May 11th 1975 – Morning
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I opened my eyes and Dean slept by my side, peacefully. I felt just like in a dream, my mind was fuzzy and my head was light, I smiled and kissed his cheek.
"Cas?" He replied drowse, and I embraced him in silence
"Dean" I whispered, it was years since I lost him… Years filled with alcohol and pain. "It's so good to see you again, so good"
"Cas, we just slept in the same bed…." He continued smiling widely "What is going on?"
"I'm sorry" I said, I looked right into his eyes; green like a forest; I felt like all my pain was removed; my body was whole again, then it struck me… Dean would die that day. "I'm taking a day off today; let's go to the amusement park"
"Yeah, it looks like a nice idea…" Said Dean kissing my cheek, I never felt so good on my whole life; it was like returning home, I just needed to keep Dean away from a while; I just needed to watch over him like I was his guardian angel.
"I love you, Dean..." I whispered "I would've said that a thousand times… Why was I ashamed to love you?"
"Cas, you really are acting strangely today" Laughed Dean holding me back tight "But I like it, anyway"
I stood in silence, I was blessed; Gabriel helped me… But I needed to steal something, anything for having Dean back, that's what I thought in that moment.
"Let's have breakfast, shall we?" Said Dean standing up, I let him go and followed him to the kitchen; this time I would save him no matter what.
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May 11th 1975 – Afternoon
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Dean and I were on the Ferris wheel, it stopped, we were on the top of it; I breathed relieved, nobody could see us.
"So want to make out?" Asked Dean laughing
"Dean" I said laughing, he knew it was dangerous; if we were in another place and another time, maybe we could be together like this. "Don't"
"You know…. You look so handsome" He replied resting his arms on my shoulders "Your eyes look different"
"Do they?" I asked smiling, maybe Dean could see the sorrow that came over me, I wasn't his Cas… I was a half empty shell.
"Yeah, you look like you became wiser…" He said puzzled "I like it" I let a tear slip and he smiled, it was good to know that even after all the pain I went through Dean still loved me.
"I've always loved you" I whispered, Dean embraced me… "How many nights have I waited be embraced by you…"
"What are you talking about?" Said Dean pulling me away gently "Are you ok?"
"I'm sorry, I just had a bad dream" I said repeating to myself, I wanted to convince myself that the future was just a bad dream. "I'm glad you are here with me"
"I'm glad to be here with you" Dean replied and smiled embarrassed "Well, I told my brother about us… Sorry"
"It's ok" I replied smiling widely, now I knew when Dean told Sam about us "I knew you would… Eventually"
"Sammy says it ok…. Aren't you mad?"
"No, why should I be?"
"Well, you didn't want anybody to know"
"I know that, but I've changed my mind…" I continued remembering the Castro's talk we had "But I guess some people… At least your family should know"
"Then it means we'll tell my dad?" Asked Dean a little afraid, I smiled and the Ferris wheel moved
"Not now… Dean"
We spend the day walking around the park and talking, until Dean decided we needed to eat out tonight;
"I'm serious… Cas" He repeated while I laughed, it was so strange asking me to eat out, Dean was just like one of those guys. "Let's eat out so that we can celebrate"
"Celebrate?" I replied curious
"Yeah, you and me together… Isn't that enough to celebrate?"
"Well, I guess" I laughed again, Dean smiled his laugh lines were thin; I felt good inside, seeing him after burying him was like a miracle.
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"Castiel!" Said Gabriel extending his hand to me, we were in the middle of the amusement park; I was surprised and shook his hand, Dean looked at me confused.
"Gabriel?!" I replied surprised
"Aren't you gonna introduce us?" Asked Dean shaking Gabriel's hand
"This is my friend, Gabriel" I said a little shaken
"Any friend of Cas is a friend of mine" Replied Dean, I nodded
"Dean, can you excuse us, he is a patient and I will talk about his situation" I said gently, Dean nodded and smiled while leaving
"I'm grabbing some hotdogs for us, Cas" I smiled and Gabriel smiled back
"I did my part, now you do yours" Said Gabriel
"I will, now I need to keep Dean safe" I whispered
"Don't be afraid, I'll watch over your boyfriend" He replied whispering too "Just get that thing"
"Why don't you get it?"
"Because angels can't touch that box"
"What is in it?"
"Don't be curious Cas…" Said Gabriel padding on my shoulder "Do it"
"Cas?" Said Dean giving me a hotdog "Where is your patient?"
"He is…" I said turning back, but Gabriel wasn't there "Gone"
"I see" Laughed Dean biting his hotdog "Hun, I love those things"
I faked a laugh; I was too worried about my 'new' future to laugh for real. Have I done a deal that I can't fulfill? I wasn't an old drunk guy in the rehab anymore, this time I had no excuse, I had to choose… Fulfill my part of the deal, or lose Dean again.