First I just want to give a shout out to Azkadellio, they seriously saved my ass and help me A LOT with the sex scene in this chapter. Giving me something to go off of and providing the framework I needed to make it my own. Its because of them that I am able to update so soon.

Also for those of you who weren't sure the Chapter 3 that I updated yesterday is a brand new chapter. I know my sneak peek chapter use to be titled Chapter 3 but its been replaced.

Disclaimer: There was a time when I owned the rights to Victorious along with all of the characters, but then I regained consciousness.

Monday
August 12, 2013

When I opened my eyes I was back in my room at the hospital. 'How did I?' That train of thought was interrupted when I try to think of the last thing I can remember. I was in Tori's room and … Tori. Now it's all coming back, I went to see if Tori was alright but she was anything but. Bruised and broken, she looked so fragile. All I wanted was to ease her pain, but there was nothing I could do to make her better. I whimpered quietly, trying my best to keep from crying. I didn't think anyone else was in the room but as soon as the small whimper left my lips they made their self known.

"Ah Miss. West your awake. I am doctor Stevens, how are you feeling this evening?" I looked to my left to see Cat standing in the middle of the room next to a man. He was older, probably in his late sixties. Easily towering over Cat as he had to be over "6'0" effortlessly. He had a grey goatee with freckled skin and the kindest green eyes. If the white coat and thick metal clip board was any indication, I think it would be safe to say that he was the doctor.

I look to the pair, and ask the question that I had silently been wondering when I had though I was alone. "How did I get here?" He looked at me sympathetically before answering, "Well, you were admitted here Saturday after a ca…." "I know why I am here, I am asking how I got HERE, in this room? Going to see Tori is the last thing I can remember before waking up here again." I finish looking to Cat. I know I shouldn't have been so rude, he was only trying to help. But given the circumstances I think I deserved to be a little brash. He nodded in understanding, but before he could say anything Cat spoke up.

"I took you to Tori's room yesterday…" "Wait yesterday?" I interrupted. "What time is it? How long have I been asleep?" I couldn't believe it had been a whole day. "Its maybe around five in the evening now, and I took you to see Tori at probably ten yesterday morning?" She explained before continuing, "But Jadey that's not important. When you saw her you got really sad and started screaming and crying." She looked increasingly upset recalling the events of the day before. "I didn't know what to do, I tried to make you feel better but it was like you couldn't hear me." She cried. "The doctors came in after that and tried talking to you but you still wouldn't stop, so they gave you medicine that made you sleepy and brought you back here." She finished.

I couldn't remember any of that, but if the lingering drowsiness and Cats exhausted expression had anything to do with it, it had defiantly happened. She had bags under her eyes and she look as if she hadn't slept all night. "Cat I am so sorry" I told her, she must have been so scared and worried about me. She smiled softly, "It's okay Jadey, it's not your fault. The doctors said that seeing Tori like that was to much for you and you had a nervous attack." She finished.

I couldn't help but chuckle, "You mean a panic attack?" I asked. She looked up, thinking for a second before nodding her head, "Yea! One of those things." She exclaimed. I just shook my head in adoration for the little red head before looking to the doctor. "How is she doing? Tori I mean" I asked hoping that something good had happened since I'd seen her last.

Dr. Stevens sighed, "Well I am not her doctor, but after speaking with Cat here I did go and check up on her. All I can really tell you at this point is that she's stable. There was significant trauma to her brain which caused a lot of swelling. Her doctors had to go in and operate to release some of that pressure, but that's all I really know." He finished. I just nodded, to scared to speak in case I couldn't keep my emotions in check. I stayed quiet as the doctor excused himself to take a call. Cat walked up to my bed standing by my side, and taking my hand in hers. I squeeze it tightly desperate for any kind of comfort.

After a couple of minutes Dr. Stevens returned with a uniformed police officer in tow. He was young, late 20's maybe. He was short in stature standing at about "5'8" and had a muscular build. His hair was light brown, chin length and fluffy, framing his chiseled face and hanging down into his piercing blue eyes. Not at all what I would picture a cop to look like. He stepped closer moving to the left side of my bed opposite Cat. I couldn't help but to roll my eyes as I felt her grip on my hand tighten.

"Hello Miss. West I am officer Parks, I am assigned to your case" He began. "Okay.." I asked, waiting for him to get to the reason he was here now. " Nodding his head he continued. "If you're feeling up to it, I am here to get you statement. It would really help us out if we can hear the events of that day from your point of view." "Okay" I agree, "Where do you want me to start?" He pulls up a chair and takes a seat near my head, before taking out a pen and note pad from his shirt pocket. Looking up at me he replies, "Just start from the beginning"

…Flashback…

Tori and I had been together for about four months before things started to get rocky. I had been lucky enough to get an internship with an up and coming director. Chris Hanslie was amazing; anyone whose anyone wanted to work with him, and rightfully so. He was quickly becoming known as the modern day Alfred Hitchcock.

I began to spend all of my free time in the office, doing whatever it took to prove that I was serious. I had been so consumed in my work that everything else seemed to not matter anymore. My dreams were finally coming true, and I was so close to it I could feel it. That only made me work harder, made me more focused.

I was sitting alone in my room one night when I heard the doorbell ring. Stopping what I was doing I reluctantly made my way downstairs. Opening the door forcefully my anger dissipated as I saw who was standing on the other side. While the anger faded it morphed into slight annoyance. "Hey babe, what are you doing here?" I spoke, taking in the blank look on Tori's face. She lifted her eyes and met mine before she spoke, "Its Wednesday…" She huffed, waiting as to give Jade time to comprehend the significance of the day. "Yea? It's Wednesday Tori, what about it?" I asked quickly growing frustrated with the Latina.

"It's Wednesday Jade, you said you would listen to my song that's due for advanced songwriting tomorrow." Then it dawned on me, Tori had been asking for my opinion on the song she had been working on. When the assignment was originally assigned I had promised to help her write it. But as time passed I had become so consumed in my internship I never had a free minute.

Excuse after excuse I finally told Tori that I simply just didn't have the time. And Tori being the people pleaser she was had been disappointed of course, but made me promise to at least listen and critique what she was able to come up with before she was required to turn it in. And that's what lead us to this moment on my porch.

I know that I promised to listen to her song, but I really had a lot of stuff to get done. She had to understand, this was for our future. "Tori… I-I am sorry but I am…" I was cut off by Tori's unusually dead voice, "to busy… yea I figured." The Latina rolled her eyes looking down to her feet. She couldn't possibly be this mad at me for something like this! Everything I've done had been for us, for our future lives together. I figured if anyone knew what it was like to put your all into your work so you could achieve your dreams, it would be her. I have no idea whats wrong with her, but the attitude was seriously starting to piss me off. "Whats your problem?" I yelled.

Her head snapped back up to mine so fast I am surprised she didn't get whip lash. "Whats my problem?! No Jade, what the hell is your problem? You're the one who keeps making plans with me only to cancel because your 'to busy'. Why don't you just stop making up lame ass excuses and just admit why your always to busy to keep any of your promises to me?" Seeing this kind of anger from Tori was odd enough but hearing her curse like that had me shocked.

I mean all of this anger for what? The fact that I can't listen to her song? "Tori there's nothing to admit! I am busy, it happens, now you need to stop this and calm down!" I was trying to keep the anger away but she just kept pushing, and pushing, and …. "No! I don't need to calm down, you need to stop lying to yourself and to me and just admit it! Tell me how you really feel!" She's pushing harder and I am about to snap, I can feel it. "Admit what!" I scream.

She only yells back louder leaving me stunned, "Admit that you don't love me anymore!" Her face is red with anger and her eyes are bloodshot, full of unshed tears. I don't know what to say, it takes me a minute for my mind to form coherent sentences, but before I can verbalize them she beats me to it, finally letting the tears fall. "I can't do this" she whispers. All the anger is gone replaced by confusion and hurt. "What are you saying?" I ask.

I know what she's saying but somehow my heart wants to hear her say it. Wants to hear the words so the pain afterwards will be that much more intense. She looks into my eyes for a moment before speaking, and I cant help but notice the sparkle that inhabited the chocolate orbs, the one that made me fall in love with her was gone. Had I done that? Had I made her this unrecognizable mess?

I get my answer as she speaks. "I can't be with you anymore. I am not happy and every time were together it hurts. I do love you Jade, so much but I need to think about myself for once… I am sorry, but were done." This couldn't be happening. I was pulled out of my shock as she started to turn away. "Wait Tori, please!" She stopped for a second, back facing me, thinking. Before I am able to get my hopes up she just shakes her head whispering "I am sorry", before leaving without another word.

I am frozen in place as the realness of the situation sinks in. Thats when the dam broke and all of the emotions I held beck began flooding in. The intensity of it made me buckle under its weight and sink to my knees. In that moment I couldn't think, my head fell into my hands and I didn't even try to stop it. I just cried, my mind void of thoughts and my body heaving with emotion.

…..

It had been nine days since Tori broke up with me, and at first I wanted to give her space. Space to calm down and realize that my love for her was real. But now I just wanted to talk to her. Know that she was alright, but she wont give me the chance. Every time I come near her she walks the other way, she's been avoiding me for a week now and I don't know how much more I can take. Its Friday night and I've decided to put an end to this. All I can do is lay everything out on the table for her, and if she decided that I was worth it then maybe she'll take me back. But if not then I would just have to let her go.

The drive to her house was short, to short. I was supposed to have this entire speech prepared and know exactly what I was going to say to her, but nothing seemed good enough and now time was up. I slowly walked up to the door, then after a second knocked quickly. It was a minute before I could hear the shuffling from inside, and another before the door opened. Even though I'd seen her just hours before my heart jumped at seeing her standing there again.

She was wearing an oversized USC sweater I remember her telling me use to belong to her cousin. Little grey sweat shorts that exposed a vast expanse of smooth tanned skin, and fuzzy pink and yellow striped socks. Her hair was in a messy bun at the top of her head, her glasses perched on the bridge of her nose. And despite the miserable look on her face she was the epitome of beauty.

I am snapped back to attention when I hear her speak. "Jade? What are you doing here?" She shifted uncomfortably; seeming unsure, of herself and the situation. "Can I come in?" I asked quietly. When she made no move to respond I speak again, "Tori please?" She sighed in defeat, stepping aside so I can move past her and into the living room. I stand next to the couch to nervous to sit, and I watch as she closes the door. She slowly turns to face me, her eyes looking anywhere else but mine. "You shouldn't be here Jade" She says quietly.

"No Tori, this is exactly where I need to be." I started. "I thought a lot about what you said to me that night, and I have to admit that I've been a really shitty girlfriend. I neglected you, I didn't treat you the way that you deserved, and I am so sorry for that." My breath was becoming shaky, and I could feel the unshed tears. "But how dare you think that I didn't love you." Tori stayed silent, still standing by the door so I continued. "Though it's no excuse, everything I've been doing these past couple of months has been for us, and our future. Tori, you're my everything; the reason that I get up in the morning, and the reason I am excited for every new day we get to spend together. I couldn't face the future without you, which is why I've been working so hard,,, so I can give you the life that you deserve." I cried, looking to the ground and letting the tears fall uninterrupted. Tori shifted uncomfortably before moving closer to me, taking me in her arms and wiping away the tears.

I looked into her eyes at the unexpected intimate contact. "What if I didn't want all that Jade? All I wanted was to be with you, and you just ignored me. Do you know how much that hurt?" Her silent tears were breaking my heart. I was so tired of being the one to make her cry, when all I wanted to do was see her smile. "I know, and I am so sorry. Just….huh" I huff. Wrapping my arms around her, holding her close, and pressing my forehead against hers whispering

"Baby please? Please give me another chance, a chance to prove that I can love you the way that you need." She looks longingly into my eyes and I can see her resolve crumbling. Her eyes close and she breaths in deeply before meeting my unwavering gaze, "Just don't break my heart." "Never" I whisper, caressing her face gently. I am finally able to press our lips together in a gentle kiss, for the first time in almost two weeks and I am home.

We part looking into each others eyes, and I cant help myself. Slipping my hand to the back of her neck I pull her in, kissing her hard. Its full of the desire and longing that I'd been carrying for her. Pulling away we stare deeply into each others eyes, breathing heavy. She surprises me by slipping her hands into my hair and bringing me into another kiss, showing the same amount of passion and love. "I think I'm ready." Tori whispers suddenly as out lips part, a light blush staining her cheeks.

"We don't have to do this, you know?" I reply, uncertain. We had just gotten back together and I didn't want her to later regret our first time together.

"I know…but I want to." She smiles nervously. Talking my hand, she lead me upstairs to her room. As she closes the door behind us she pulls me back in for another heated kiss.

Pulling away I gently tug at the sleeve of her sweater, revealing the smooth skin of her shoulder. I lean in kissing it sweetly before running my hands down her body, to the hem of the sweater lying at her thighs. Removing my lips from her shoulder I pull it up and off reveling in the feel of the newly exposed skin. She takes my lead going for my jacket, pushing it off of my shoulders with trembling fingers.

As it falls, hitting the ground quietly I press my palms to her stomach. Slowly running them down her stomach to her shorts. I hesitate a moment as I feel her fingers following the same pattern, playing with the skin just below my shirt. As I hook my thumbs in the waist band of her shorts pulling them down, she takes a good hold on the hem of my shirt. Pulling it from me as I stand up straight.

I watch as her eyes travel up and down the expanse of my body, taking me in unashamed before looking into my eyes. The lust and want she had for me is overwhelming, and I cant stop myself when I grab her by the gore of her bra and kissing her franticly.

"Wait." She sighs, backing away quickly. The blush on her cheeks began to grow as she shits nervously. "Yea?" I ask, watching as her arms come up to cover her chest, suddenly afraid that I had done something wrong.

"I'm…uhm…I mean…I just….huh!…I've never really done anything like this before." She stutters nervously, looking to the ground as one hand travels from her breasts down to cover herself further.

I nod in understanding, reaching to lift her chin and forcing her to look at me, "If you wanna stop, we can. All you have to do is say the word." I tell her, gently rubbing her lower back hoping to soothe her.

"I don't want to stop. I want this, but can we just go slow?" She asks, looking into my eyes. "Of course" I reply breathlessly, watching as a fire is ignited in her. She's the one to kiss me this time, running her hand up my arm playing with the strap of my bra. Taking it as a signal to move forward, I reach around to the clasp on hers. Waiting for her eyes to meet mine before I unhook it and let it fall between us.

Following my lead she pulls me close, kissing my neck as she pulls the straps further down my shoulders, reaching behind me to unclasp it and letting gravity do the rest. I take that second to gently push her back until her legs hit the bed, leaning into her until she sits. She looks up at me as her hands run up and down by bare chest, ghosting over my breasts and gently pressing into my nipples. She stopped her movements when I moaned deeply at the pleasure she was giving me. Looking down in wonder, I saw her just as she was leaning in, pressing her lips to my stomach.

She moved slowly as she licked and kissed, gently dipping into my navel and tugging on the piercing there. The assault on my body and her roaming hands where quickly becoming to much, but I hold out as I felt those wondering fingers roam to the button on my jeans. She opened them quickly, dipping her finders in to caress the heated skin that lye just beneath. She removed my jeans, and then some leaving be bare, planting sweet kisses on my hips. Unable to hold back any longer I pull away, guiding her up the bed until her head rests amongst the pillows.

I guide my hands up and down her body, planting kisses as I go. I make my way down, sliding in between her legs until I am face to face with her heated core. I kiss just above her mound gently before pulling away and taking her little pink thong in my hands. Pull it away from her, she spreads her legs for me. An open invitation that I'd be stupid to pass up. I reclaim my spot between her legs, kissing my way down tanned thighs. Just as I am going to kiss that sweet spot, that'll make heart race I am stopped.

"Tell me you love me" Tori ask's breathlessly. Looking deep into her eyes I tell her, "I love you" meaning every word. Not breaking her gaze I move a hand lower opening her up to me before slowly pushing a single finger in. Noticing the hesitation in her eyes, I lean forward kissing her lower stomach gently. I push a little deeper until I feel her barrier, stoping to make sure she was still okay with this. She answers my silent question with a nod, closing her eyes as I push a little harder finally breaking through. Moving down I kiss her thigh between soothing words, keeping my hand still hoping to ease some of her pain.

"Ready?" I ask in a whisper, looking up at her. "Yeah." She breathes out after a moment, nodding slowly. Nodding more to myself, I begin to pull out before pushing back in at a gentle pace. I know she said it was alright but I still don't want to hurt her. I want this to be as pleasurable as possible, and I want her to enjoy it. I could never forgive myself if she ended up regretting this.

After a few gentle thrusts I add a second finger. Moaning softly when I feel her core grip me tightly, feeling the muscles in her stomach tighten and contract in pleasure. "So good" she moans softly, as she trails a hand down her body. Meeting mine and holding it tightly as it rest on her stomach.

Keeping a steady rhythm I move my kisses lower, licking up her length before taking her in my mouth and sucking gently. I keep going as I feel Tori inhale sharply, tensing as she adjusts to the new sensation. As she begins to relax slightly I increase my pace, pumping my fingers faster, arching them at just the right time.

Her deep moans spurring me on and I pull my fingers away and replace them with my mouth. I groan pleasurably as her essence touches my tongue, sucking harder, wanting more of her. The sounds of our moans filling the room as my tongue massages her from the inside, hands gripping her waist keeping her close.

"I'm close." She whispers, body squirming uncontrollably gripping at the cheats beneath her. "Do it, cum for me." I tell her breathlessly. I enter her again, this time a little harder smiling mischievously as I hear her groan. As I take her clit back into my mouth I feel her body go ridged. She cries out as her back arches sharply, core squeezing my fingers tightly in climax.

Pulling out of her slowly I climb up the bed to lay next to her. I hold her close and kiss her gasping lips. "I really do love you" I tell her again. "I know." She answers, finally able to manage a small smile. After she catches her breath Tori moves out of my arms and slides down lower in the bed.

With shaky hands she spreads my legs moving in between them. Stroking my core gently, she takes me by surprise when she slips a single finger inside of me. As she hesitates briefly I cant help but moan begging her to "Keep going." I cry out suddenly when she adds a second finger brushing against a sensitive spot inside of me, probably just a nervous accident I am more then glad she had.

I see her expression take on one of curiosity as she lowers her head to my core and licks up my length gently. As her tongue reaches the top and circles that special little bundle I can't help it as my eyes roll back slightly. With her fingers moving faster then before, her hands moving to massage my breasts, and her tongue on my sensitive clit my orgasm was nearing quicker then I had expected. After a couple more rough thrusts I can feel it reach its peak. It happens so fast, I nearly scream as the pleasure washes over me, making me spill my essence in to her eagerly awaiting mouth.

As the pleasure rolls through me like waves she never stops, prolonging my orgasm, escalating it to unimaginable levels. When I could not longer take it I had to push her away, closing my legs tightly, gasping for air. Focusing on getting my breathing back to a normal level I almost miss Tori moving up the bed and laying in my arms. Making herself comfortable and she lays her head on my breasts.

As we lay in each others arms, sweat slicked bodies pressed close, we both knew that this is where we were supposed to be. We knew we were young but this was more then a barrage of teenaged hormones. It was love, and it was real.

JadeLyn

Okay little one vocabulary lesson. The Gore on a bra is the middle piece that holds the cups together. I.e. If you had a bra that clips in the front, the clips would be where the Gore usually is.

Also if I missed any spelling or grammar let me know, I am really tired and I tend to miss the obvious when I proof reading like this.