Mam didn't seem to right after that, actually, her mind was starting to go. In her delirious mind, She reacted horribly to being touched and was far more apathetic than she should be and that wasn't all, as she seemed to be unaware, along with screaming for her missing babies and servant, begging us to come back, even when we hadn't gone, and then attacking us when she perceived us as threat to her "precious" or being the cause of us being perceived "missing" or "stolen". She was slipping away from us and the beatings she had taken had only made it worse. Death will have been a worthy reward for someone to had suffered that much and yet deserved none of it.
I had no comprehension of why she was beaten so badly and I had no comprehension of what was the matter with her. Once again, Rei gave an explanation as she only she could give. "Sometimes, people hurt each other and hurt other people, which is true. However, what is the matter with your mother is that she is ill and that is because he hurt her." She wasn't lying, as living with someone like that would make her ill. Of course, living with someone like that, someone that beats the one they supposedly loved, is going to make someone sick, however, Rei wasn't talking about that kind of "sickness", she was talking about the kind of sickness that we couldn't see, the kind that affected her mind. It was madness, as she called it, although the proper term as I would later learn would be "mental illness". Mama was mentally ill and she didn't ask and neither did she deserve to live like this. No one does! Neither did we, which is why Rei has made it her resolve to take us away from here some day.
As much as it hurt, I knew, that if or when we got out of there, she couldn't take a maddened Mam with her. Deep within, Mam will have preferred it no other way. She probably knew this was her fate, yet she was tormented by what she couldn't do and that was to protect her babies and the servant she cared for ever so. She had so much stolen from her and she had truly lost what she could never hope to regain.