Chapter 3:

Clarke tried not to roll as she climbed out of the bed. She turned her head to look at the sleeping baby to her left and sighed heavily—it was another two hour night for her and then sun wasn't even out. The baby wouldn't sleep. She and Bellamy were arguing because he wanted to announce to the camp that they were in a relationship and she wasn't ready for that. It was one of those nights that define bad mornings and just overall bad days. Her movements over to the cracked mirror on her tree stump nightstand were slow and quiet but that didn't mean her eyes weren't constantly peering back at Noah.

She looked in the mirror, her hands trailing to her neck where a visible mark lingered. He did this on purpose, she thought angrily as she put the mirror down and sighed. Before their fight broke out about the privacy of their relationship, they'd been so close to having sex for the first time since they decided to have a real relationship. She slammed a fist into the stump because she really sucked at relationships…and Bellamy wasn't perfect at it, either.

He'd never been in a relationship before. He didn't know what to say and when he did know what to say he always had a hard time saying it in the first place because he didn't want to seem weak. If he wasn't so sure that he wanted to be with Clarke—he was positive they'd still be doing the same old, same old. Their loneliness caused them to hook up every once in a while because she was the only person that could understand the weight on his shoulders. He couldn't take another dimwit who pretended she could see into his soul over a 45 minute span and tried to stay with him all night…

Then he couldn't take watching Clarke get dressed in the middle of the night to go back to her own tent instead of staying with him… It was completely fucked, honestly because he knew that Clarke was the closest thing to a saint on the ground and he was the reincarnation of the devil sometimes. When his head was constantly filled with thoughts of her and all the things they did in the night, he knew it was time to step up.

She, on the other hand, hadn't ever thought of having a relationship other than the practically arranged one she had with Wells. From birth, they were destined. Well, destined was a piss-poor word to use in a situation like that. Wells followed her to Earth and died—destiny, even if in the wrong sense, seemed to shatter underneath her feet. Then, she fucked up with Finn…because she didn't know he was the type of person to look her in the eyes and lie straight to her heart. He was foolish, he was thoughtless and in the end he was careless with her. Relationships had all but crashed and burned for her.

Now, the two most anti-relationship people were a couple and they weren't sure what to do or where to go next. They both knew where they wanted to go eventually but they didn't know how to handle the now.

She picked Noah up, patting his back. She blew out the candle in the center of her room and started walking the dark corners of the camp. She moved towards Bellamy's tent and sighed heavily when she was at the flap. She didn't announce herself, she just walked through and placed her free hand on his thigh. "Bellamy…" She said sweetly, her hand trailing down his leg. "Bellamy."

He groaned, "What? Princess?"

"I better be the only girl coming into your tent at night." She chuckled as he moved over enough so she could lay back with Noah on her chest. "It's not that I don't want people to know. I'm not ashamed. I just don't want people in our business. You know how they'll react…they'll be shocked, they won't understand."

"It's not about what they think. How are we supposed to start a family when no one knows about us?"

"It's not like we're going to start a family tonight, Bellamy."

"What are we waiting for Clarke? I know you, you know me. Dammit, I think I love you." Clarke was frozen by the confession. They'd been together for a week. Wasn't there are rule? "I don't just think it…I know it."

She sighed, "We don't follow the order of anything."

"What's the point?" Bellamy said, "There isn't an order to this. We've put our lives in each other's hands, why is it so weird to think that I could love you after all the time we've spent together?"

"Because if you love me, it makes it real. It makes me think I can have everything I want and that's…"

"What you deserve."