If I had to define her… she would be like a dream come true.
For some reason, I'm on a flower field, on a small hill, running behind a slim and fast figure that moves with the agility of a happy rabbit. Everything in her fascinates me: her white dress, her eyes, her blue hair, her smile.
Especially her smile, the one she shows me every time I'm about to catch her, and with a small jump, she runs away from me again.
I feel like I'm running out of energy, but I still won't give up. Luckily, I'm wearing a white short and a black t-shirt, ideal for running. They are torn, but it doesn't matter.
Even though the face of that girl is one that I can't identify, I feel like I've known her for a long time, like she was a really special person for me. Really, really important, actually.
-Hold on, please! – I can't run anymore and I shout so she will listen to me before she runs too far away, because that idea scares me – Don't… don't leave me, please.
-What are you talking about, Kaneki? You are the one who left – she stops several meters ahead of me, and answers without turning around – Did you forget already?
-I wouldn't do something like that! – No, I wouldn't be capable of leaving someone that seems so important for me – Please, stay here.
And then, turning around and facing me, she extended her hand and smiled to me while saying:
-Idiot, I wouldn't be capable of leaving you.
Just hearing those words make my heart beat really fast. I'm really happy right now, and I'm walking to her slowly, panting, and I extend my own hand to touch hers, but…
Suddenly, the scene changed.
I'm wearing a black suit form-fitting, with my shoulders showing and a black short too. I have white stripes on my torso and my back is showing, and this puzzles me. When I'm centimeters away from touching her hand, my whole body stops reacting. Even though I try to move, it just won't. She seems angry and sad, and starts grabbing her hand away from me.
-No, wait please – It doesn't matter how much I try, my body won't react – Wait, wait, wait please!
-Kaneki, you…
-I'll be stronger – Yes, that's it. I will become stronger to get to her – Please, wait, I'm begging you.
-Stronger…?
-Yes, I'll definitely be stronger! – I feel like I can move my fingers again, and I make them creak continuously. Also, my back is burning – Just one more minute… I…
But now she has completely withdrawn her hand from my reach, and has a strong look that mixes frustration and sadness.
-Why did you have to change, idiot?
-URGH!
Again, I feel my surroundings changing, and the flower field we were on is now burning on flames that burn everything on their reach. It's only her and I, inside a circle surrounded by tall walls of flames.
And her eyes changed with her clothes. She is wearing shorts and a jacket, and her eyes became black and injected with blood, those were pupils with a strong red color, and a deep hate in her eyes, with a pair of wings coming out of her back.
Just like if she was…
A ghoul.
My head aches really bad, I feel like it's going to explode any time soon if I don't focus. But I can't, I can't, I just can't. I try to hold my head with my hands, just to hurt me with something heavy that I was lifting with my right hand. When did I get this? When I look closely, I can see that I changed too. Now I'm wearing my investigator battle suit, and I'm holding my quinque halberd on my right hand, and it turned into 8 claws that move furiously. When I look closely to my quinque's handle, I can see the reflection of my face…
And I notice my left eye has the same color as hers. Deep black with red pupils.
Slowly, my headache goes away, and I can't take my sights off the girl that is in front of me. Did I think she was an angel? No, she isn't.
She is a monster, and it's my duty to finish her.
But how could I…
Without time to think about it, I notice that she jumps straight at me with full speed, ready to crush me with her feet. Clenching my teeth, I know what I must do. I prepare my quinque to protect myself from the impact, and when we are about to crash, one last image clouds my mind.
She is crying. And so am I.
Why is this happening…?
…
-Kaneki, wake up.
*zZz* not… yet…
-Kaneki, wake up, you are drooling on the papers.
-What…? – I feel someone is touching my shoulder, and I notice that I'm resting on a desk – My angel…?
-Angel? I'll take that as a compliment – It takes a while for me to completely wake up and notice my mistake. It's not an angel, it's Akira Mado – Whatever, new information arrived for you to analyze, Kaneki.
-Y-Y-Y-Yes, Akira, I'm deeply sorry! – It takes a little bit longer to realize what I just said, and take the reports from Akira's hands to pile them up with the mountain of reports I already have on my desk.
It's been several months since the battle at the Ghoul Restaurant and my fight with Gourmet, and since then I've been analyzing information regarding the Aogiri tree and their movements. With every new report that arrives, investigators suggest that survivors from the Restaurant battle joined the Aogiri tree, but I don't think it's like that.
But I don't spend much time thinking about that, since I feel a stare over my shoulder.
-Ehm… Akira, can I help you with something?
-You know, Kaneki, I don't care what the others say. I believe you are a good person and that you can be trusted.
Akira's words surprise me, and I can't help but blush a little bit.
-T-Thank you, Akira.
-It's my intuition that is telling me that, that's all. See you later and good luck with those reports, Kaneki.
-Yeah, good bye, Akira.
With nothing else to add, she turns around and goes to the exit of the office I'm currently using, near Arima's office. I guess she is going to the main offices of the CCG.
Anyways, I have to continue checking these reports even if it takes me the whole night.
I don't feel like sleeping lately, anyways, because every night I have the same dream.
The blue-haired girl… and the tears that fall through her face at the end.