Lucy went to stand up but Lee stopped her, and sat back down next to her. She gestured towards her bedroom, and attempted to pull Lee up by the hand,
"Come on, let's go to my room"
Noticing Lee's hesitance, Lucy played with his fingers, her eyes searching his,
"Are you all right? Lee?"
"I thought you might want to talk. Because I don't want you to think I'm rushing you into anything, we can wait you want. I know this is a big step…"
"Lee, I've waited so long for this, I've dreamt about it. I don't want to talk, we've been talking for years. I just want you".
"I want you too, but…", he husked.
Detecting the fear in Lee's eyes now, and observing his trembling hands, Lucy whispered,
"Lee, if you don't want to do this tonight, I'll understand. I know it's a big deal for you too. But it's ok if you're nervous. I'd be lying if I said I wasn't too".
He responded, "Lucy, I want you more than anyone or anything I've ever wanted in my life but that's why I'm nervous. You're so important to me. I want this to be special for you and I'm terrified I'll disappoint you. What if after we've done this, you change your mind about me? What if I don't make you feel good? It's been a long time since I…you know".
"Lee, stop thinking like that. That won't happen. I won't change my mind about you. I love you and I'm marrying you. And as for not making me feel good, you really don't have to worry about that. You've no idea what you do to me every time you even brush against me. You only have to look at me in a certain way and I go weak".
"Really?". Lee looked at Lucy, slightly incredulous.
"Really", she reiterated.
"The other thing…you're just so beautiful and you have this perfect body, and I don't, far from it"
"I'm not perfect Lee, believe me I'm not. Anyway, I've seen you naked before. And I liked what I saw"
Lucy grinned suggestively, running her hand down Lee's back, then letting it rest on his hip.
"That was a few years ago, I've put on a bit of weight since then"
"Lee, I don't care if you have. I fancy you, just as you are, always have if I'm honest…So how about we both stop thinking too much and just enjoy the moment, no holding back. Promise me when we close the bedroom door, we leave our inhibitions, hang-ups and fears behind".
"Okay"
"Now, please can we stop talking? Just kiss me. Take me to bed".
Lee nodded and lifted Lucy as she wrapped her legs around his middle and arms around his neck. They resumed their kiss, and Lee stumbled his way to Lucy's bedroom as he carried her. Not wanting to break their kiss he felt for the door handle in front of them and opened it. After narrowly avoiding falling through the door he placed Lucy down so that she was sitting on the edge of the bed and joined her there.
"Give me two minutes", she whispered, stroking Lee's cheek tenderly. She gave him several quick kisses on the lips before getting up and disappearing into the ensuite. Lee's eyes darted around the room, spotting Lucy's scented candles that were dotted around every surface. This gave him and idea and he found a match, lit each candle then lowered her dimmer switch. The setting felt more romantic now and he even started to relax a bit as he waited patiently for Lucy to finish whatever she was doing, whatever it was women did in these situations.
Having freshened up, Lucy looked at her reflection in the mirror, frowning slightly as she noticed a tiny pimple. She pulled her hair out of its messy ponytail and taking her brush from the shelf ran it through her hair. Setting the brush back down she inhaled deeply, giving herself a pep talk as she prepared to go back into her room. We leave our fears, hang-ups and inhibitions behind. She repeated the words silently to herself. As soon as she opened the door, she could smell the calming fragrance of her candles.
"Wow, Lee. You've made it really nice in here, thank you", Lucy breathed as she took in the flickering, warm light that now filled her room, touched by Lee's thoughtfulness.
Lucy sat down next to Lee, turning to him and he smiled, his eyes, sparkling with love and desire, fixed on hers. They were dangerously close again now, just centimetres apart. Lucy took a deep breath, inhaling Lee's scent, the intoxicating, masculine aroma of his aftershave and natural musk. She studied his features intently, swimming in the deep blue-grey of his eyes which were growing darker with desire every second. She'd always found the slightly messy way in which his air stood up on end cute, but now, it was definitely the cutest thing she'd ever seen. She'd never really noticed before how unfairly long his eyelashes were, or realised quite how endearing she found the ridge between his eyebrows and the dimple on his chin, or how the rugged shadow of his not quite stubble framed his lips. His pink lips, that were quivering now, mirroring her own. Lee flicked out his tongue briefly, wetting his lips the way he did sometimes when he talked. She had always found this habit of his attractive, but now…it was beyond sexy, and she felt her knees weaken. It was a good job she wasn't standing up, or they might have buckled beneath her.
Lee reached across and gently caressed Lucy's cheek, before cradling it and slowly moving in to press his lips to hers. She felt herself melt into him as he sipped her lips, darting his tongue in between, circling and curling until it met and danced with hers. Earlier their kisses had been feverish, rough even. This was a deep, lingering kiss. More slow and gentle, though still extraordinarily intense.
They eventually drew apart, breathless as their foreheads touched. Needing things to move up a level, Lucy's hands found their way to Lee's open shirt, which she slowly slid off his shoulders so he could shrug it the rest of the way off. She tugged and pulled his t-shirt over his head, supressing a giggle when his arms got caught up in the effort to remove it. She ran one hand across his torso, resting it against his smooth skin.
"Your heart's pounding", she whispered. Continuing to look down, she watched as his chest rose and fell beneath her hand.
"What do you expect?...Given the situation", he choked.
"Mine is too. Can you feel it?" Feeling brave she seized Lee's hand that was wrapped around her waist and placed it close to her heart, and her eyes found his again as she felt his body jolt at the contact.
Lee looked down at his hand as it rested above Lucy's heart, then back up to meet her gaze again. Understanding his silent question, Lucy nodded and murmured in agreement. Gaining reassurance and confidence from this, Lee began to undo the small and fiddly buttons of her blouse. He felt her eyes trained on him as he worked out then carefully undid the complicated fastenings despite his shaking hands. The look of pure concentration on his face was adorable. Unfortunately it was one of her favourite blouses, otherwise she would have suggested he just rip it off. When he had at last undone the final button, Lucy impatiently wrenched the sleeves off her arms and threw the blouse across the room before making light work of removing her vest top underneath.
Lee didn't want Lucy to feel she was under scrutiny, but he couldn't help but sit back and look at her for a few moments, admiring her form. The satin and lace of Lucy's bra, that hugged and accentuated her exquisite curves, was suddenly the only thing separating her upper body from his. Also acutely aware of this, Lucy felt her temperature rise and her cheeks turn bright pink. She watched Lee as he studied her, and his skin flushed a beetroot red, revealing his own shyness. To Lucy this was extremely sweet and sexy all at once, and it made her want him even more.
Her breasts now aching to be touched, her nipples tightened almost painfully against the material of her bra, Lucy moved her hands around her back, about to undo the fastening.
"Wait, let me do that". Lee's voice was lower and quieter now.
He prompted Lucy to turn away from him and unhooked the clasp, slipping the straps down her arms. Wiggling her arms she let it fall down to her waist, then onto the floor below their feet. Lee held onto the Lucy's upper arms, preventing her from turning back around.
He combed his fingertips through her hair, before sweeping it over one of her shoulders. He grazed the back of his fingers lightly and deliberately slowly over the newly exposed parts of her back and shoulders, then planted butterfly kisses along the path his fingers had just taken. He nibbled at her shoulder blade and dragged his tongue across the hollow beside it, each feather-light touch of his lips taking her breath away.
Lucy felt goosebumps form on her skin, her pulse quickening, when Lee's mouth found the crook of her neck as one of his hands played with her hair. She closed her eyes and leaned back into him, her sighs getting louder when his lips reached the sensitive spot just below her ear, nibbling there before gently tugging her lobe with his teeth.
He whispered in her ear then,
"Your skin's so soft and warm. I want to kiss every inch of you".
Lucy shuddered at his words, and felt her arousal pooling between her legs. Her skin prickled as he ran his hands up and down her arms, then stroked her sides. She gasped when the fingers of one of his hands hovered above then merely grazed the side of her breast, as though he was trying to gauge her reaction.
She turned herself around and Lee couldn't help but gasp, his mouth remaining half-open in amazement as he looked at her. He still expected to wake up any minute. His perfect woman was sitting half-naked in front of him, and this kind of thing normally only happened to him in dreams.
"You're so beautiful Lucy, perfect". Lee's voice was heavy with arousal.
He lightly ran his fingers across her palm and around her wrist, then up her arm. He moved towards her collarbone, drawing little circles there.
"I love this little mole Lucy, and this little hollow".
Lucy found herself unable to speak, her breath now coming in shallow pants as his fingers travelled lower down. Lee spoke again,
"Is this ok, can I touch you here?".
"uhummm…p..please", Lucy begged.
She almost came undone when he brushed his fingers across her breasts, tentatively at first. Encouraged by the sounds she had started to make, he experimentally ran his thumb across her already hardened nipple, this action sending shockwaves of pleasure through her.
Feeling braver now, Lee lowered Lucy down onto the bed and they scooted back towards the headboard. Lying on his side next to her, he continued to tease one of her hyper-sensitive peaks, rolling it between his fingers and thumb, whilst he massaged the yielding flesh of her other breast. Lucy cried out when he replaced his fingers with his mouth, encasing her nipple, gently sucking and circling his tongue around it.
Lucy was lost then, she couldn't think anymore, only feel. And what Lee was doing felt oh so good. There was no question about it, he was really, really good at this.
Lee gradually made his way further down Lucy's body, caressing and trailing kisses across her waist. Reaching the top of her trousers, he paused and lifted his head. Making and keeping eye contact with Lucy he undid the button and zip. Pushing the material out of the way, revealing the band of lace at the top of her underwear, he continued to draw a path with his lips over the sweep of her abdomen. He was determined to memorise every detail of her body, every curve and contour, freckle and dimple.
His fingers hovered over then hooked into her waist band. He waited for a moment, breathing the words, "you okay?" and Lucy hummed and nodded in response.
He pulled her trousers down over her hips and thighs, and she raised and shuffled her legs and feet to help get them the rest of the way off. Starting at her ankle, Lee began to trace the skin of her leg with his lips.
"W...wait"
Lee looked up at Lucy, a little confused. Had she changed her mind?