Hey, people, This chapter has a bit of sexual activity, as my rating was 'T' it will most likely be made into an 'M' later. But enjoy.
Unmoving, my eyes stare at the ceiling. Only now, do I realise how cold it is in this room. My body is relaxed in the mirror above me, my eyes take in what they can. Clair hasn't said anything to me, no one ever told me what happens in the test, it's against the rules. The invisible rules of conduct that would be differed in each Faction. I don't know if things were supposed to be that hectic at first, I guess it's to test who you really are. I watch Clair in the mirror, how her eyes flick between me and the screen in front of her. I sit up after a moment, isn't she supposed to tell me what faction I got? She doesn't look at me as she says "One moment," I catch her hand twitching before she leaves the room.
She comes back in about 20 seconds later, looking totally reserved. She stops after closing the door and locking it. Then she stands, facing the mirror on the door. I feel my eyes widen. She looks at her eyes, then her face before she sighs and looks down. Feeling her body briefly, before going back to her computer and plugging in something. Did I do something wrong on the test? She looks up at me slowly, my legs swing over the side and dangle off the chair. "My results?" I ask her quietly,
"Dauntless," She blinks, my heart skips, and Amity transfer to Dauntless? I imagine the Dauntless boy who looked smug, the Dauntless jumping off trains and being rascals, shoving each other around. I open my mouth to say something but she cuts me off, "And Candor, and Erudite," Her amber eyes lock onto mine.
What?
What? Is all I can think. She glances around the room like we're being watched, she steps closer to me, lowering her voice, but that doesn't make it any less urgent, "Listen," She touches my knee, "You are not to tell anyone what your-" I interrupt her,
"What my results are yes I know but-" It is now a war between precious time.
"You're different," She says in a hushed voice, it shuts me up, "Your mind works in a way that threatens the system," System? The one that is run by the Erudite? "Do not tell anyone, what you got,"
"What is it called?"
"... It's called, Divergent…" She stares at me, and I only watch as fear dances across her eyes. She is no longer the Abnegation girl who is so reserved that she removes her mind from itself, she's a human being that is breaking all the rules it strived to follow. She has removed herself from the mantra and moral code that is Abnegation, that is part of the script that makes our five Factions coexist. She is human and she is trying to save me. Save me from a shadow in the dark of the society we live in, and the light, it seems is the Factions. Her hand touches my cheek, she smiles at me. Then she stands, and all evidence of our conversation is removed from her face. "I obstructed the data from your test and registered you as Abnegation,"
"Why not put me in as Dauntless?"
"Because, Abnegation is the safest place for you," all signs of her emotions are gone now, she is monotonous. Her calm demeanor is restored, and I now understand that the Abnegation are full of colorful characters. "You're Divergent aren't you?" I say matter of factly, she stops what she's doing for a moment, a common habit she needs to break. "Yes," She refocuses, "Amity, and Abnegation. If you value your life, and your families lives, you won't utter your divergence to anyone, especially Erudite members, even the ones that transferred," I nod. My body won't let me speak even if I tried. Hopping down to my feet she says calmly, "Choose wisely, Aislin," The door shuts with a soft 'click' behind me.
My knees are weak, and my feet are numb. My fingers sting like they were burnt, but my hands are cold. Divergent. A threat? Different, three Factions? What did she mean by 'system'? Why is Divergence only a serious threat to Erudite? My feet guide me to the table where Amity is.
Alex gives me a worried look, and Samantha sends a glance my way from her conversation about the orchards. Do I look that shaken up? Alex slides his arm around my shoulders, pulling me closer. Normally, I would care about such a public display of affection. I would care about being touched by a guy, but his heart beat is steady, and his body is warm. My mind is too frantic and jumbled to make sense of what's right and wrong right now. My mind whisks through the urgency in Clair's voice. She's Divergent, but she's in Abnegation, theres no way I could talk to her without being escorted from the premises. If I talk to her now, things could get complicated. I feel Alex's hot breath along my jaw and neck, I shiver.
He whispers so quietly I almost missed what he said, "Erudite and Amity," Erudite. My breath hitches but I keep a straight face, "There are cameras," He tells me. To the cameras and to other people, it looks like he's kissing my jaw, smart. I make myself blush and narrow my eyes a bit as he continues, "No doubt you got more than one," Factions, he means Factions. But how could he know? Eaves dropping maybe? No, the Erudite woman would get rid of him. Wait, he's Divergent. Why is he being stupid and telling me now?
I almost want to pull away and slap him. Doesn't he know that Erudite will kill him if they find out? "What did you get?" His voice is smooth, if I didn't know any better I'd say he was trying to get in my pants. My eyes find the cameras in front of me, just a slight flicker so whoever is watching won't notice. I've counted three. Alex squeezes my shoulder a bit. Is he scared? Something in my brain screams the word 'Idiot.' I shift my body so my face is nuzzled in his chest, against his collar, listing the colors of the faction clothes. "Black, blue, and white," He breathes in slowly nodding slightly against my hair. I don't know why I told him, all while Clair's words are ringing in my ears. He pulls away from me, his glossy dark eyes scanning my face. Theres something in his eyes I don't recognise. I can't help but look away, my eyes landing on the Dauntless table, the guy with dark hair is staring at me, no, glaring. He's biting his bottom lip with his arms crossed. His anger is directed at me, but what did I do? Am I mistaken? Is he jealous? Of me, an Amity girl?
Alex squeezes my shoulder harder and mumbles against my ear, I didn't realize he leaned in, "You'll be okay Aislin," We are sitting as close as possible without me on his lap, "I'll protect you," He murmurs. Something soft brushes against my jaw, I turn and look at him. More than aware that his hand has moved to my waist, and the other is playing with the hem of my dress. By body heats up, I lean my head back a bit and see his eyes are darker. Something unfamiliar is behind them, he looks like a different person this way. His fingers slide the hem of my dress up, so his hand now rests at my inner thigh. He leans closer to me, we're breathing the same air. My hand cups his jaw, his fingers brush my heat. I don't want this. I feel wrong. His lips are almost on mine, my eyes flicker over to the Dauntless, I catch his eyes just as he turns away. Alex presses against me with his fingers and my eyes widen.
No. I want him to stop.
I'm on my feet, panting before I know I hit him. He stares at me, wide eyed, the darkness from his eyes are gone. I've startled the Abnegation, Candor are whispering between each other, and Erudite even went silent. A red mark is forming on Alex's cheek. I brush my dress down and blush furiously, feeling the stinging in my eyes. My chest tightens, no, you can't cry here. I tell myself. I have the attention of all of Dauntless, all but one boy. Breathe.
Breathe in and out.
My feet started moving before my mind did, my hands fixing my dress. My mind is now blank from all the danger. It feels good to forget, my body is heavy, and the tears come before I'm out of the building. I do not sob, I will not sob. The pressure loads on me and I can't hold it in anymore. When I'm a reasonable distance from the Hub I stop near the tracks and scream, once and final. Then I compose myself, and I walk along the dirt road, back to Amity. A perfect place to hide Hell.
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