Chapter 5: Going Crazy With Worry
Nessie's POV
It had been two days already and I was going completely crazy. There was nothing, absolutely nothing, that I wanted more than my daughter right now. I wanted my daughter back. I wanted to know that she was safe and sound. I wanted to know that she was okay. I wanted to make things right with her. I wanted to tell her how sorry I was for ever making her feel less important just because she was human. I wanted to tell her how sorry we were for neglecting her. I wanted to let her know how special she was. Now it seemed like we would never get that chance. That killed me to no end at all. All I wanted was my daughter.
Jacob was going absolutely insane looking for her. It killed him as much as it killed me that he could not find our daughter. She was his only daughter, so she was very precious to him. It bothered him that he had unintentionally hurt his own daughter the way that we all had. He was just as determined to find her and make things right with her as I was. What bothered him the most was the abuse that she had been suffering from at school. Something that we all felt ashamed for knowing absolutely nothing about. Even my sons felt absolutely terrible about it. They hadn't read Alexia's diary, but wolves can never keep secrets from each other thanks to the whole wolf telepathy thing. They felt absolutely horrible that they had done nothing to help their sister. She had been bullied by a group of girls and sexually harassed by a group of boys. Actually I had to stop all four of them from marching into the school and killing the boys for ever sexually harassing her, even though I wanted to do the same myself. But that didn't matter much right now. What really mattered was finding Alexia and getting her home safe and sound. My daughter could be anywhere right now and anything could be happening to her! That is what killed me the most, not knowing.
Again, I wondered if my own parents, actually my whole family, ever felt this way when I ran away. Jacob was the only wolf that was still phasing at the time that I had ran away so my family had absolutely no way of being able to connect with us. But I still don't think that they cared enough to look for me. I'm not even sure that they cared enough to worry about me, let alone look for me. They were mad at me, so I'm sure they were happy that they didn't have to see me anymore. That didn't stop me from missing them though. I mean, I really did miss them. I loved them. They were family. But maybe they just didn't care as much about me as I did about them. I wondered if that is how Alexia was feeling? Did she miss us? Does she think that we don't care about her?
"Nessie?" I was surprised when I heard Jacob's voice behind me. I had been so wrapped up in my own thoughts that I didn't even hear him approaching. "Are you feeling okay?"
"No I'm not feeling okay!" I unintentionally snap at him and immediately regret it. "I'm sorry Jacob. I'm just beside myself with worry here"
He sighed. "So am I Nessie. So am I. But we are going to find her. I don't care how long it takes, we will not rest until we find our girl and bring her home. We are going to find her and we are going to make things right with her. We will make up for what we did to her. Maybe she will even replace you as the Queen of this house" he laughed in an attempt to lighten the mood. It worked, at least for a minute.
"You're really funny Jacob" I even managed to crack a smile. It only lasted half a second and then it disappeared from my face.
He kissed my brow. And, as usual, that had a calming affect on me. I was able to relax briefly, even if it was only for a minute.
Sorry that this a little short. I promise most of my chapters will 1000 words or more. But I hoped that you enjoyed it. Please Review.