I own nothing but a love of the show. ABC or AWM owns it all.

Everything he would and would not remember

I Would, but

I would remember the first time I saw you. All hard lines and sharp angles, hair cropped and a mask of a face that screamed no access, but I won't have to.

I would remember the first time my heart tugged at the sight of you and another man. So guarded and unsure, a little lost girl, but I won't have to.

I would remember when you told the tough talking, foreshadowing agent 'he touches things' and how my whole body wished it was you, you, you I was allowed to touch, but I won't have to.

I would remember the day that evil first walked into our lives, gripping our souls while you gripped my hand with the excuse of coffee, but I won't have to

I would remember the freezing cold feel of our body huddled with mine while you almost whispered the words that would've warmed us both, but I won't have to.

I would remember the night in the L.A. hotel room, the mystery I wanted to solve before the night ended and the door closed, but I won't have to

I would remember the look in your eyes, the determination, the awe, the relief and the almost kiss until my mother spoke up, but I won't have to.

I would remember confessing that you are the most maddening, frustrating, challenging woman I've ever met, the fight that ended and started the next chapter of us, but I won't have to.

I would remember the whisper soft sound of your feet as you stole back in my room, coffee in hand, clad only in my shirt assuring me it wasn't a dream or your panic, but I won't have to.

I would remember the cell, the smell of fear and your faith that never died, but I won't have to

I would remember being your bomb buddy, steadfast by your side as you recognized the finality of the moments and made me promise something I never would be willing to give, but I won't have to.

I would remember the secrets, the hidden flight tag, the confession of an interview and the jarring reality of just wanting more, not matter what, but I won't have to.

I would remember your sparkling eyes reflecting my ring and your love, the startled surprise as you grasped the meaning of my proposal and mused at just how great we could be, but I won't have to.

I would remember the lion's glare, the one you gave him, the one you have me. The threat of no more invitations into your lair, smoothed over with sea shell memories, but I won't have to.

I would remember the blissful font that never was as you were called to the belly of beast only, to come out thinking of our future, because you held me in your heart the whole time, but I won't have to.

I would remember you fighting dragons, fleeing the danger, running to fight another day with you, knowing I would run anywhere as long as we were together, but I won't have to.

I would remember the ridiculous chase for your matrimonial freedom, fighting for our happy ending, pursuing happiness and the teasing lilt of hey lover in my ear, making my heart skip a beat and my foot press harder on the accelerator, but I won't have to.

I would remember being ready, so ready to come back to you, to us because how could I want anything else even if it meant forgetting a part of me, but I won't have to.

I would remember watching you not walk down the aisle, but glide across our lawn, barely touching the grass brilliant in your happiness and being grounded by your words of, I do, extraordinary and partners in crime forever, but I won't have to.

I would remember the dark night, the playful Noir narrative and the taste of my scotch on your tongue, the slick heat of exploration while you searched out your very own private dick, but I won't have to.

I would remember the moment true evil resurrected itself, terrorizing our senses, our beliefs and taunting us as we acted as puppets, but I won't have to.

I would remember the moment my world crashed, weak utterances of apologies no longer required or acknowledged because I had failed in my commitment, failed you, but I won't have to.

I would remember everything about you, about us, but I won't have to because your loving eyes are opening, searching for me, your indefatigable pulse is strengthening and you're coming back home to me.

A/N - Thanks for indulging me while I struggle to familiarize myself with writing again. There will be one more chapter after this.

Shout out to GM who was willing to look this over and insert the missing words I was looking for. Even with a bit of help all mistakes are my own.