Severus had graduated Hogwarts as expected, at the top of Slytherin. The rest of his year passed as well. Severus only watched Lily, and she caught him staring and gave him a little wave and turned away. Lily hardly knew it, but every time Severus looked at her, his heart broke a little more. Lily had given up on Severus, telling herself that he couldn't be trusted.

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Lily was sitting at her window, thinking. Was Severus as awful as she said he was? Maybe there was something she wasn't giving him credit for... Lily couldn't help but think that maybe she shouldn't have been so hard on him, or that maybe she could've just asked him what was going on. Severus had been her best friend for 5 years, and had helped guide her through the first parts of her wizarding experience. It broke her heart every time she thought of the way he had looked had her before he had finally turned his back on her, forever.

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"Severus. Do you know where the girl is? Surely you have some evidence of where she is!"

"No... nothing, my lord." Severus was almost sure he would crack soon. He loved Lily, but He-Who-Must-Not-Be-Named was a formidable opponent, who knew how to crack Severus.

All he cared about was keeping Lily safe, and happy. And if that meant protecting James as well, then so be it.

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The day that Lily Potter died, the innocent school boy died with her. Gone was the boy who had shown his secrets to Lily, gone was the tortured abused boy, and in his place was a stone hard, cold man who still loved Lily, but couldn't bear to face her son. He might've taken him in, had things had been different, had he not been so close to the dark lord. If Hagrid hadn't taken the boy, if Sirius hadn't hated him. If only things had been different, if his role in the war against good and evil had been different... Snape would forever be filled with regrets.

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