So someone was asking why I didn't make them longer and its for a few reasons. My laptop can easily be shut off by my animals so I try to knock out chapters quickly. Also I have an older sister who CANNOT know about this :) Anyway I am going to try to make the longer I promise, Starting with this. prepare for an Elsanna kiss! Also don't worry no lemons; yet. Sister: What are you doing Me: Definitely not writing Elsanna FanFic that's for sure ;)
"Elsa, please tell me the truth. Are you being serious? Do you actually mean it?" The questions kept coming. But her reaction was not one that I was expecting. She didn't look hurt. Didn't look embarrassed. She didn't seem upset, uneasy, nauseated, disgusted, angry, furious, hurt. Or anything like that. She just looked shocked. Not in a bad way. More like when you think something and then you find out that it is actually true. I couldn't explain it. But I was building up thousands of ice walls around my feelings just in case. 50 foot high menacing spike walls. To keep my feelings in, and Anna out.
"Yes Anna, I mean it. And I'm telling you this because it is to strong, too intense, to keep it in anymore. I'm sorry Anna I truly am. But I needed to tell you this." I actually did. It was eating me alive sucking me in dragging me down. It was like a black hole. It sucked up any light or joy in my life. The weight of the burden of having to keep it a secret was crushing me down, drowning me. "I couldn't handle it any longer."
"Elsa I hope that what you are telling me is true because there is something that I need to tell you too."
I prepared myself. I raised the walls around my emotions even higher. I made them even thicker. Stronger. I was going to prepare myself for the blow. I would be able to keep out the worst.
why should you keep out the worst. You deserve much worse than worse. You deserve to burn the the depths of hell so terrifying and fiery that they would put Hellfire to shame.
I didn't listen to the voices I kept them out. I focused on making the walls even colder. Anna was preparing what she was going to say. She kept taking in breaths and then shaking her head. She was trying to think of exactly how she was going to say this. Then the voices picked up.
Elsa you are going to have to be strong. She is preparing a major letdown.
Be strong? You have nothing you need to "be strong" about. You brought this on yourself with your heinous feelings. No one else to blame.
Elsa Calm yourself. Keep your powers in check. You can't hurt her.
You are so disgusting. Why are you trying to feel pity for yourself. You do not deserve it.
Elsa! You need to stop. Stop thinking like that. Stop being like that. Get yourself in line.
The voices kept getting louder. I put my hands on my temples trying to do something but nothing was woking. Then Anna took a confident breath and started to talk, shaky at first. Her voice was so small. I almost couldn't hear her over the voices.
"Elsa. I-I-I lo-." I could tell how hard this must have been for her. I felt so bad. I wanted to cry. "Elsa, I, I love you too. As more than a sister."
The voices shut up. Evertyhing was quiet. The squirrels stopped chatting, the birds stopped singing, the crickets stopped chirping. The only sounds present were the faint roar of a waterfall, the noise getting lost and turned in the mountains and cliffs, almost impossible for someone to find. The other sound was of the wind gently blowing through the trees, making them sway a little, and permeating the air with the wonderful scent of pine.
"And I don't mean that I always want to spend time with you and be your best friend. I mean it in the I-wanna-push-you-against-the-wall-and-kiss-you passionately-every-second-of-the-day way. Elsa I was looking for the right way to tell you. I thank you for making it easier on me. But you've fallen deathly quite. Please say something."
I couldn't speak. I was disoriented. I looked into the gorgeous turquoise eyes of Anna. I leaned in closer. Her pink lips were so full . They looked so welcoming. She was leaning in now two. I tilted my head slightly. My head was running at a million miles.
Will this be like how it is in my dreams? Will it be better? Will it be worse? Will she still like me? Will things change? What will change? What will this mean for me and Anna? How will she react? How will this affect Anna? What if it does something to her? What if this hurts her even worse?
But all of the questions stopped. Her face was less than an inch from mine. She closed her eyes and so did I. Her lips pressed against mine. They felt great against mine. Hers were so warm. The kiss was innocent. No lust or need behind it. Just love.
That one little kiss sparked something inside of me.
Millions of butterflies were fluttering in my stomach. It was like a spark igniting a roaring inferno. Like a butterfly emerging from its cocoon. A new flower blooming. A baby doe taking its first steps. Plants stating to grow after a forest fire. Like standing in the eye of a hurricane. Like going right over the peak of a roller coaster.
It was all of these things. And it felt great. And the walls I had spent building up inside melted. And I was totally exposed to Anna. And I was ok with that.
She pulled out first leaving me wanting more. I came in for the kiss this time. I totally dominated her. Knowing the couch could be hard to maneuver on, I transformed it to a large bed then built some walls to give us privacy. Before I came in to kiss her again I delicately set the chocolates on the floor.
"Whoa, Elsa your powers are amazing."
I said thank you buy giving her a kiss, more fiercely this time. She gasped a little before accepting it.
This all felt so new. So exciting. It was an adventure. I let my hands explore her body while our lips were passionately locked. They traced around her petite breasts then moved on to her sides.
Oh how I wish my hands could be under her dress. Giving more freedom to explore foreign places.
But I knew I couldn't. I couldn't break that barrier with Anna. Not yet anyway. But oh how I wished we could have delved deeper into my darkest fantasies.
I woke up. I wasn't sure what time it was, but I knew it was almost morning. Anna was curled against my chest. We'd had our first night together. Sadly for me we didn't go further than kissing.
Anna woke up, groggy and confused.
"Wha-what happened." Her face flushed red as certain memories came back to her. "Oh yeah."
"Listen Anna, if you don't want it to mean anything we can just forget it and I can-"
"No! Why would you think like that. Last night was the best night of my life. I was so close to the person I cared most about. And that felt wonderful"
I was still unsure about how I felt. I knew she was telling the truth when she said that she enjoyed it; she could never sneak a lie past me. But what if she couldn't handle it. What if its too much for her. But all of my doubts were shut up when Anna looked up into my eyes and then gave me a kiss.
"Hey umm we should probably be making our way back home. Hopefully we can get there before dawn. We'll say that our adventure took longer than expected and that we set up camp for the night."
"Ok but one thing. Does my hair look bad?"
I laughed at the ridiculous joke. The princess of bedhead hair was certainly Anna.
We approached the castle at about ten. Kai was standing at the doors waiting for our arrival.
"Where were you two. You had us all worried sick."
"Sorry," I lied,"we accidentally took too long and it got dark before we were planning on returning here." Kai sighed.
"Ahh well I suppose that I should inform you right away: The Crown Prince Ulfric of the Southern Isles is requesting a visit to discuss what to do about Hans so that 'our kingdoms may live in harmony and prosper' Hmppph. I don't think you should be making any agreements with them. Anyway, what is your decision?"
"Oh I think that is a wonderful idea. And we should welcome them with a small little party. Maybe a ball with only a few of our close mutual acquaintances?"
"Well if that is what you want to do I guess you have the kingdom of Arendelle in your best interest. I'll make the plans then. Enjoy you morning milady."
He then curtsied and walked away.
"Elsa? Are you crazy? Why on earth would you invite anyone related to that creep Hans?"
"Anna. It's for the kingdom's best interest. I know that it may be hard for you, but if we do not try to have good relations with every kingdom, ours could crumble. I know I do love to make up for lost times, but I still have a whole kingdom to run silly." I placed a very sisterly kiss on her forehead. Then I whispered in her ear "I won't be able to have supper with you. After you eat dinner please go into my room and wait for me."
I then walked off, turning around to wink at her. A small grin appeared on her face.
Ugh. Boring. No one cares. It really doesn't matter what music is played at the ball for Ulfric. I would much rather be with Anna. Where is Anna? I wonder if she's thinking about me? I wonder what we'll do tonight?
My thoughts drifted into what I wanted to do with her. I really tried to focus but my mind kept wandering to things. Very naughty things.
"Milady? What do you think?"
"Huh? Oh sorry Kai. Yes I love your idea."
"Well then I guess we'll have a more informal ball, so you won't need to worry about a suitor. Yet." he winked at me and I tried to force a smile.
How could I have forgotten. I am the queen. I have to get married and have a husband so that the kingdom of Arendelle can have a king or queen after me and Anna. What was I going to do. How would I tell others that I am not interested in a king. No that wouldn't work. How would I break it to Anna that our affair would have to come to a close. It could only be a fantasy that we occasionally enjoyed.
I had all of these thoughts and emotions inside of me. How could I have gotten so lost. I was walking to my office to go take care of trade and policies and such when I noticed one of the knights' sword had fallen. I picked up the cold piece of metal then returned in to its rightful place. Suddenly I had an idea.
"Kai?"
"Yes milady?" He asked while coming around the corner.
"Could you call the swordsman. I wan't to sharpen my fighting skills."
"Yes milady. Anyone in particular?"
"Just the best teacher of fighting we have." I smiled as he went of to go schedule my training. Maybe I had found a healthy way to relieve my stress.