Izaya was skipping through the bustling city, that was filled with all kind of wonderful people, including the leader of the dollars and yellow scarfs being mare children, a magical irish fairy, also known as a dullahan, a monster with brute strength and anger issues, and many other wonderful beings that Izaya loved to look at. This city was Ikebukuro, the place were Izaya was drawn to.

He was minding his own business, if that includes watching as a female smashed up her boyfriends car as the boyfriend and some other female draped in bed sheets stood at the window screaming down to the road below. The female was crying heavily as the crowbar smashed into the back window.

The boyfriend screamed and cursed at the girl below drawing a crowd. Izaya almost felt bad for her, he was the one who told that female smashing the cars window to return home at this time. She had been worried about her boyfriend cheating, he only told her to return from work early.

Honestly he hated seeing couples split up. How many secrets that girl would of told that douche bag at the window, how she probably poured her heart out to him and only to have him trampled on it, no wonder she was smashing his cars window in. How the female imagined a beautiful life with that dick. How she could imagine herself in a lovely and expensive white dress walking down to meet that dick at the alter. How he'd hold her hand when she pushed for the baby to leave her and the smiles that dick would give her when the child started shrieking. Their love story was beautiful yet ended tragically.

Yet, Izaya had no story. He yet had to write an introduction to at story, he still needed the paper and pen. He wanted to write a story, yet no main character ever introduced herself or himself. He shrugged walking away from the scene, his hands in his pocket as he thought of the book he wanted. The girl would be blonde and intelligent, yet shy. They'd be in the same class and at the end of the day when they are on cleaning duty, she'd confess her love to him and he'd agree to date her. From then on, he'd share his darkest secrets with her, tell her what he loved. Tell her what made him cry. He'd stand at that alter and watch as she walked towards him with a smile on her beautiful face. She'd stop when she was beside him and her slender hand would hold his and she'd look at him with such beautiful eyes. They'd lean in for a kiss and everyone would clap for them as their eternity together was declared.

Nine months later he'd be holding her hand as she pushed for her own child out, how he'd hand over their daughter and smile at his wife who was as beautiful as the first day he laid eyes on her. From then on they'd live a happy ever after.

Izaya sighed to himself and felt a fist to the jaw with the growl,"IZAYA!" The name stretched out as the said male went flying into a building, his head smashing against the wall, his body slumping to the floor, bones broken. Shizuo walked over and with a hand to his neck, strangled him till his eyes rolled back.

When Izaya came to he saw him lying beside his lover, Shizuo. He smiled gently and reached up to touch his cheek, "Hey you," He saw the hatred in his lovers eyes and lowered his hand back to his side.

"I don't love you. I never have. I want you dead," and with those parting words Shizuo lifted a large butcher knife into the air and swung it down with great force...

Izaya opened his eyes with tears streaming down his face. He turned to see Shizuo sleeping beside him. He growled and more tears streamed down his face. The raven kicked the blonde in the stomach startling him up, "I can't do this. Let's break up...I want you out of my house," Izaya said after, keeping his voice low. Shizuo didn't move and started at his new boyfriend with confusion. They just got together, he was so confused. "GET OUT OF MY HOUSE! LEAVE! NOW!" Izaya screamed as more tears fell down his face. Shizuo got up and put on his clothes before exiting quickly.

Izaya turned into his pillow and cried himself to sleep.

Shizuo was walking around with Tom collecting debt from idiots and morons. He just started work and let out a large yawn, he watched as Izaya was on the other side of the road and was looking down at his phone. He watched as a blonde, slim and very sexy - from behind ran up to Izaya and kissed him on the lips before touching his cheek and wrapping her arms around his shoulders.

Tom noticed his staring, "Did you make up during the christmas party?" Shizuo looked to his boss with confusion and shook his head.

"It's to early to be fighting. I don't want him here, but he isn't doing anything yet so he'll be fine till lunch," Tom laughed and gently patted his friends back.

"Want to head for breakfast first?" Shizuo nodded then the two walked away noticing that Izaya and the blone were already away.

Izaya and the blonde headed female were sitting in a café, waiting to be served. The blonde smiled to Izaya before reaching forward and cupping his cheek as her thumb ran under his left eye, "Sweetie. What have you been crying for?" She asked with a genuine smile.

Izaya leaned into her touch and shook his head, "Rei. It doesn't concern you? I'm fine. I haven't been crying?" He smiled back at the girl. He had cried all night and into the morning but he didn't want to tell her that.

"Come on. We are cousins. Tell me?" Izaya shook his head.

"I swear on the twins life. I wasn't crying," he did slip his hand into his pocket and crossed his fingers to ensure their safety. Rei noticed this and raised a perfectly shaped eyebrow.

"Fine...I cried myself to sleep," when he said that Shizuo was passing by with Tom. The blonde stopped and looked to Izaya but took a seat beside Tom at a small booth. "But I was really ill yesterday and I don't know why I cried. Can we drop it," Izaya blushed. Rei nodded then watched as male waiter inched forward.

"Hi darling," Rei smiled to the stranger, "Can we have a coffee no milk or sugar and a café latte with extra sweetener. For breakfast can we have two egg specials," she handed the waiter the menu's once he finished writing and he scurried away.

"Do you have any plans this evening?"

"Of course. My girlfriend and I are going for dinner. What do you think?!" He barked at her.

"You do now. Honey. I'm getting married on christmas. Hiroshi is having a stag night and you are going. The twins are my brides maids and you are the best man. So you are going to that stag night,"

"Hiroshi as in Hiroshi Takizawa. That Hiroshi. He's a flaming dick," Izaya said rather loudly getting a few heads turning, mainly Shizuo's.

"Please. I love him and I want you to enjoy yourself. Please go to the stag night for me?" Izaya nodded his head as he rolled his eyes.

"I swear to god, if there are any playboy hats or something stupid I'll die," Rei smiled to him then took his hand and held it in her own.

"You are the best," The waiter came over and put their drinks down then watched as Izaya yawned.

"You were ill yesterday, how are you feeling today?"

"Better," Izaya smiled then stood up. "I'm going to the bathroom for a second?" He stood up and made his way to the bathroom where he simply washed his hands. People in the stalls ran for it as he entered. He wasn't in the mood for much interaction. He heard the door open and heard the door lock.

Izaya turned to see Shizuo standing at the door with a frown, "What happened last night?" He asked. Izaya didn't say a word and went to dry his hands. He watched as Shizuo advanced forward and he tried to make a run for it. He managed to get to the door but couldn't unlock it quick enough.

"Talk to me," Shizuo begged holding the door shut. Izaya shook his head. He didn't want to seem week but he was terrified. He slid down the door and heard his phone ring. He answered it but said nothing. He hung up and sent Rei a text, to box up their breakfast. He waited for a reply which was a few minutes and read that Rei had it packed and payed for. He thanked her before getting up and kicking Shizuo away before making a run. He took Rei's hand and ran out of the café in a rush. Rei grabbed their breakfast and followed him away. She felt him shaking. He had changed. Her cousin wasn't right in the head.

The two headed to Rei's hotel and he lay on her bed shaking. He didn't want to be near Shizuo, he didn't understand anything. He confused him so much he made his head hurt. Why would he ask him out? They were once enemies. Sleeping with each other didn't change that, well it kind of did, but they were drunk. It was a night full of lust and nothing else.

"Sweetie. You're crying," Rei lay on his back and cuddled into him kissing his neck. Izaya growled and punched her away hitting her face. He didn't want to deal with her at the moment and her strange kisses he received from him.

He heard her whimper and saw a large bruise on her eye forming. Izaya shook his head and got up from the bed and touched her cheek and took her hand hand, "Sorry," He whispered before sitting back on the bed and closing his eyes as more tears streamed down his face.

He was the first person that was ever interested in him at all and it made him happy, but they had such bad blood that the idea was not even negotiable. Shizuo was probably planning his revenge and if he fell in love with him, he'd let down his guard and that's when he'd get him.

He wanted true love. He wanted that love that was only found in movies. He didn't want to end up like that girl smashing the windows in the guys car. He would be faithful to the person but he wanted them to be faithful back. He'd be a wreck if they weren't. He didn't want to be hurt.

He pretended that he wasn't bothered with everyone hating him but he was. He wanted just someone, that wasn't Rei, the twins or his parents, to love him. He just wanted someone. Rei got onto the bed and kissed Izaya's cheek, "Have your breakfast then go to sleep," Izaya sat up with tears streaming and opened the container and dug in to the egg special that included omelette, scrambled egg and toast. Izaya ate in silence, watching his cousin who was also silent.

"What's hurting you?" She asked. Izaya swallowed then looked down, blushing slightly.

"You'll laugh,"

"You can trust me," Izaya nodded then sighed.

"I want someone to love me...not just you or Miaru and Kururi nor mum and dad. Someone I can trust, snuggle up with. Make love songs seem fake while our love is stronger. Everyone is finding someone and I'm all alone. I've never dated a girl. Never kissed a girl, not including you and i want that someone...I want to find my soul mate," Rei smiled sweetly then touched his hand.

"They'll show up. They will. You are a nice guy, despite fucking with peoples lives and being a stalker and manipulative,"

"I should quit as in informant then if I have to find them," Izaya took out his phone to call Shiki but Rei slapped it away.

"A soul mates will love you, despite that. You're true love probably might be someone you really, really messed and hurt. If they can look past that, then that's your soul mate. There's a song...erm how does it go. There's a little girl and she says, 'What's a soul mate' it's like it's a father and daughter taking. The father says, 'Well it's like a best friend but more...It's the one person in the worlds that knows you better than anyone else...It's someone who makes you a better person. Actually they don't make you a better person, you do that yourself because they inspire you...A soulmate is someone who you carry with you forever...It's the one person that accepted you, believed in you before anyone else did or when no one else would...And no matter what happens, you'll always love them...Nothing can ever change that," Izaya pouted feeling saddened even more. Shizuo didn't fit the bill. He didn't know him at all.

"I don't know," Izaya muttered to himself. He lay back in the bed but took his coat off and hung it up. The only person he could consider a soul mate was the person he was sitting next to. She new everything about him and loved him despite his flaws, but they were cousins and he weren't into that stuff and she was getting married.

"Go to sleep. You're not well," She tucked Izaya in then drank her coffee while texting her fiancee.

Izaya woke up and saw Hiroshi and Rei making out beside him. He huffed and with his groggy eyes he saw himself on top of Shizuo kissing him passionately. His hands in his hair while the strong blonde held his shoulders.

He watched as he kissed down his neck, leaving nips and small licks before returning to Shizuo's awaiting mouth. Shizuo turned his head and looked to the Izaya watching and smiled, "Morning sleepy," a hand reached forward and ruffled his hair.

Izaya blinked and saw Rei and Hiroshi smiling at him, well Hiroshi was frowning at Izaya. Rei touched her cousins cheek and then smiled up to her finance. Izaya got up quickly taking his jacket and running out. Rei ran after him.

She chased him down the stairs leaping from each set till she caught up with him, "Sweetie. Stop running away. What's wrong?" Izaya looked down then shook his head.

"I don't like Hiroshi. We don't have a good history. I was vulnerable. Why did you bring him back when I was sleeping. My coat was off," Rei sighed.

"He won't touch you. I'll kill him if he lay a hand on you. You're still going to the stag do. Okay. You'll be fine," Izaya nodded but left anyway. His cousin smiled as he walked away. His trust issues have got seriously worse. She headed up the stairs and smiled to her fiancee sitting on the bed with a frown.

"Sweetie. His trust issues are worse than ever. Please be nice to him. Show him a good time. He'll be on his guard more than ever so please just don't intimidate him,"

"Why did you not tell me in high school that you were cousins with him. No not just cousins, the closets frickin' cousins that ever existed," Rei frowned.

"He's a nice guy. He has some issues...he doesn't have any friends. No one he can talk to on how he feels. He has me and is open with me. I don't want him to shut down. He's not telling me everything and it's killing him on the inside. Please be nice. But do have a good time," she kissed his cheek then left the hotel to find her cousin.

Izaya was walking down the streets seeing couples everywhere. He saw a blonde and a smaller brown haired couple. He could see himself and Shizuo holding each others hands. Everywhere he was holding the brutes hand.

He soon felt a pair of arms grab him and was pulled into an alley way. He turned his head and saw the male that was always stuck on his mind. Shizuo sighed and let him go before stepping back his hands in the air, "I'm just going to talk. Okay? I won't touch you," Izaya nodded but took out his pocket knife and held it in his hand.

"What happened last night," Shizuo stepped forward and Izaya stepped back. Shizuo stood and stared at Izaya. Ever since they had sex, he saw him differently. He was afraid, terrified. He never ever tried to flee from him like earlier. He was shaking and he was really scared. He walked closer and closer until Izaya's back was against the wall.

"Leave me. Please," Shizuo stepped closer and closer till he could touch him. Izaya was in a door way so no one could see them from other end of the street.

"You were all for sleeping with me earlier. You were alright to sit on my lap and cuddle or go for a shower together, why are you retreating. You seemed terrified," Izaya closed his eyes and felt a familiar hand grab his and pull him away.

Shizuo watched as the blonde woman pushed him away and grabbed Izaya's hand before making a run for it. Izaya was running for his life, he was really scared, 'Was he cheating on her? Is that his girlfriend?' Shizuo thought to himself before taking leaving the other way with a sigh.

He met up with his boss and the two headed to one of his houses, "Are you working tonight as well?" Shizuo nodded his head.

"Yeah. There's some stag do tonight, so this will be fun,"

"Oh, you may end up with the stripper,"

"There will be competition though...and I kind of have eyes for someone else," Tom smiled.

"Can I meet her?"

"Well...no...erm...well...she is quite shy," Tom stopped and looked to his employee with shock.

"Aw you like shy girls?" Shizuo nodded and walked ahead and knocked on the house he was collecting debt from. He heard a window open and ran round the back and grabbed the male and brought him round to Tom. He stopped to see Izaya hiding behind a lamp post near by.

"This girl of yours...she's making you a better person. A few days ago you would have been knocking the guy senseless. I want to meet this girl," Tom smiled as he took the money from the male and put it into a bag. Shizuo turned to Izaya who blushed and ran away.

"Shes like a high school-er," Shizuo smiled. Tom looked to him then to where he was looking.

"Was she here? Is she stalking you?" Shizuo shrugged.

"She's not being creepy, we kind of had a fight...and she's terrified of me now,"

"Did you hurt her?"

"No. She just got scared and has shied away," Tom nodded then bit his lip.

"Let her approach you then and be really kind to her," Shizuo nodded then followed Tom to his next job. He spotted Izaya again and watched as he recoiled away and ran for it. Tom led him away to their last job and it was easy as the five year old answered the door and Tom did all the talking. Her parents weren't in and she happily allowed them in. Tom took the money and Shizuo gave her a lolly. It was meant for him but she seemed like a nice girl.

"Could you say that uncle tom and cousin Shizu-chan came to visit," The two left and made their way home.

Shizuo was working as a bartender at a sleazy little bar, the stag party was about to begin. He watched as Hiroshi Takizawa walked in. Shizuo and Hiroshi went to high school together and were some what close. It was an open bar so he just had to make them what ever they desired.

"Sh-izuo," Hiroshi gasped as they entered. The male smiled at the male then watched as a nervous Izaya walked in. While everyone else looked good, he was looking pretty average. "No fighting," he begged. Shizuo nodded then watched how Izaya retreated when he spotted him.

"Izaya...you are not going to the bar. What do you want to drink," Izaya took out a few yen and asked for water. Hiroshi took the money and was about to put it in his pocket but Shizuo took it.

"Water and fourteen beers," Shizuo nodded and poured the drinks for everyone. Izaya walked over to get his drink and watched as Shizuo put his money beside it.

"It's an open bar. No money required. Here," Izaya nodded then gasped when his hands touched Shizuo's. He retreated and went back to sit on his own, Shizuo shook his head and when Izaya came back for his water he told him to sit at the bar.

Izaya was reluctant but did so anyway. He sat quietly as everyone else got hammered. It was midnight when Shizuo sighed and a hot brunette walked in. She looked round the room and took to the stage while all the men gathered apart from Izaya who had no interest.

"What are you doing tomorrow?" Izaya asked looking down. "I'm not asking you out or anything. It's christmas so what plans do you have?" Shizuo smiled as he cleaned up the counter.

"Erm Kasuka and my parents our coming to my house and I'm making them a nice dinner. Except I can't cook," Izaya laughed then gasped when he felt a pair of hands wrap around his waist and began to un-buckle his belt.

"Come on...you seem uptight...come on," The stripper tried to take his jacket off but he jumped over the counter and hid behind Shizuo for protection.

"Jas...he's not in the mood. He'll most likely kill you," he said. Jasmine looked to Izaya with a huff then stood on the counter and began to take her bra off and her panties. All the guys hollered as she did so apart from Izaya who was hiding.

"No thank you," Shizuo softly pushed her away and she landed in some guys arms. Izaya sighed gratefully but when realising he was holding onto Shizuo like he was a young child he let go and jumped back over the counter.

"I-I can cook. I can make the meal for you now if you want and you can just heat it up," Shizuo nodded his head. The party was over and Shizuo made his way back to his apartment with Izaya. He was making the steps toward him.

Izaya walked in and slowly took his jacket off and put it on Shizuo's bed before making his way into the kitchen, "Hey can I rest up a bit. I'm tired," Izaya shook his head and Shizuo took a seat at the kitchen counter and watched as Izaya began to prepare for the meal. He did the turkey and all the vegetables.

When he was done he put them in the freezer and left little note of instructions on how to cook. He went into Shizuo's bedroom and took his jacket but felt Shizuo wrap his arms around, "Stay tonight," Izaya shook his head but felt a couple of kisses to the neck.

"I'll treat you good. Come on," Izaya shook his head but he couldn't stop himself from tilting his head up for Shizuo to get better access. Shizuo scraped his teeth down his throat and gently making him moan out in pleasure.

"Stop pease. Please!" He began to cry. Shizuo nodded and stepped away.

"Let's date. Izaya. What are you scared off? Why are you so scared of me?" Shizuo asked pushing him to bed. Izaya tried to scurry away but Shizuo took a seat on his stomach and pinned him down.

"I'll get up once you tell me why you are so scared," Izaya had tears in his eyes as he looked to that handsome male above him.

"I'm scared...I don't want to break up. I don't want to tell you my weakness and then you'll use it against me. I don't want to get hurt," Shizuo smiled then bent down and gave him a soft kiss on the forehead.

"Have you ever dated anyone?" Izaya shook his head then looked away. Shizuo smiled at him then kissed his forehead again.

"Listen...I may not be the person you live with forever but you can't be put off by that. I am not someone who does that. One of my girlfriends in high school cheated on me and I never got mad and I never hurt her," Izaya turned his body and was lying on his stomach.

"Last night. I had a dream...it was like last week when you went to strangle me. You succeeded. Then when I woke up from being strangled you betrayed me and killed me. It was fake and you never ever loved me," Shizuo shook his head and kissed Izaya's neck.

"Yes we were enemies. But I can't bring myself to hate you. I think of the past and I can't hate you. You told me why you did those things and I believe you,"

'It's the one person that accepted you, believed in you before anyone else did or when no one else would,'
'This guy of yours...he's making you a better person'
'They make you a better person. They don't actually make you a better person you do that yourself because they inspire you,'
'I think of the past and I can't hate you,'
'And no matter what happens, you'll always love them...Nothing can ever change that,' Izaya turned around and smiled to Shizuo.

"Okay. Let's give this a shot," Shizuo got off of him then watched as Izaya got up and went to the door.

"I can't stay...I need to be up early to have clients over before I can start my holiday. I'll see you later," Shizuo nodded but chased after him and pulled him in close and kissed him passionately on the lips. Izaya opened his mouth and Shizuo slipped his tongue into the others mouth and pinned him against the wall. Izaya was going weak in the knee and needed the support.

"Can't you just get up early?" Izaya shook his head and sucked on Shizuo's lower lip. The two pulled away when breath became important. Izaya rested his head on Shizuo's shoulder. "Merry Christmas Izaya," The raven blushed but murmuring the same back. "I will be working until noon so I hope to see you then," Izaya shrugged and left the apartment calling a taxi on his phone.

Shizuo smiled. What a lovely day this was going to be. He took a deep breath before heading to bed. He felt as if he never hated Izaya. He just couldn't find the hatred like he once did. He must have pounded all the hatred out of him and all was left was blank canvas they they'll set up eventually fill up with positive emotions.

Hope you enjoyed the second chapter. I realised that some may not know what a stag do is. It's erm a bachelor party. I'm from scotland so it's kind of a different way and I'm not changing how I write for others. Anyway please review.

Please.