Remember the time Chapter 3: Shadows of the past, an inuyasha fanfic

Title: Remember the time

Chapter 3: Shadows of the past

Disclaimer: No I . . don't own him.

Sometimes I feel like I'm still driving, the ground beneath me spins, and I'm sent in a whirlwind of visions as the world flies past me. It's times like this I wonder what my purpose in life is. Like why am I here and what am I supposed to do? Am I taking the right path? Life is funny that way, leaving you on your own to chose your decisions and see where it leads you. But life is not nearly as confusing as fate.

I got home late, and when I arrived I was exhausted. Kouga had taken me to the most expensive restaurant in town. The settings were amazing and the service...was just fabulous. I had an incredible time, eating at the most elegant place I think that I had ever been too.

It's no wonder he told me to dress up. If I would have come dressed in jean pants and a plaid shirt, I would have looked ridiculous. Luckily when I checked my closet, I found several dresses that fit the occasion.

I went through a bunch of dresses before I settled on one. It was a simple black strapless dress, yet sparked with an elegant touch. The layers of the dress seemed to wrap around my body in waves over lapping each other. The end of the dress supported a long slit, at the right side it ended along my knee cap and on the left side it ran down past my knee and skimmed just past my shin.

My hair was done in shimmering curls, spiraling down around my face in long ringlets of silky raven tresses. I had a light touch of make up on, just enough to keep my face perfectly toned yet still seeming natural.

When we reached the restaurant I realized that my outfit had blended in well with my surroundings and for once I was proud of myself for doing something right.

After we had eaten and danced a little on the stage near the back of the restaurant, Kouga had insisted we head back to his place. I was a little hesitant at first, mainly because I had left Akami with Sango (the only person I really trust) and I was eager to return to her, but after some begging and persuading, I finally gave in and let him take me to his apartment.

When I reached his apartment, the lights in his place were dimmed and music was playing softly in the background. I had the slightest suspicion he had planned that I would come all along, with one motive in his mind. I could tell by the look in his eyes that he wanted to bed me. I really wasn't up to it, to say the least. After much discussion inside my mind, I had finally come to terms. I decided he deserved it after bringing me to such a wonderful place.

He was a great lover, but something just didn't feel right when we made love together. Don't get me wrong, he always gave me a good time. There was just something missing and I couldn't explain it. Like the fiery spark that lights up in the pit of your soul when he runs his hand over your body, or the squeeze inside your chest when he leaves you breathless.

I never obtained that with him. I really thought I loved him, but things just weren't seeming that way. My feelings were jumping around and scattered until I was at the point where I didn't know what to feel anymore.

It was always difficult for me, after Inuyasha, I never thought I could love someone with my whole heart again. He still held a piece of me with him, unknowingly holding a part of my battered heart.

I really tried to get back with him, not for me but for Akami's sake. I haven't stopped worrying for her. How it would be like for her to grow up without a real father. To live into a family with only her mother being the real blood related. For her sake, I wanted to bring him back into our lives but he just made it so difficult.

I guess deep inside of my heart, I'm holding out for him. Only for the good of Akami's future, but how am I supposed to when he does nothing to show me he is worthy?

He always left me stupefied by his actions. He once told me, he wanted to be with me again, that he would give anything to have me again. He had said that, yet he didn't do anything to help our relationship. To this day he still doesn't have a full time job, he still doesn't have the money to support a family and he wasn't even going to school.

He would never be fit to be a father, and as much as I wanted Akami to be happy with her real dad instead of having to see me marry someone else and attain a stepfather, I just couldn't force myself. After awhile I had given up, and moved on.

I started my new job at Shikon Corporation. I worked under the field of medical billing, I helped clients find options and ways to pay their bills. It was as good as a job that I could get at the age of twenty and it payed well. After a few months of working there, that was when I met Koga.

Life had unraveled since then, and now six months later I'm now 21 and have entered a steady relationship with him. I haven't really been around Inuyasha much since then. Only occasionally stopping by the chat with Akami by my side, but that was it.

Once upon a time I could see myself with him, now I don't see a future at all.

I carried Akami who was dosing lightly in my arms, into my apartment where I placed her unto her small princess bed and tucked her in. She looked adorable, bundled up into her small pink covers and princess pillows as she snored faintly. I brushed some loose strands of hair out of her face, and bent down to place a soft kiss on her forehead, before turning off her princess lamp.

Kouga had given me his jacket because of the cold weather, and it was still currently wrapped around my shoulders as I snuggled deeper into it, breathing in the musky scent of his cologne. I barely had the energy to rip off my dress and throw my high heels off of my feet, but after I was dressed into my pajamas, I fell instantly asleep. All thoughts and worries gone for the moment as I entered my dream world.

Morning came too soon for me, and I found myself dragging myself out of bed as I glanced around the room groggily. What day was it again? I couldn't remember. My mind was in a haze, and my head was spinning as I stood up to get myself something to eat.

Akami was curled up in her usual place on my bed. How she got from her bed that was across the room to my bed, I will never know. I smiled as she shifted sides and turned to face me, eyes clasped shut with sleep, fingers curled into the satin material of my sheets.

She was too busy sleeping, I didn't want to bother her so I slipped out of bed as silently as I could and made my way down the hall. It was still early, that I could tell. The early morning rays was enough to notify me that the day hadn't officially started yet.

When I reached the kitchen, I glanced at the small calender that clung to the refrigerator from a magnet and groaned in dissatisfaction when I saw the date. It was Sunday, the weekend had once again flung by in a blur and soon I will start another dreadful week of work and school.

Tomorrow I have to go to work and if that wasn't enough, I have to go to school tomorrow night as well. Since I work a full time job, I only go to school Monday and Wednesday nights, giving me the opportunity to stay at work full time.

I wanted nothing more then to stay at a dorm and go to college on a regular basis like I know a few of my old friends in highschool did, but now that I have a kid, that just wasn't an option any more. College wasn't so bad, It was only a simple community college which was good enough for me.

After preparing a quick breakfast, soon enough Akami had smelled the sweet aroma of food and had drifted out of her bed and into the kitchen. I smiled as she entered and mumbled a 'good morning' which she repeated wearily.

We ate in silence since both of us were to lethargic to talk and soon enough we had finished all of our food.

"Akami sweetie, what do you want to do today?" I asked as soon as she had handed me her empty dish. Out of my peripheral vision I noticed her cock her head to the side and smile brightly despite the weary mood she was in.

"Can we see daddy?" Akami asked, excitement sparkled from her deep chocolate smudged amber orbs as she thought about spending time with her father.

My stomach did a flip flop at the mention of Inuyasha. He was the last person I felt like seeing at the moment.

"Honey, why don't I just take you to the mall instead?" I asked, sending her hopeful eyes.

She shook her head instantly at my offer and grinned at me. One of the many features that she inherited from her father.

"Nope, I want to see daddy. Please mama! It's Sunday!" She pleaded, giving me the puppy dog pout, bottom lip sticking out slightly and eyes shining with sorrow.

I sighed, knowing immediantly she would never change her mind. Once she had her mind set on something, I couldn't change her decision.

I mentally groaned to myself. 'Just great, another wonderful day with Inuyasha.' I thought to myself.

"Fine, go get ready and then we'll go." I grumbled, dragging myself over to the phone and plucking it off it's cradle. She squealed in retaliation, jumping out of her seat and running as fast as her little legs would carry her towards our bedroom.

I punched in his number, waiting impatiently for him to answer. It took him longer then usual, but finally he had answered his phone just before I was about to hang up.

"Yeah, what?" He breathed into the phone, sounding as if he had just gotten up. I rolled my eyes at this.

"Don't tell me you just got up." I said evenly, annoyance planted firmly as I spoke.

"Ah god Kagome, what is it now?" I noticed how his voice seemed to straighten and speak more clearly once he had figured out it was me who called, I rose an eye brow at this.

"You need to get up, get yourself cleaned and dressed because Akami would like to spend the day with her father." I replied softly. I heard the phone shuffle slightly as his voice spoke more loudly.

"What? When are you coming?" He asked, I didn't miss the trace of worry in his voice, and it made me start to wonder what he was up to.

I heard a rather feminine voice in the background, and suddenly something clicked in my mind.

"Do you have a woman over there? Kikeo?" I asked curiously as Inuyasha drew in a gulp of air. I could hear it processing through the phone as he breathed in and out slightly.

"It's Kikyo, and yeah she's over." He sighed into the phone.

"I should have known. Well if you would rather be with your girlfriend then spend time with your only daughter then I completely understand. Goodbye." I muttered, as I moved to slam the phone unto it's hook.

"No wait Kagome!" I heard him plead just as the phone hit the receiver.

How dare he? Here I was offering him the opportunity to spend time with his beloved daughter that he rarely ever sees, but of course he's in bed sleeping around with some chick. How am I supposed to tell Akami this.

'Oh honey, sorry but we can't see your father because he's busy fucking some chick in his bed. Maybe another time?' I don't think so.

The phone rung suddenly, scattering my thoughts as I glared at the ringing object. I ignored it and let it ring until the answer machine answered.

"Kagome, please pick up the phone. I really want to spend time with Akami, and you. Come on Kag doll-"

"Don't ever call me that." I cut off his message, glaring at the counter harshly as my heart turned to ice. I hated when he called me that, only because he had called me that constantly when we were dating. It brought up too many painful memories.

"I'm sorry. Listen, Kikyo's leaving in a little, so you can come over-"

"You don't set the time, I do. I tell you when you can see her, you don't tell me." I spoke icily into the phone and I could literally hear him tense up.

"Listen I'm sorry okay? I didn't know you were going to come over. If I had known I would have-"

"You would have fucked her faster and then sent her on her way right? Just spare me. I don't want to hear your excuses. Just get ready and I'll be over soon." I cut him off abruptly, barely giving him enough time before I slammed the phone on it's receiver yet again.

I don't know why it bothered me so much, the fact he was sleeping with another woman. I myself am with another guy, so why should it bother me?

After taking a quick shower and dressing both me and Akami up with suitable outfits, I grabbed my car keys and took Akami into my car.

The car ride consisted mainly of Akami jumping up in her car seat and singing every song that came unto the radio, regardless if she knew the words or not.

Once we had finally reached his apartment, I was surprised to see Inuyasha outside, standing next to the figure of a woman that looked very much like his girlfriend. Hell, she probably was his girlfriend.

Just as I was stepping out, he dipped his head in and locked her lips into a chaste parting kiss. I winced slightly when I witnessed this, it was rather...I don't know, awkward to see him kiss another woman in front of me.

Once he had pulled away, she gave him a quick hug and then started on her way down the drive way. We ended up passing each other, as I held Akami with my hand, however she ignored me and continued walking to her car.

I wasn't bothered much by it. She didn't look like the type of woman that would happily greet me anyway.

Inuyasha locked gazes unto me as I came up to him and for a moment our eyes connected. He opened the door and allowed us entrance after he was finished greeting Akami and giving her a kiss on the forehead.

"Still grumpy?" He mumbled from behind me as he followed us deeper into his home. I glanced at him from over my shoulder and sighed.

"I was never grumpy, you just always seem to piss me off." I replied. Akami suddenly broke away from me and scurried into the living room, already trying to switch the television on so she could watch another one of her shows. However neither of us noticed.

"Feh, you should be the last to talk. You have a gift at pissing me off." He snorted and glanced away from me.

I smiled at that comment. Yeah, I could be a real persistent bitch to him, especially when it concerned with child support money. Speaking of which.

"Inuyasha." I began sternly, catching his attention as he glanced up at me once again.

"Yeah what?"

"You do realize it's that time of the month right?" I asked as he glanced up at me curiously.

"What, your on your period?"

"No you idiot! You have to pay me my child support." I blushed slightly and turned my head so he couldn't see it.

"Oh, I will. Just give me another week." He mumbled, causing me to stop in my tracks and turn around to glare at him.

"It's always, 'another week' with you isn't it?" I muttered angrily, glaring hotly in his direction. He had stopped walking once I had, and appeared inches away from me.

"I'm sorry but I haven't gotten paid yet. God Kagome. You will get your damn money soon okay!" He growled, echoing my glare as he narrowed his eyes down at me. I stepped closer towards him, bringing my hands to my hips as I continued to glare at him.

"You can't keep being late Inuyasha. I need the money for Akami."

He surprised me by stepping closer to me, our faces nearly inches apart as he glared down at me. My mind was suddenly in a blaze, my body stiffening, little alarm bells going off in my head when I realized how close we were. I could feel his warm breath creep down my neck, making me feel insecure from our tight proximity.

"I know. I'll get it for you." He stated evenly, staring straight into my eyes. The angry look in his eyes seemed to vanish when he realized how close we were, and I could have sworn I saw the faintest blush stain his cheeks. Neither of us made a move. I was slowly losing my voice, my heart was racing against my chest as if it was trying to break free. I was normally never affected this way, I couldn't help but think that something was wrong with me.

As I pondered my situation, I hadn't noticed he had appeared even closer to me, the tips of our noses nearly touching as he locked an intense gaze with me. I just know he heard the loud pounding of my heart as it plundered into my chest and through my rib cage.

He took a deep breath, we were so close, I could almost feel the rise of his chest as he breathed in my scent. A look of ease crossed his features, which was suddenly wiped away a moment later. He broke away from me abruptly, an angry look registered unto his handsome face as he stared at me with narrowing eyes.

"Kagome . . " He began angrily, giving me one of the most sharpest glares I had ever seen.

Taken aback by his sudden change of attitude, I answered back weakly. "What?"

"Why do you have Kouga's scent all over you?" He growled, jealousy flashed through his golden pools as he glared down at me intensely.

"Wh- what?" I stammered, clutching my shirt with my hand and taking a whiff. I didn't smell Kouga on me. Maybe it was his demon enhanced senses that made him able to smell traces of Kouga. Either way, I thought I had rubbed his scent off of me when I took my shower. Perhaps I didn't scrub hard enough?

"You heard me. Why can I smell that dirty wolf all over you? You fucked him didn't you?" His eyes flashed at the thought, his blood rushing to his head as he let out an angry growl.

My eyes shone dangerously as he said that. What right did he have to speak to me this way?

"Why the fuck should you care? He's my boyfriend Inuyasha. My boyfriend, do you understand? I can sleep with anyone I want." I replied angrily, brushing past him as I made my way towards the living room where Akami resided in. I didn't feel like starting another argument, especially not in front of Akami.

However, Inuyasha thought otherwise. I should have known he wouldn't let it go so easily. He stopped me by grabbing my arms and spinning me towards him, I let out a startled gasp as his claws scraped lightly against my shoulder.

"So you admit it then. You screwed that piece of shit wolf." He glowered as he practically shoved me into a wall, making me let out a small whimper although it went unnoticed by him seeing as how he was too blinded by rage to notice.

"Let go of me. It's not like you haven't fucked Kikyo!" I screamed back, trying to pry his deadly grip from my arms, but to no avail.

"That's completely different, she's - "

"It's not different! Listen Inuyasha. We are not together! Alright! We're not! So just get that through your head! We've been over for more then a half a year! When you are going to see that?" I shouted so loud, his ears twitched from the intensity of it.

Silence settled unto the room, but only for a moment. His grip on me loosened, yet he still chose to pin me to the wall.

"He can't touch you like I can. He can't love your body like I can. Nobody can." He breathed down my neck, sending shivers to flow throughout my body. My breath nearly got caught in my throat as I stared at him with wide eyes. He didn't just say that? Did he?

I could feel my heart speed up, pounding against my chest and for a minute I thought I couldn't breathe. For awhile we just stood there, both gazing into each other's eyes. Until a small voice broke through our entrancement.

"Mama? Daddy?" Akami's small voice reached my ears and I immediantly broke through my daze and pulled away from Inuyasha, which he allowed me to instantly.

"I'm so sorry honey, me and daddy were just discussing something. Come on, let's go watch cartoons." I said gently, trying to muster up the biggest smile I could afford although my body was a little racked and I was trembling slightly.

He didn't say much to me the rest of the day. Nor I. To be honest, I really didn't know what to say to him now. So I just stayed by Akami's side and kept her company.

A/N: Sorry for the long wait! Please forgive me. I got grounded because my grades suck. Finals are coming up, so this might be the last update for awhile. Unless I get some love. Later days -FM