A/N: Hi! So this idea has been on my mind for a while and I had to get it out. This is basically what I think could have happened if Fili and Kili had survived the battle of the five armies but Thorin did not. I'm breaking my own heart writing this because I want all three to survive but I wanted to use a quote I had in here and it seemed to fit Fili begging Thorin to stay alive. Please understand this is a Thorin&Fili&Kili family story with Durin family feels and I do hate this concept of Fili and Kili living without Thorin, but I really had to get this idea out!
Disclaimer: I do not own The Hobbit. All rights belong to J.R.R Tolkien
The battle had been won. Azog the defiler had been killed and the rest of the orcs and goblins either slain or had fled. Fili had survived the fight and while returning to the now conquered mountain was searching for his brother. He was only starting to make his way down from the icy tower in which he had spent most of the fight when he saw the dark haired dwarf that was his younger brother looking in the surrounding area.
"Kili," Fili called out. His voice was filled with relief and hope and Kili turned quickly and smiled brightly when seeing his brother.
"Fili," he cried and out and quickly ran to his brother. The two embraced tightly.
"I'm so glad you're ok." Fili murmured and then pulled back slightly to look Kili straight in the eye. "You are ok, right?"
"Yes brother," Kili said with a grin. "You and I are both fine," the two brothers hugged tightly again.
"Have you seen Thorin?" Fili asked his brother, his focus turning to his beloved uncle, now he knew Kili was fine. Kili's face fell.
"No. I was looking for him and you just now. I haven't seen him yet," Kili said worriedly looking up into Fili's face. Fili felt a small amount of panic flare up inside him but he settled it down firmly.
"I'm sure he's fine Kili." His words brought little comfort to Kili who was biting his lip, his eyes darting around anxiously.
"Why don't you start to make your way back to Erebor? I'm sure he would have headed there as soon as possible. I will take a last look around here in case he's looking for us and then join you later." Fili said firmly. Kili nodded a small smile gracing his lips before giving Fili one more hug and heading down the tower.
Fili turned around and walked in the opposite direction back to the centre of the tower. Fili was relieved to have survived and even more relieved to find his brother in one piece and yet he felt something gnawing at him. Where was Thorin? He knew he was probably being stupid, worrying like this when Thorin was most likely back in Erebor by now safe and sound, but he couldn't help it. For Fili's whole life Thorin had been his father figure. His own real father hadn't been around much and did not seem much interested in Fili, more in Dis, and so Thorin had come in and become the man who raised, played with, trained and loved Fili. Both Fili and Kili saw Thorin as their father in all but blood. Thorin loved them unconditionally and Fili and Kili gladly returned the same feelings. And so Fili couldn't help but worry when there was a small chance his uncle hadn't survived the battle. He took a few calming breaths but choked on them when he looked at the icy waterfall. He could just make out the pale body of Azog, almost invisible on the white ice and about 10 metres away from him there was another body. Even at a distance Fili recognised the dwarf as his uncle. He could feel himself going numb and he felt his brain slowing down and yet somehow his feet were pulling him closer to the dwarf lying by the edge of the frozen waterfall.
As he approached the older dwarf he shook but he suddenly froze when something caught his eye. He thought he had seen Thorin's foot twitch. He narrowed his eyes on the dwarf and- yes. His chest was slowly moving up and down. Fili sagged as he let out a sigh of relief. He ran the last few steps and dropped to his knees beside Thorin.
"Uncle," Fili called out to Thorin who had his eyes closed. But they were soon opened as the King heard his name called. Thorin looked around and his eyes rested on his nephew leaning over him concern on his face.
"Fili," Thorin said before coughing harshly. He took a rattling breath as he stared into his nephew's face.
"Shh Uncle. Don't speak. I'm going to get you to safety." Fili said stroking Thorin's hair out of his face. Thorin shook his head.
"You can't Fili. I am too broken. I have been wounded where I cannot heal. I can hear the call of my maker," Thorin said softly and his eyes started to close.
"No. NO," Fili yelled shaking Thorin slightly. Thorin opened his eyes once more.
"There's nothing you can do for me Fili," he said.
"You are not leaving me," Fili said anger lacing his voice.
"I can't stay," Thorin responded quietly.
"But I love you," Fili's voice broke as a tear made its way down his face.
"I love you," Thorin said quickly.
"Don't say it like you're saying goodbye,"
"I love you in every way that I can. And I'll miss you the most. I'll miss the future I might have had with you," Thorin said smiling sadly up at his nephew wincing at the pain that came from his chest.
"You're willing to sacrifice that?" Fili asked desperately to the dwarf who had raised him his whole life.
Thorin took a sharp breath as he accidently jolted his wound.
"Sometimes we have to make sacrifices," he said through gritted teeth. He closed his eyes for a moment and saw Erebor. He saw Fili on the throne of the kingdom with Kili by his side. Yes, his death was worth the future his nephews would get. "Tell your brother I love him. Tell him I said goodbye." Thorin said opening his eyes again to meet Fili's. Fili nodded numbly but he still would believe his uncle would die.
Thorin raised his hand to rest on Fili's cheek.
"So long, my Prince. We shall meet again in many, many years when you are old and grey and have lived a long and happy life."
"No, you can't go Uncle. I won't be happy without you," Fili cut across desperately tears streaming down his face.
"I will always be with you my dear nephew. I will always be watching over you and will be with you forever. I love you my little one. You are my heart and soul. My Fili." And after speaking his last words looking into the face of Fili, Thorin Oakenshield came to rest.
"No. Oh Uncle." Fili whispered before letting out a sob. Tears streamed down the golden haired dwarf's face as he clung to the lifeless body of his uncle.
An hour passed before anyone came. After searching unsuccessfully through the main passages of Erebor for Thorin and then finding his brother had not returned to the mountain Kili sent out a search party to the tower to see where the two older dwarfs were. The party consisted of Dwalin, Gloin and Oin who let out shocked gasps when they found their King dead and his heir sobbing and clinging protectively over his corpse. The three older dwarfs slowly approached the younger one and tried to pull him away from the body of Thorin.
"NO, NO, NO," Fili cried angrily as he felt himself being taken away from his uncle. He gripped the body of Thorin harder refusing to let go. Eventually after sharing a few looks Dwalin, Oin and Gloin made their way about lifting both Fili and Thorin and carrying them down the tower.
As they reached the mountain Kili ran up. Terror was on his face as he saw his brother being carried by the three dwarfs but was relieved to see him moving and unharmed. Then his eyes fell on the body Fili clung too as the two dwarfs were gently put on the ground. There was a moment of silence before the area of the lonely mountain was filled with a scream. It was a scream of anger, hurt, disbelief, broken-hearted, pain but mostly utter and gut-wrenching sadness. Kili dropped to the side of Thorin that Fili was not occupying and gripped his uncle's hand tightly, praying for him to come back.
And others watched on as the two heirs and nephews of Thorin Oakensheild wept at his body mourning the loss of their beloved uncle.
Also I used a quote in here: "You are not leaving me…Sometimes we have to make sacrifices." Which I do not own. I think I will make a second chapter set maybe a month after the funeral of how Fili is dealing with the death (I have another quote lined up that I'm bursting to use) but please leave a review with what you think :)