May 3th 1975 – Afternoon

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I was on the waiting room; Balthazar's office was bigger than I thought. Dean was there talking with him about his hallucinations and I was anxious; after a couple of minutes Dean came out smiling and Balthazar was with him.

"Castiel my friend" He said embracing me and looked at my face "You've changed!"

"So have you, Balthazar" I replied laughing, Dean rested his arms on my shoulder

"Your friend here is just stressed…" Continued Balthazar with a smile "He just needs to rest a little, Cas"

"I was worried, thank you" I replied, Dean smiled and shook Balthazar's hand

"And hun" Whispered Balthazar after looking around "You guys are a really cute couple" I immediately blushed like a teenager and Dean took his arms off my shoulder worried "It's ok, Cas, I can keep a secret"

"Thank you" I whispered back and Dean breathed out relieved.

When we got home I sat on the couch relieved and somewhat happy, Dean sat by my side and rested his head on my shoulder "I like your friend, Balthazar… right?"

"Yes, we met at the hospital" I replied closing my eyes, the day was hot and a cool breeze passed through the apartment

"Did you know that he like boys too?"

"No" I replied with a smile "I had no idea"

"I love your smile, it was one of the things I missed so much while on that place" Continued Dean while his hands caressed my chest "I never stopped to think about you… I guess that place made me realize who much I needed you"

"I-I never thought you had these feelings for me… I mean, I wanted you to… But… you know" Dean laughed softly, I didn't know what to say

"I know, you've always been so… Straight like, I was surprised that you kissed me back…"

"I was surprised too" I laughed

"Cas, are you afraid of me?"

"No" I said surprised "Why?"

"Yesterday I acted like a crazy… I almost shot you"

"You wouldn't hurt me, Dean"

"What makes you so sure?"

"Nothing, but the fact we spent our entire lives together… I know who you are Dean, you would never hurt me… I know you"

"Cas… You make me be someone better that I am"

"You are welcome" I chucked; Dean kissed my neck and smiled. We returned to the apartment, Dean seemed fine; no, he looked better just like before. We talked about many things, like schools and old friends, it was a nice day; but when the night came he was shaken. Dean held my hand and held him on my arms, I liked how he sighted relieved; like I was protecting him from the war.

"Thank you, Cas" He whispered on my ears "I don't know when I'll get better once for all, but when I do I'll never forget you"

"I'll never forget you too" I replied, I was so hopeful that everything would work out fine that nothing could take my hopes away. "Dean"

"I'm going to my father's house tomorrow, to talk about the mechanical shop" He continued looking into my eyes, I nodded and he lay on the bed; I lay by his side and stopped to hear his breathing. I watched his chest go up and down; Dean was like a boy now, untroubled by his problems, untouched by war; who would know by looking at him now that he went through war. I was truly happy that moment.

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May 3th 1975 – Morning

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Dean woke up and ate his breakfast with me, I left to my office, but I was afraid that Dean needed me while I was away. I must confess that I spent the whole day thinking how crazy all it seemed; it was like a teenager dream coming true, I smiled to myself every now and then when I was filling some forms or sorting out some papers.

Lunch time came really fast, I ate some pasta and called John's house, Dean answered and we talked a little; He was happy that his father accepted to open a mechanical shop with him, I knew Dean loved cars.

I filled some forms again, it was hard not to think about Dean or the mechanical shop, I was as excited as he was and I was worried too. I wanted to be there if Dean had one of those crises again, I decided to stop being worried without doing a thing; I searched for some books on the subjects, needless to say that it was difficult to find something on books that time. I found something, but I knew I needed to talk with Balthazar, he was the specialist; I smiled; now I knew what I would do tomorrow.

I got home and it was getting dark, Dean was on the sofa watching some silly sitcom. I passed him by and kissed his shoulder; he smiled at me and touched my chin lightly. I took a shower and came back to find Dean eating sardine and some lettuce salad.

"I didn't know that you liked this kind of food" I said sitting in a chair facing him

"I don't, but Balthazar told me I needed a diet" He said displeased "Like I needed"

"Well, you can always find room for improvement" I chucked, Dean smiled "I'm glad Balthazar is helping you out"

"I'm glad too, Cas" Said Dean finishing his food "Those two years were like hell"

"I can only imagine… I'm glad you came back safe, do you remember that guy… Danny I think"

"Benny" Said Dean chucking "Yeah, I heard he was killed on the war… I'm glad that it was over"

"I've always liked Benny; he was kind of bad guy"

"Benny wasn't bad… He was just misunderstood" Said Dean putting his plate on the sink, I smiled, maybe he knew more than what he told me about Benny;

"How would you know it?"

"I talked with him in the camp, we were in training…" Continued Dean sitting in front of me "At first I didn't like him a bit… He was kind of dark, creep guy"

"So what changed?"

"We had a jump exercise" Continued Dean excited "We went high as we could, I remember being afraid, but he sat by my side and smiled… He told me, being afraid of falling is part of being brave enough to do it, I must confess it gave confidence to jump"

"He seemed like a good guy"

"He was, after that we talked often and we even went through survival training together" Dean sighted and smiled sadly again, I rested my hand on his shoulder

"Well, at least he isn't hurting anymore" Dean looked deep into my eyes and nodded, I smiled embarrassed; Dean was so boyish. "Neither will you"

"How can you be sure, Cas?"

"Dean" I said kissing his hand "I can't explain, I just feel it"

"Cas…

"Yes?" I laughed; he held my hand and pulled me closer

"Never mind…" I must've blushed, because Dean chucked and kissed me lightly on my forehead

"Why are you laughing?" I asked confused, Dean just stood up, smiled and went to our room. It's was strange how clueless I was.

At night Dean always used to try to convince me to have sex with him, but it always ended up in such awkward and funny situations that we just laughed or went to sleep. I didn't think it was strange that we didn't have sex yet. I thought it was cute, Dean was just shaken or too anxious, I didn't want to 'treat' him with sex; so we both decided that we would have sex, but only if we both wanted. It was a thing that worked out well for us.

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May 4th 1975 – Afternoon

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The morning came too fast and passed faster, I left my job earlier than I used to; to be honest I just wanted to go home and take a bath, a cold one, it was a hot day.

"Cas?!" Said Dean shirtless sitting on the couch, I looked at him and smiled. Was that the way Dean used to relax? "I was taking a nap"

"Well, don't stop now…" I said smiling "I like the way you sleep"

"Oh" He said putting his shirt on, I chucked, Dean was embarrassed. It wasn't like I never saw him naked, but seeing him relaxed on the couch like this was something new to me "Sorry"

"Hey, you don't have to put your shirt on… Today is hot, you know" I said hanging my white coat and hat

"I'm not comfortable to be shirtless… Vietnam was hot, but it was dangerous to be shirtless, too much mosquitoes"

"Well, you aren't in Vietnam anymore…" I said resting my briefcase on the floor "The only danger here is me" I laughed, Dean laughed and grabbed my arms

"I see, then… I think I need to neutralize you before I can relax"

"You'd better do" I kissed him, it was different from the first time now my fear was gone, while Dean unbuttoned my shirt I sat him on the couch; Both of us smiled. "Do you really want to do it?"

"Do you?"

"Well, I want to" I said thinking how silly this talk was, Dean chucked and ran his tongue around my nipples; I felt like laughing and I did, Dean laughed too and we both ended up on the floor, because I lost my balance. "Sorry" I said laughing still "I swear I was trying to have sex with you, but it got just too funny"

"I agree" Said Dean helping me stand up, he laughed too while I buttoned my shirt again "Maybe next time, Cas"

"Yeah, we got time right?" I said walking to the kitchen

"Right, bring me a beer, honey" Shouted Dean on the couch I could hear the television being turned on, I chucked and brought him beer; Dean knew I wasn't found of 'honey', but he called me every now and then to tease me.

"What are you watching?" I said sitting by his side, Dean drank a sip of his beer and smiled

"News about the world, and these guys 'rolling stones' singing some song about black slaves girls being raped"

"Wow, hun… That's nasty" I said a little shocked, it was another time… I couldn't even believe that it was on news

"I think that too, those guys sound good though, they are in a tour through here"

"Do you want to go see them?"

"Heaven's no" Replied Dean laughing "I really don't want deal with a lot of drunk people singing"

"Hey, they are talking about Stevie Wonder" I said excited, Dean looked at me confused

"Who?"

"You know that guy with that groove music, Motown style… You Haven't Done Nothing"

"I heard about him, but I didn't think he is so great"

"So you tell me whose is great? Dean" I mocked, Dean cleaned his throat

"Alice cooper… No more, Mr. Nice guy" He replied singing like he thought Alice cooper himself would sing, I laughed hard. "Come on, Cas" He said a little upset, but Dean laughed too

"Sorry, but this music is kind of old, Dean" I said resting my head on his shoulder "It like 3 years old"

"I know, but I just came back"

"You know he went solo now, right?"

"Solo?!"

"Yes, don't know why"

"Well, we still have the king right?"

"Yeah, I forgot you liked his songs"

"Oh, I would love to hear 'burning love' again on the radio"

"I thought it was playing all the time"

"No, they are always playing 'Suspicious minds' and 'Fever'"

"We could buy a vinyl; my sis left me her gramophone"

"Can we?"

"Yeah, I bet we can find this Hawaiian LP"

"Oh, that would be great!' Said Dean holding me "What about turning the radio on and the television off?"

"Seems good" The radio began to play

"Should I hurt your feelings and keep on lying?"

"What a heck is that Cas?"

"One thing leads to another; and another"

"Don't know, I guess it's Jefferson Starships"

"That is really horrible…" Said Dean turning the radio off

"It was kind of cool" I said chucking, Dean made a serious face

"I hope you are joking"

"Maybe"