I thought about going after her, but it was no use. I called someone from custodial to come clean it up and went to the car and got my wallet and came to pay the woman. I took another coffee and went to my office were a familiar face was waiting on me.

"What do you want Mark?" I opened the door to the office. I couldn't get my mind off that girl. I probably wouldn't see her again but why was she so dang familiar. She looked like someone, I couldn't put my finger on it. She kind of acted like, god why do I always compare people to her. I can never find anyone like her.

"Dude!" Mark yelled and I came out of my thoughts.

"What?" I snapped back at him.

"What the hell is your problem?" He said defensively.

"You're wife scared me half to death this morning and my mother won't stop calling. And it's raining!" I pulled the scrub shirt off and looked for another scrub top and pulled it on along with another white coat.

"What did Addison do? Look just calm down, I just came up here to tell you that it's your turn this year to run the first intern surgery and the list of interns is on your desk," He pointed to my desk.

"Time to take one intern out of the running possibly, great." I said with a scoff before walking to my desk. I picked up the list and Mark left the room.

'I probably pissed him off too. That's Great'

I rolled my eyes and scanned this list. One name came popping out at my face.

'Meredith Grey'

Why was that name so familiar? Then it hit me. Ellis Grey, that couldn't be her daughter. I thought for a second and I remember Richard and Ellis arguing about someone named Meredith joining the program. This is a great chance to see if she has talent like her mother. I'm brilliant! I put my pager and phone into my pocket and sipped on my coffee on the way to Richard's office.

What had I done! Why I had looked to the floor instead in front of me!
'Something like that can only happen to you Meredith'

I should pray that I didn't have to work with this man, he was obviously an attending.
He probably hated me now - The way he looked at me. Yes, he hated me. The angry expression on his face scared me to death - it had reminded me of him.
'Stop!'

If this man with the beautiful blue eyes knew, who I was? Would he go to Richard and tell him what had happened this morning?
"Richard!" I said out loud and just managed to sneak in, to hear his speech.
'It's always the same, every year'

The thought of the man, who I had knocked out, didn't go out of my head.
I could feel beads of sweat forming on my forehead. I forgot, how to breathe.
'Calm down Mer, everything will be fine. Angry man doesn't know that you're an intern'

Everything in me screamed that I should turn around quickly, to run home. Who knew which stupid things I would do today?
I'd never be a good doctor. I'd always stand in the shadow of my mother. Meredith, run, run!
If Ellis had known what happened, she would kill me. For her, it was important to be in a good light. It couldn't happen, that her daughter embarrassed her or her husband - I hated my life.
'Worse day'

With cautious steps I went into the locker room - no one seemed to notice me, which I welcomed at this moment.
It was loud, lots of people were standing around me and talked.
My heart was beating wildly in my chest. Did they know that I was the stepdaughter of the Chief? When they heard my last name, it was all over.

I tried to cut out the people around me. Since that night, I couldn't bear so much people around me - it always reminded me of him.

"So, I'm back." Cristina gasped and opened her locker. "Why haven't you changed yet? Has something happened?" She looked me up and down.

"No, no. I'm fine. What should have happened? Really, I'm fine. "I laughed nervously.

She raised an eyebrow. "Is it because of the nightmare last night?"

I quickly shook my head. "No. Ok, I've been thinking about the nightmare, but it is not. Of course it is not. I mean, we're starting today and..Ellis expects a d I..I've made a big mistake. I'm sure, I will immediately fly out of this program..So I don't get the chance to prove that I'm good. Not as good as Ellis, but...I'm not a bad person, Cristina." My whole body was shaking as the words just flowed out of my mouth.

"Of course you're not a bad person! We'll talk about it later. I think we should change."
I nodded.
It was amazing to wear the light blue scrubs. It gave me the feeling, that I was important
'Dr. Meredith Grey'
Yeah, that sounded good.

Suddenly, there was a brown haired guy standing in front of us. He held out his hand - I didn't know him. Why should I shook his hand? Nevertheless, I took it. "Hello. I'm George, George O'Malley. I haven't seen you yesterday at the mixer. "He smiled kindly at me.
He probably thought that I was a nerd who just sat at home and was studying. In any case, he didn't seem to know that I was the daughter of Ellis Grey.

"Um..I'm Meredith..Just Meredith." I wanted to return his smile, but I couldn't.
I was only for half an hour at the mixer - Ellis had asked me to. Otherwise I wouldn't have gone.
Since that day I hated parties. But Ellis was adamant that I had to go, even when I told her that I wasn't feeling well.
"You have to show up there. After all, you're Richards stepdaughter. And don't dress like a slut. Do you understand me? "
Cristina remained a little longer. She insisted to go home with me, I wanted that she had fun, though.
A little bit of time for myself would be good, I told her.

Cristina intervened. "You see that girl there?" She pointed pejoratively with her index finger on a blonde beauty. She could well pass as Barbie.
"Surely it is the model." I said.

Like a grace she walked towards us. "Hi, my name is Isobel Stevens, but everyone calls me Izzie." We shook hands.

"Which resident are you assigned to?" George wanted to know.

"Bailey." Cristina, Izzie and I said simultaneously.

He laughed. "The Nazi? Me too "

"At least we'll be tortured together." Said Cristina.
She probably thought about the good surgeries on which she could assist - The Heart - thoracic surgery was her dream, and she worked really hard for it.

"Bailey?" Izzie asked a man who walked past us.

He pointed behind him. "End of the hall."

The other three laughed, but they didn't know Miranda Bailey. Even though she was a short woman, she had many ways to make our lives like hell. When I was at home, Richard talked a lot about her. He thought that she had what it takes to get his position one day – Would she treat me like crap?

She looked briefly at us with her brown eyes before she began to speak and motioned us to follow her. "I have five rules. Memorize them. Rule number one: Do not bother sucking up. I hate you. That's not gonna change. Trauma protocol, phone list, pagers, nurses will page you. You will answer every page at a run. A run! That's rule number two. Your first shift starts now and lasts 48 hours. You're interns, grunts, nobodies, bottom of the surgical food chain," She spoke as she began to walk and we all grabbed the pagers before running to catch up with her.

"You run labs, write orders, work every second night until you drop, and do not complain. On-call rooms. Attendings hog them. Sleep when you finish where you can can, Which brings me to rule number three. If I'm sleeping, do not wake me Unless your patient is dying."

'No problem with that,' I thought to myself.

Rule four: The dying patient better not be dead when i get there. Not only will you have killed someone, you woke me for no reason. We clear?" She said in a basic yell. Everyone nodded along.

What was that for a hospital? If everyone here was so rude? I wouldn't survive 48 hours here.
'That's the reason why you should work at SGH. So Ellis can see you fail'

Hadn't she spoken of five rules? I was too afraid to ask.

"You said five rules. That was only four. " Cristina looked at her expectantly.

Suddenly, Dr. Baileys pager went off. "Rule number five: When I move, you move!"

"Richard I swear, this has nothing to do with you or Ellis!" I argued back. It was a lie. I wanted someone good who I could finally teach all my amazing abilities to. This woman is my only hope, none of these others will ever have as much potential as Ellis Grey's daughter.

"Derek, I don't care. I said no. Pick someone else," He looked at me with a serious face. Why was he being so protective?

"No Richard, It's my year to choose and I choose her, done deal," At this point, I was not backing down.

"No Derek, just drop it. I will not allow this," He warned.

"You can come and watch, you can see for yourself on how great she will do, now if you'll excuse me, I've got to get to a consult," I walked out of the office before he had a chance to say anything back. I went down to the ER.

"Hello Dr. Shepherd," some guy with shaggy brown hair, he looked like he didn't even belong anywhere near here, said coming up behind me.

"What is it?" I looked around for someone to tell me where the trauma is at.

"I am your intern for the day sir," I could tell how nervous he was by the way his eyes blinked constantly.

"Well of course, you can go get me a coffee, black, and will SOMEONE tell me where this trauma is?" I yelled and ones of the residents came to get me and brought me out to the ambulance bay. There was three interns standing by the short African American woman whom people call Bailey.
'I think it's Bailey'

I recognized one of interns from this morning, the way she was quietly standing behind all of them, she was nervous about something and just something about her, part of me wanted to yell at her for spilling coffee on me but then there was a part of me that wanted to grab her and hold her, never letting go. She reminded me of a sick and lost puppy.
'Stop it Derek'

"You two, go inside and do sutures," she pointed to the Asian one and the quiet girl and they both scurried off.

"What do you want me to do Dr. Bailey?" the blonde looked at her.

"You're on rectal exams, now scram Stevens before you're on it all week," She spat and the intern left.

The ambulance pulled up and they quickly got the doors open.

"What do we got?" I went straight to the girls side.

"Arianna Rodriguez, 18 year old female, left pupil is blown and she's tachycardia."

We went into trauma room one and the patient started to seize.

"Get her on her side!" I called and they helped me turn her.

"Is there any history on this patient?" I asked as she stopped seizing and we continued the normal work up.

"She said there was no drug or alcohol use in her recent history, said she was healthy,"

"We need to find her emergency contact and get a hold of them," Dr Bailey said and the one intern left ran off to go take that along with blood sample to the lab.

After we got all the test back, it showed brain bleed in the right side and we took her to do a craniotomy, we released the pressure and the surgery took 6 hours but she is fine now.

"Good save Dr Shepherd," Dr Bailey said as she scrubbed out along with me.

"It's always a good save, now I'm going to go tell an intern which one of them gets the first surgery," I threw the towel into the bin and walked out of the room and headed to the cafeteria.

It was hour eight. Forty more to go. It was our first break and we had fifteen minutes to eat and do anything we had to get done. We sat together at a table in the cafeteria and ate. Izzie was eying me skeptically.

"So, you're the daughter of Ellis Grey?" She sounded slightly jealous.

George's eyes widened. "The Ellis Grey? You're the stepdaughter of Dr. Webber? "

Why I couldn't disappear in the ground? I didn't know what to say, so I just nodded.

"Wow." Izzie said.

'No stupid comment?'

"Probably it's not easy for you." Said George understandingly and touched my arm gently.
I immediately pulled back - now he thought that I was crazy.

I felt someone standing behind me, but I didn't turn around. "Good afternoon, interns. I'm Dr. Shepherd. It's posted, but I thought I'd share the good news personally. "
No, my brain was playing tricks on me. He was not. That wasn't the man from this morning.
Inwardly, I freaked out, but I forced myself to look at him. His blue eyes attracted me magically in its spell. He didn't look so angry as this morning.

I hold my breath - whom he would choose?
'Please, don't choose me'
He was eying all the interns. His gaze didn't stop on a specific person as I heard what he said my heart sank. It couldn't be.

Why me?

Was it because I am Ellis Grey's daughter?

There is no way this is fair to the others.

"Meredith Grey?" He said waiting for someone to answer as everyone's gaze dropped to me, including him. I felt like I could vomit but I just turned to face him and his face full of surprise.

'Did he not recognize me or know who I am?'

"I can't do it, Choose another intern," I said under my breath before turning back to my food.

"Excuse me?" He scoffed.

"You heard me," I bit my lip and closed my eyes. He stood for a second and then he laughed.

"You think I chose you because you're the chief's stepdaughter, right? Or is it you are to afraid to do it because you can't stand up to the talent of your mother? Have you even studied medicine?" He sounded amused.

Why was he so mean? If he was still mad for the coffee?
I did nothing wrong! Anger rose in me - Of course I had studied medicine. Was he serious? "All Right. When does the surgery start?"

He looked surprised, but tried to cover it. "In an hour. Be well prepared. I am sure that the Chief is looking forward to your mistakes." With these words he disappeared.

I wouldn't make a single mistake, and that he would see. I had worked hard to get good grades. I couldn't understand why everyone thought that my life was that easy.
They didn't know my mother, they didn't know me.

In the OR I'd do my best.
'Forget Ellis, forget Richard. You can do it, you can do it Mer!'
I said it like a mantra – over and over again, to calm me down, when I made my way to the OR.