GAH! School's back, I'm starting SACE this year, I'm doing a few subjects a year early, and everyone hates me. Year ten, yeah…

Also, I couldn't help it, I had to ship it… My cousin (who's really just a close friend, not my actual cousin that S was talking about) got me hooked. You guys vote, Blake and Rain or Blake and Toby.

I slept in Beyond's warehouse that night. I was not in the mood to go home. I knew that Iniquity was telling S about Mikey and Way. I knew because of our link, and we can transmit our conversations.

"Hey Blakie~, you okay?" I heard Rain. She always somehow knew where the Hell I was. This time though, I'm not complaining.

"I didn't want to, I didn't want Mikey to die," I cried. "He said he wanted me to do it. We were both crying. I hated, I still hate it. Gee knew what happened, he knew I did it, but he forgave me. He understood why. He was ether going to die because of me, or because of Kira, but he wanted to me do it."

Rain just hugged me. Even though I know she's had a crush on me for three years (even though I was gone for around half of that time), she's easily one of my closest friends.

"Just think happy thoughts, Blakie, happy thoughts~" she whispered as she petted my hair. It was one of those things she did. I really did miss hanging around her.

"Did I ever tell you about the time I almost got arrested with Matt and Beyond?" I asked between sniffles.

"No, what happened?"

"Well…"

…

"I'm bored!" Matt whined.

L had made the three of us, along with A, tag along with him and Wammy to Scotland for a case. A was sleeping and B had taken me and Matt to a park.

"Me too! I want jam!" I pouted. Matt and I always ganged up on B, ever since we were little and everyone didn't hate each other. When Matt came to Wammy's we didn't leave each other's side for the first month because we had missed each other.

Now that we were both nine, B was getting even more annoyed with the two of us.

"No, I'm not allowed," B said, but he looked just as bored as we were.

"Fine! We're going to find our own fun!" I spat bitterly. My brother knew we probably were going to do something stupid, but he let us go.

Once we had walked far enough away and found a car park, the two of us got a terrible idea.

"That one, it looks fast," Matt said, pointing at a red motorcycle.

"That one, it's faster," I argued, pointing at a black motorcycle.

"Or that one, because we won't be able to fit both of us and B on a motorbike."

"Or that one!"

"Why is there a monster truck in a small town in Scotland?"

"That one!"

"No, that one!"

Both Matt and I were quiet until I started laughing. "Blake what are you… Oh my god! Blake, get the Hell out of the monster truck!"

After I crashed the monster truck into a tree, we decided on a Trans Am, although it looked like something that didn't really fit in with 1999 Scotland, we paid no mind and broke the window.

We learnt a few months later that it was Mikey and Way's step-dad's car, but that didn't matter.

Matt and I took turns in driving, despite the fact we were both a bit too short, and that we were both terrible drivers.

"Matt, I think you hit another one…"

"Ten more points?"

"Nah, it wasn't an old lady, it was a business man, so six points," I told him. Yes, we made a game of hitting people.

When we eventually started looking for B, it wasn't that hard to find him. How many black haired-red eyed kids were there in Scotland? Two, and I was one of them.

I hit the brakes when we found him and yelled, "Get in loser, we're going shopping!" A line that was later stolen by Mean Girls.

"Do I even want to know?" he asked.

"No," I answered, "just get in the car. We're too short for this."

After some rearranging which put me in the back seat of the car. B started driving and Matt fiddled with the radio because he lost his sanity for a bit ("I don't wanna drown!" "You're not going to drown, Matt." "Keep BEN away from me!"). For some reason he thought that messing with the radio would keep BEN away from him.

"Can we stop for jam?" I whined. I was hungry and I wanted jam!

"Not really…" B responded, hitting the accelerator hard.

"Why!"

"Because the police are after us," he said. I looked out the back seeing at least three cars in pursuit.

"HOW DID THIS HAPPEN?!" Matt and I yelled. We were terrible kids.

"Two kids steal a car, pick up a teenager, start driving, and hit a load of people, and you're asking why we're getting chased by police? We're at a school for geniuses, and we're in the top ten smartest people in the world, FIGURE IT OUT!"

"Well, we did kill that one lady…" Matt muttered.

"And I did shoot that other driver who was going too slow…" I added.

I think I heard B mumbling something about how Matt and I were the worst kids to babysit ever. "Okay, kiddies, start shooting the police. We need to escape."

…

"Well, you guys were messed up nine year olds~" Rain laughed. We had decided to go back home, and she promised that she'd stay with me for the night.

"Beyond and I got in a gang fight when I was five. We beat everyone with knives while they had guns. It was the best Halloween ever," I told her.

Sometimes, Rain looked so different to how you'd expect. Her eyes almost glowed gold with specks of red floating around. She was slightly taller than me, but had shorter hair, but not as short as S's. Her hair looked an unnatural blonde, almost canary yellow, but I knew for a fact it was natural. She could change her eyes to a deep blue-green if she wanted, but very rarely did, mostly because changing from shinigami eyes to human means all of us would have to wear glasses.

Sitting in my room with just my fairy lights to illuminate the room, I leaned my head on Rain's shoulder.

"Do you think Michael or Gee hate me for being the reason they died? Or Luna because I wasn't there to save her?" I asked, still crying a little.

"What was Mikey's death date when you saw him last~?"

"It was zero. There was a car coming towards us at the same time, but swerved after I shot," I remembered.

Rain hugged me as she said, "See? It was you kill him, or he would have been hit by that car~. And how about Way?"

"Zero…"

"None of it was your fault, Believe~. Now how about you tell me the real reason you're so upset?"

I sighed. Damn, she was good. "Remember how I have prophetic dreams?" I asked.

"Mmm."

"I had one where I was sitting with S and she said I had tried to kill her about three years, and I've only tried once… in the next four/five years, I'm going to try again and again, and I'm scared. Not mention… Matt and Mello died in that dream. I don't want anyone else to get hurt because of me."

"Look, Blakie~ you've had a long day, getting possessed an all. You need to sleep. I'll still be here when you wake up~" Rain said.

I nodded.

That night I fell asleep and didn't wake up once, or even have a nightmare. But I refuse to believe it had anything to do with falling asleep to the rhythm of Rain's breathing and heartbeat.