Pov`s Zoe

It had been 24 hours that I had sent a message to Dan, and he probably would not have seen or do not want cell for the twentieth time that day and no response.

Sitting of leaning way the headboard, I took my diary and put me to write all the confusion I had arranged last week, and had left a lot of people crazy for it.

Amara had been in my room for the tenth time in four hours, I knew the madness that I had done, had broken the trust she and Renato had placed in me. And things had changed so much.

I would not use more sweaters, jackets, sweaters and long cardigans, when they had cold and this included the jeans and legins, fear that Amara had to change the places to cut me, to Dr. Julia had spent remedies to me, that were tranquilizers and other so I could sleep.

And another of his pre RECOMMENDATIONS - was written I write all my feelings, Stella gave me a diary to start, when he brought me home yesterday.

I started the diary, writing down everything that I went through that reminded me of the skull so far, was a bit difficult to write by dressing in pulses that hindered and that cutting it hurt to be open.

Take me long to write, what seemed like an eternity for the conditions and now rereading the palasvras roamed quickly in my mind, wondering "why I had so this intent to destroy me myself?" Such a bizarre way! Thinking that ridiculous cuts the body would salavar me of emptiness and loneliness sentimetos!

Dear Diary,

I do not know what is happening to me! So I know that when I'm sad, I want a object that court. I can not control myself!

Last week I was hospitalized for what I did, but I still know it's wrong!

I know that to be selfish with myself, about asking help, fear and shame joined together yesterday and weighed in the balance and almost killed me for it. I'm still trying to understand how I let this happen to me, I let something so simple to avoid reaching the point of inesplicável. All I know now I try mesalvar now ... or I do not know what to do!

"I to destroying me!" I thought as I read the half.

Still thinking about the proposal to Amara to go to New York, and spending time there. Appear to be a great idea but do not know what to decide.