Controlling my body with cutting. That is the only way I know how to contain the pain. I put the blade against my skin and allowed the blood to flow with a towel wrap. Cutting is my lonely company against this nightmare.
I know she is damaged and I wonder if I'm enough to help. I should have stayed away. Didn't she know, I'm a contamination on her white floor...? I did it again. I broke her heart.
When he broke me with simple words, I broke down. I cried all night and all day without eating, skipping sleeping, and failing classes. But those are normal for me. I am used to depression. It's a reliever. I must be crazy.
He is happily back with Alex. "Don't stare too long, Greenpeace!"
I couldn't handle Emma's craziness and all of her pessimism that she brought on me. So, I let her go with her business. Not my problem to deal with anymore.
Maybe, I am saving her from me...
I had to show her that I'm bad.
Prove it.
Him trying to push me into hating him is pissing me off! I'm going to show him.