Kaneki you are a…

…

I don't know how much time I spent on my knees next to Gourmet, but I think that I fell asleep while I was crying. When I open my eyes again slowly, I see the face of the brown-haired ghoul that I couldn't kill while I was looking for the Gourmet in front of me. I don't even have enough energy to be surprised, and it's likely that he came to take revenge against me. It's quite funny, since I will be killed by the one ghoul I couldn't kill.

Even though, he does nothing. He just stares at me, squatting, as if he was trying to find some answers to what was going on.

-So it really is you, Kaneki – Instead of eating me, the ghoul just talks to me.

-What do you want from me… freaking ghoul. C'mon, kill me already. That's what you want, isn't it?

-Damn it, Kaneki. What the fuck did they do to you? We all thought you were dead, and here you are.

-I don't know what you're talking about, damned ghoul – I need to recover and fight.

-C'mon, Kaneki. Damned dwarf, don't you remember me? I can understand that you hate Tsukiyama, and even feel thankful that you beat him hard, but… beating me? Again?

-What do you mean…? Tsukiyama? –That name again. For some reason, it bring shady memories.

-Do you really not remember anything?

-I have nothing to remember concerning you, fucking ghouls!

-DAMN IT, KANEKI! – the last phrase I said really made him mad, and now he takes me by the neck and raises me – DID YOU FORGET EVERYTHING?! REMEMBER ALREADY!

-I have nothing… to remember – I don't care about anything this ghoul has to say, I must kill them all – I must fight, I have to fight.

With difficulty I try to raise my quinque, and the brown-haired ghoul tries to activate his kagune with whatever energies he has left, because he hasn't recovered yet from our fight. When we are about to fight again, a man jumps between us and picks us both from behind to raise us. Who is this guy? I can see that he has white hair and a long coat. Is it Arima? No, this guy has a different condition, but whom…

-You have fought enough, Kaneki.

-…Yomo, you are kind of late – the brown-haired ghoul talks to the other one and grumbles.

-I'm sorry, Nishiki – the brown-haired ghoul is called Nishiki? – I stumbled with part of that white haired investigator's team.

Is he talking about Arima's squad? That gives me shivers. Damn it, this guy is a ghoul too, and that makes me ghoul into full-alert mode. What happened to the squad?

-Fuckers, I will kill you… all of you… fucking ghouls – I try to resist to the ghoul called Yomo, but I don't have enough energy to escape yet. I must think quickly or they are going to kill me.

-Ken, you really… it doesn't matter – Why does everyone knows my name? – Nishiki, we must leave quickly.

-Ok then, who grabs Kaneki? I can't really lift anything right now, you know – so the ghoul called Nishiki won't leave the dinner behind.

-In his current state he is dangerous; we can't carry him with us. Also, the white haired investigator is getting closer and we must take Tsukiyama with us too.

-I won't leave him behind! – is he so eager to kill me? – Damn it, it's been so long, I won't let that idiot get lost again.

-Nishiki…

-Kaneki is our friend, Yomo!

…friend? Why does he consider me his friend? Damn it, I know that I should be fighting back or staying alert, but I feel kind of safe around them. What the hell is going on with me? This all gives a terrible headache and I start to scream and twist on the floor, since the ghoul called Yomo dropped me to carry the Gourmet. No! Don't take my objective, I must kill him… I must…

Yeah, it's our duty. But we don't really want to do it, right? Kaneki…

…

Once again I fainted, and the last thing I remember is trying to grab my quinque against those 2 ghouls that talked to me so naturally. I feel my body heavy, what did they do with me? I also have a headache, but it's a different feeling this time. I can remember something, the ghoul called Nishiki punched my face really hard and I fainted. Damned ghoul, I shall make him pay one day when I find him again. But that can wait, since right now I'm starving so much. I should have brought a supply of the special CCG's food, because I really need it. But… It kind of smells nice around here. I don't really have much energy left, but the smell is wonderful, so I try as hard as I can to stand up and check out where that smell is coming from. I can feel it; it comes from a quite faraway place, above something that looks like… a table? Yeah, it's a table. For some reason, I feel like I should protect something on that table. Maybe the food? Who knows, I just need to check if that delicious smell is coming from there. I walk there slowly, drooling due to my hunger. I don't even check the path when I stand next to the table and check on the feast awaiting me. But, for my horror, it's not a feast, not even a plate of food. It's a human, a friend, and I was thinking about eating him. No, this can't be truth, I want to eat humans? I can see that his arm is bleeding, and that's the source of the smell I detected a while before. I'm in shock, unable to move a single muscle, when Leonard opens his eyes with difficulty.

-Yo, Kaneki, what are you doing here? Run, quickly… the Gourmet…

-Leonard, the Gourmet is gone, everyone has gone. You are safe now… - wait, is he really safe when I thought about eating him? – I will get you out now, don't worry.

-Nice, you finished those blasted ghouls, eh? Excellent – He can barely talk, because a strong cough invades him – I think I lost too much blood, mind if I faint?

-Damn it, Leonard – I know this guys from a few hours ago and I already feel like I can trust him – Shut up already or I will have to carry you unconscious to the exit.

-You are right, and that would be really weird and look like a shame on my CV, no?

We both laugh for a while, but I stop when his coughing comes back, now filled with blood. Delicious bloo- NO! What the hell am I thinking? And Leonard has changed his attitude, because he felt my change.

-Kaneki, is something wrong?

-It's nothing

-C'mon, you can tell me. Maybe you go weak around blood?

-You could say that… Leonard, we must leave quickly. Mind if I carry you?

-I thought you would never offer it and I would have to return alone. Go ahead, carry me.

Slowly, I accommodate Leonard on my shoulder, and I can see that he is suffering a lot. I must hurry up or he will fall unconscious – but that would be good, right? Easier to eat – no, shit shit shit, what the fuck is going on with me? I try to stay calm when I notice that Leonard can't' keep going and faints over me. Exhausted for his weight, I decide to rest for a while on a safe place. At least, as safe as a war zone can be. There's a lot of blood coming out of his arm, wish I could stop it with a bandage or drinking it – fuck, no, damn it. Must be a psychological reaction due to stress caused by the battles or...

Don't be an idiot, Kaneki. Do you really think that?

And here goes the psychopath voice again, the one that…

The psychopath voice? Idiot, it's YOUR voice.

That's not me. You are NOT me, I don't think about eating… humans.

Really, Kaneki? You are trying to eat your friend, right? That's not quite human-ish.

Shut up, I didn't think about that. I don't eat humans, only… ghouls… do that.

Well, you finally nailed it.

Yeah, ghouls eat humans, and that would be impossible for me. I am a human.

Human? C'mon, you were so close the truth. Try again…

I'm a human, I'm a human, I'm a human. Shut up already.

Humans don't regenerate half of their torsos, you know?

I didn't lose a single part of my body, shut up already. The Gourmet never took part of my torso, it was all a psychological illusion caused by high pressure and trauma.

Illusion? It seems like you need a more… graphic example. Ok then, let's start with the lower half of your back…

My back? What are you talking about…?

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