Author's notes:
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(Parts off this story are slightly different from the one that is posted on my DA gallery, but I promise that they're both good and worth reading) :)
Disclaimer: I DON'T OWN SOUL EATER OR ANY OF IT'S CHARACTERS K?
THIS IS JUST A FAN FIC MADE BY A FAN.
NO COPYRIGHT IS INTENDED!
This fic follows the anime and not the manga.
The characters Lord Death, Stein, Spirit, Crona and Ragnarok will not be in any future chapters, since this fic mostly focuses on the main gang rather than all the other characters as well, sorry if this disappoints you in any way.
Italics - means the person is thinking just so you know.
Warning: This story is a sad one and I understand if it makes you want to cry, or kill me for making it, as I have been there myself before LOL XD
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Maka's POV:
It had been almost a week since we had all heard of Kid's passing, and so far there was no news on how he died or why. Nothing made sense anymore, everything just kept getting worse for all of us. And we just didn't know how to make it right.
However things slowly started to turn around for me, I was finally able to get some sleep (I still wasn't eating very well and I hardly ever talked or smiled, but sleep was something), but sadly that didn't last long, I was soon awoken by….By voices.
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Maka's POV:
It was happening again tonight, I was sleeping soundly in my bed, when I would suddenly start to hear a voice call to me, "Maka, Maka," it would call out my name over and over again, it would sound like almost a whisper at first, but then it would get louder and louder, till it was a loud deafening shout.
I never knew who this voice belonged to (but it did sound familiar to me sometimes), until I was awoken to find my weapon shaking my shoulders as he called out my name, trying to wake me up.
"Soul?" I questioned as I sat up in my bed and looked to my weapon.
"You were talking in your sleep again," He sighed as he let go of my shoulders and smiled to me slightly.
"What was I saying?" I asked as I rubbed my aching head.
"I'm not too sure, it was all in mumbles," Soul answered as he gently rested a hand over my sweat-coated forehead to see if I had a fever.
I sighed as I could still faintly hear the voice calling out my name and shook my head, trying to make it go away.
"Oh, but you did keep repeating the word, 'forget' over and over again," Soul informed me as my eyes widened.
'Why that word again?' I wondered as I hit Soul's hand away from my forehead, and glared to him slightly (I still attacked Soul on many occasions, but I wasn't so out of control now when I did it).
This had been happening for almost four nights now, once I would finally get off to sleep I would suddenly start to hear a voice calling out my name, the voice would get louder each time. Then when I awoke I would be drenched in sweat and my head would start to ache like someone had been banging it against a wall for hours. Soul would be sitting on my bed telling me that I had been talking in my sleep. He said he never was able to make out what I said, except for when I would just keep repeating the word, 'forget' over and over again, before I went back to mumbling again.
I was drenched in my own sweat like always, and my whole body was shaking frantically like I had just seen a ghost or something. Soul would say, that I always looked so pale after I had woken up.
"Nightmares again?" Soul asked concerned.
"Yeah, something like that," I whispered, 'I wouldn't really call it a nightmare,' I thought as I hugged my knees to my chest tightly, and could feel tears welling up in my eyes. "Soul?" I called to my weapon.
"Yeah?" Soul asked.
"What's happening to me?" I asked the question that I had been trying to answer myself ever since Kid was said to be dead, and all these things had started happening to me.
"I wish I knew, Maka," Soul answered as he sighed again.
"I wish Kid was here," I whispered as I turned away from Soul.
"So do I," Soul replied, before he rested a hand on my shoulder and smiled to me slightly.
'I feel so empty right now, Kid,' I thought with another sigh, and could feel tears running down my cheeks.
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Writer's POV:
In the morning Soul had decided to ask Liz for help (and to also see how Patty and her were coping). The young weapon came round and was greeted by the Scythe. "Hey, where's Maka?" Liz asked surprised that it wasn't Maka who answered the door.
"She's in her room, as always," Soul answered with a slight sigh, before he let Liz inside and closed the door behind her.
"Is it alright if I go see her?" Liz asked as she looked to her friend's bedroom.
"Okay, but if she starts to act up, call for me alright?" Soul made Liz promise since he didn't want a repeat of what happened with Tsubaki.
Liz just nodded slightly, before Soul showed her the way to his Meister's bedroom, and then left the two girls alone.
"Maka, are you in there?" Liz asked as she lightly knocked on the door, while she waited for an answer. But she unfortunately didn't get a response.
Liz just shrugged her shoulders as she opened the door and looked around the room. The weapon gasped as she saw the young Scythe Meister sitting on her bed, scratching at her neck and pulling her hair out, while tears streamed down her cheeks.
"Maka, what are you doing?" Liz asked as she ran over to the other girl and grabbed hold of the Scythe Meister's wrists, and held them up above Maka's head tightly.
"Let go of me," Maka whispered as she choked back a slight sob.
"Maka I won't let go of you if you're just going to rip out your hair, and tear away at you neck like that," Liz stated sternly as she tightened her grip on the other girl's wrists.
"Please…please just let me go," Maka cried as she sobbed slightly.
Liz let go of Maka's wrists, scared that she was hurting the other girl, and instead wrapped her arms around the Scythe Meister's waist, and hugged her tightly.
Maka's eyes widened as she looked to the weapon and sighed slightly.
"I'm sorry Liz," Maka whispered slightly while she could feel her heart starting to pound in her chest, and she felt that trapped and retrained feeling again.
"What are you apologizing for?" Liz asked as she looked to the other girl with a concerned look on her face.
Maka suddenly ran her sharp, un-clipped nails down the left side of the weapon's face, leaving red marks all over her left cheek. Liz let go of the Scythe Meister and jumped away from her, before she was able to break any skin.
"Maka," Liz whispered as she felt the red marks that were now left on her left cheek, and gasped a little.
"I'm sorry, I'm so, so sorry," Maka whispered before she turned away from the other girl and wiped her bloodshot, red eyes.
Liz looked to Maka for a minute before she sighed slightly, and walked over to Maka, "It's okay, I know you didn't mean it," Liz stated with a slight smile to the Scythe Meister, "I'll leave you alone for a bit alright? You won't go hurting yourself while I'm gone will you?" Liz asked as she looked to the bedroom door for a minute.
"I won't," Maka whispered with a shake of her head.
"Good," Liz nodded, before she walked out of the Scythe Meister's bedroom, and closed the door behind her.
'I'm sorry, Kid,' Maka thought as she sobbed slightly again.
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Writer's POV:
"So how'd it go?" Soul asked as he heard footsteps coming from the hallway, and into the lounge.
"It could've gone better," Liz stated as she smiled slightly to Soul as she looked to the other weapon.
Soul's eyes widened as he saw Liz's wounded cheek and instantly look concerned, "Are you okay, I said to call for me, if she started to act up," He reminded the other weapon.
"Don't worry I'm fine, she couldn't help it, she even apologized to me before and after she did it," Liz explained as she slightly touched the red marks on her left cheek with one finger.
"What seriously? She never apologized for attacking me," Soul trailed off slightly.
Liz just chuckled a little, which made Soul smile to her slightly.
"Sorry, she normally only attacks herself or me," Soul stated.
"It's alright, she's easier to handle then Patty when it comes down to it," Liz stated as she thought of her younger sister.
"Oh yeah? I find that hard to believe," Soul said with a raised eyebrow to the other weapon.
"Well she doesn't attack anyone, nor does she hurt herself, but she's always so jumpy and active. She runs around the manor non-stop and when I'm able to catch her, she just screams and struggles until I let her go. She won't eat most of the time and she hardly ever sleeps," Liz explained.
"Maka's the same she doesn't eat very much at all, and when she does eat she just ends up throwing it back up later on for some reason. She's just started to get some sleep now, but she been having these nightmares lately which cause her to talk in her sleep and wake up sweating and shaking all over," Soul explained.
"We both seem to have a hard time looking after someone then don't we?" Liz stated with a slight smile to Soul.
"Yeah I guess, but Maka's actually and lot better than she was a few days ago," Soul stated.
"What really?" Liz asked a little surprised that Maka was once worse than she was now, not too long ago.
"Yeah she may not be eating still, and she may not be sleeping very well, but she seems to have some control over herself now. Yes she still attacks people and hurts herself, but at least she's not trying to kill herself now," Soul stated.
"WAIT WHAT?! She tried to kill herself before?" Liz asked with a shocked look on her face now.
"Yeah not long after we had heard the news about Kid's passing she almost threw herself off one of the roof-pillars of the school, but luckily I was able to catch her. Then the day afterwards she had slit her wrists with the blade from my razor, I was able to get to her before she bled to death, and then hid all of the sharp objects in the house. Then a few days afterwards she tried scratching at the wounds on her wrists and tried to cut through to her veins like she had when she slit her wrists. That went on while Tsubaki and Black Star were round trying to give me a hand." Soul explained all the times that Maka had tried and failed to kill herself to Liz, while the other weapon stood there, shocked and speechless.
"You're kidding right? Maka did all of that?" Liz asked in almost a whisper.
"I wish I was," Soul replied with another sigh.
"My Death, well at least she's doing better now right?" Liz stated with a nervous smile to Soul now.
"Yeah, I guess," Soul smiled back slightly, "So where is Patty by the way? I mean you didn't just leave her alone in the mansion did you?" The Scythe asked, changing the subject.
"No, if I did that I'd run the risk of Patty either running off somewhere or getting lost in that huge place. Tsubaki and Black Star kindly offered to look after before I came here, so she's round at their house right now," Liz explained.
"Tsubaki must have her hands full with both Black Star and Patty to look after," Soul replied with a slight chuckle.
"No doubts there," Liz slightly chuckled as well.
"So how are you holding up?" Soul asked, changing the subject again.
"Me? Okay I guess, but sometimes I just can't believe that he's gone. I wake up some mornings expecting to see him in the kitchen making breakfast for himself, or adjusting some old painting on the wall. I just think that it would be better if us hearing of his passing was a bad dream that we're all going to wake up from soon, and then we can just wait for him to come back home to us all. But I know that something like that will never happen," Liz stated as she could feel slight tears welling up in her eyes.
Soul just sighed again as he sat back on the sofa in the lounge (he's been sitting on the sofa the whole time btw).
"What about you, Soul?" Liz asked.
"Me? Well to be honest I don't really know I feel about everything. I mean I'm just trying to stay calm, while also trying my best to deal with Maka," Soul paused slightly as he looked down to his feet for a minute, "But man do I wish that, that damn Reaper was here still," He whispered as he cursed under his breath slightly.
"We all do, Soul," Liz stated as she came and sat down next to Soul on the sofa.
"I know," Soul replied as he slightly glanced back to the other weapon for a minute, "Hey do you know what Maka told me a few days ago," Soul changed the subject yet again, to lighten the mood a bit.
"What?"
"She told me that Kid and her had slept together the night before Kid left for his mission," Soul answered.
"Yeah crazy right?" Liz asked with a slight smile to Soul.
"YOU KNEW?!" Soul questioned as a look of surprise was in his eyes.
"Yeah, Kid told me the morning after it happened. Mind you he couldn't really keep it a secret from me, since I had found Maka asleep in his bed just before I talked to him about it all," Liz explained.
"Maka told me that she's the one that started it all," Sou stated as he slightly turned away from the other weapon.
"That's what Kid said as well, hard to believe that a girl like Maka would start something like that," Liz thought out loud.
"Yeah, sounds nothing like the Maka I know," Soul agreed with a slight smile.
"Kid had told me his feelings for Maka awhile before it happened, now I guess it's no wonder why he went along with in the end," Liz stated.
"Did he know that Maka had also fallen for him?" Soul asked.
"I'm pretty sure he guessed it after she came on to him that night," Liz answered with a slight chuckle.
"Yeah I guess, I just wanna know why he still left after it. I would have never thought he'd be the kind of guy to sleep with a girl and then leave her the next day, like it meant nothing to him," Soul thought out loud with a slight sigh, as he cursed under his breath while thinking about 'that damn Reaper'.
"Kid told me it was because Maka said that 'it was her way of saying goodbye to him," Liz explained as her smiled faded slightly.
"Really? Well that's one weird way if you ask me," Soul replied with a slight chuckle to Liz.
"Yeah no kidding," Liz agreed, as she also chuckled slightly.
Soul sighed again as he clenched his fists and looked down at his feet for a minute.
"Hey, we'll get through this, alright?" Liz stated as she rested a hand over Soul's
"You think so?" Soul asked un-sure as he seemed awfully down-hearted for a moment.
"I know so," Liz reassured Soul as she smiled to him.
"Thanks Liz," Soul smiled back to the other weapon.
"No problem, it's what friends are for right?"
"Yeah, I guess," Soul replied with a slight nod, before Liz leaned in slightly and gave the Scythe a kind hug.
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Maka's POV:
I was hearing that voice again, as I slept silently in my bed, "Maka, Maka, Maka," My eyes snapped open as I sat up in my bed and sighed slightly, "Maka, Maka, Maka," I can still that voice.
'Oh great, that means I can hear it when I'm awake now as well,' I thought as I rubbed my aching head, "What's going with me?" I asked myself as I hugged my knees up to my chest tightly.
Than the voice began to get louder, and louder, "Maka, Maka, Maka, MAKA!" I covered my ears as I tried to block out that voice in my head, but it didn't go away.
"SHUT UP! SHUT UP!" I screamed back at the voice, which only caused it to get even louder.
"Maka. Forget," My eyes widened as the voice became more familiar for a minute.
"What you mean? Forget what?" I asked, not really expecting to get an answer.
"Forget, Forget about me," The familiar voice surprisingly answered me.
"Who are you?" I whispered out into the darkness of my bedroom.
The voice didn't answer me this time, as it paused for a minute, before it started to call out my name again. I pressed my hands against my ears as tears started to well up in my eyes.
"Kid, help me, please make it stop," I pleaded as tears started to stream down my cheeks.
"Forget about me, Maka. Forget!" The voice suddenly stated in a stern voice, before the voice slowly started to go away.
"Maka, you don't have to keep apologizing all the time, okay?" My eyes widened as I turned round to my closed bedroom window and heard the voice become clearer for a minute. However when I looked, there was no one in my room but me.
"Wasn't that Kid's voice just now?" I questioned, before I sighed heavily and started to think about Kid's wonderful gentleman-like smile, "I miss you Kid," I whispered before I lay down and fell back into a deep sleep, but no doubt I would be awoken by that voice calling out my name again soon.