Christians POV
When I came home to be greeted by my present from Ana, my world came crashing down. How could she do this to me? Doesn't she love me anymore? I know we have been distant for quite some time, but that was because of some important business deals that have been taking a big strain on my life. I can definitely see it has taken a toll on Ana, big enough for her to leave me. I need to find her and make it alright. I won't bombard her with everything. We can just take it slow again.
God, just waking up to an empty bed is killing me. I can just about smell her still on her pillow and that is keeping my nightmares at bay, but just about. Every day that goes by with her missing, I am growing weaker. I need my strong Ana by my side to make the world a better place again. Half of my hair has fallen out by pulling on it over and over again. All I have gotten back in finding Ana are dead ends. Where can my girl are hiding? I don't care if she has given me divorce papers, I will not sign them until I talk to her face to face. I need her to explain. I will not give up on us. Never. Not until I die. Anyway, even if she is cheating on me, I will never stop loving her and there will be nobody else.
My tears have all dried out for now once I told my family that Ana just upped and left me they have been so supportive coming round making sure I eat I know that I normally hate when they have an input to my life but right now I am just grateful they have been my life line through this pain and misery. When I first told them what happened they were all in shock because we only saw them the day before she left and we were so happy so in love, what changed I wonder.
I start to wonder if my love will ever come back to me, I am just a monster and my Ana finally realised in and left properly running. Elena has been in contact with me trying to fix me up again with subs that bitch I cannot believe how insensitive she can be I don't even know what I saw in her when I was younger until I die I will not even look at another women it is only my Ana.
Elliott has asked Kate to marry him like I care, I am happy for Elliott but I still do not like Kate she is such a bitch specially when she will not tell me where my beautiful lovely Ana has gone. I have had some heated arguments with her about where she is but no she is pretending she doesn't know a thing and I call that bullshit them girls tell each other everything so I know that she is keeping something from me.
I have had security follow everyone from Anas family plus Kate, Jose and Kate's brother for about a month and a half and nothing has shown up I guess it proves that she really doesn't want to be find I will just have to give up.
It has been two months today since I have seen my beautiful Ana and I have finally found something. It isn't much, but it is something she visited a medical centre. Maybe it was for a relative or someone. God, I feel horrible. I don't even know what has happened in her family. It isn't like I haven't tried. They all shut me off. I'm not even going to let Taylor check this out for me. I have to do this for myself. Otherwise I won't be able to survive this madness.
As I walk into the clinic I see lots of young women, sick women. FUCK what if my beautiful Ana is one of those sick women?
I go to the reception desk and ask for Anastasia Steele; because there is no way she would come here with my last name. Not unless she wanted the media to follow her here. Just with my luck the receptionist confirms that there is in fact an Anastasia Steele here and is having her chemo right now. For god's sake, the receptionist shouldn't just give information out like that so easy, but I guess she is too busy trying to eye fuck me.
I walk to the chemo room and look through the beds for my Ana. All I see is weak frail women being treated. I feel so helpless. I'm about to turn out and walk out the door, but then I hear her sweet loving voice talking to a nurse about her treatment. Oh God, HER TREATMENT. This was all going on and I wasn't aware of it. Oh my Ana.