend ship again." I say true to my words every bit of it. the smile on her face seems almost to huge and- prettyto be allowed- I think with a blush. man I really can't control that today I think bitterly about my red face then she hugs me again
"Oh Ron! You know I've been as much to blame as well I'm sorry I've been such a cow- and I should support your decisions not ignored you like that!" She whispers- she doesn't say lavenders name but we both know who and what she's talking about. It suddenly upsets me and I feel something shift inside me again as it did when I woke up- I don't want this relationship with lavender anymore… I don't think I ever did.
Hermione's POV
I could just stay here forever.
"And Hermione- after I get out of the wing…lets go Practice we haven't been in so bloody long" Ron says. If it's possible my smile widens even more as I feel my cheeks burn- I can't believe he actually remembered! I thought he wouldn't want to do it anymore after all that's happened.
"Really?!" I say in an excited whisper, Ron laughs slightly
"Really." He says simply
"Plus "he says suddenly "I need to feel like a ballerina again" there's a pause we both burst into laughter still in an embrace I'm positive my face is shining with happiness.
At that precise moment there's an unbelievably huge bang that wrenches me and Ron apart as I jump to my feet. In stamps ferocious looking Lavender-with bright green wiry hair! I stand there looking stunned and I take a quick glance at Ron- whose mouth is hanging open in an almost comical little "o" Lavender stomps right up to me looking livid-then suddenly spots Ron.
"Oh Wonnie!" she says as if she hasn't seen him in years, hugging Ron and then fiercely kissing him on his lips- a familiar sharp pang goes through my heart, but I shake it off. However lavender pulls away after a few seconds-then her attention is fully on me.
"YOU!" she says accusingly "You did this to me!" and gestures to her hair I shake my head trying to clear my thoughts what's she trying to blame me for now? I think tiredly then I remember –
"Oh what good news!" she said slipping in her false sweet voice into sarcasm and picks up a potion had a made in class and was going to try it out on a doll or something. "Is this yours?" she reads the label "For Hair?" she reads out loud "oh is this to tame that hair of yours?" she sneers nastily "well I might as well use it" she says
"I wouldn't use that if I were you" I said quickly
"You can't tell me what to do Hermione Granger!" she says and tips the entire bottle onto her head.
I frown thinking at the memory I knew that this potion would have an effect on her hair- It was a potion designed to make a quick change in appearance to the wearers look-no matter how hideous, a take at least a week which is considerably shorter than Polyjuice potion
Usually it's used for an enemy- but I never intended to use it. Despite the situation I feel a slight grin trying to force its way onto my face,
- I quickly slap myself mentally and look at her completely poker- faced.
"Lavender" I say "I did warn you that you shouldn't have used it" I say in an honestly sincere voice- after all I would really annoyed it I had my hair like that. But lavender takes in the complete wrong way.
"Look I don't CARE about the "I told you so's!" just fix it now!" she yells, I twist my fingers anxiously.
"Lavender I'm sorry- but the only solution to this is me making another potion- that would only be ready only … in a week" I say. Lavender's face goes from red to scarlet with rage.
"You mean-" she says deadly slowly "I have to go around looking like this for a WEEK?" she says then all of a sudden she shouting
"You did this on PURPOSE didn't you!?" she screams I about to object and try to reason when suddenly it happens all so quickly:
Lavender was raising her hand up, her hand coming toward my face- and then Ron leaping from his bed and jumping in front of me so quickly I wouldn't be surprised if he had apparated, then Lavender's hand connecting with Ron's face instead of mine- but he doesn't flinch he just calmly and gently pushes us apart. Lavender squeaks with confusion and try's to apologize but he doesn't say anything accept.
"Please don't do that again" he says to lavender avoiding her eyes and mine just as calmly no hint of anger in his voice just like he was making some sort of decision. Then looks straight at me.
"Hermione could you give us a minute?" he says quietly.
"Y-yeah sure" I stutter completely stunned and walk out of the wing without another word.
So I really hope you liked that chapter-there was originally supposed to be a bit more to this chapter but I didn't want to postpone the publishing any further so I will try my best to keep updating soon thanks guys so much
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