"We're here" Harvey said, turning off the car engine and grabbing the whiskey bottle and shots they bought from an alcohol store on their way. The weather was cold, the streets dimly lit. Harvey wrapped his arm around Donna's waist, as they walked into the cemetery. She stopped on the entrance, cutting a flower from a nearby bush. Donna could feel Harvey's emotions increase as they stepped closer to Gordon's grave. She wasn't sure she could hold her own tears. They stopped when they recognized the rock that said: "Gordon Specter- loving and devoted father and husband".
Harvey took a deep breath, barely whispering: "Hi Dad". He put the bottle of whiskey on the grave, with the shot glasses next to them. Donna bent, leaving the flower next to them. A moment of silence passed, Donna closely standing by him. She then saw him shake his head from left to right, and swore she could see a tear falling down his cheek. "Harvey" she breathed, trying to comfort him. "I wish I told him, you know? I wish I told him I loved him" he said, his words barely audible, his voice shaking as tears fell down his face. "He knew" she said, her hand on his shoulder, trying to make him face her. "I still wish I told him" he repeated, avoiding her gaze. Her hands reached for his face, her thumbs wiping away his tears.
"Do you know how I know he knows?" she asked, as he waited for her to explain. "Because I told him. Every time he called" she said, her voice shaking as well. It broke her heart to see Harvey so vulnerable and sad. "You know a couple of weeks before he passed-" he started choking, "I was talking to him on the phone, and he told me he's inviting us to spend New Year's with him. You, me, Marcus. We never had the chance…" he said, his voice disappearing. "Yes, he told me too" she whispered back, biting her lower lip.
Another silence fell, as Harvey tried to regulate his breath, wiping his tears and turning to face the grave again. Donna held his hand, standing next to him. He looked so pensive, and she wished she could help him somehow. "And he told me that time: maybe I can make you drunk enough to tell her, before it's too late. And when I asked what he meant, he just said: I'll see you soon Harvey" he explained. Donna's heart shrunk. They both knew Gordon was talking about her.
"He's right, you know? I should-" he said, stopping in the middle of the sentence. "If anything were to happen to me Donna, or to you, I would want you to know" he said, turning around to face her. "Harvey" she whispered, not sure if she could take whatever he had to say. "You don't have to say anything" she said. "Donna please. I don't know how to say it, so I'm just gonna come out and say it" he said, the same words from all those years ago echoing in her mind. "I love you Donna. I don't know what it means, where that leaves us, or where we go from here, but I love you" he repeated, his voice a bit louder the second time around. Donna's eyes immediately filled with tears, her mouth trembling. She had waited so long for him to say these words that she stopped believing he ever would. "I finished that sentence the wrong way the other time, I'm not doing the same mistake again" he continued, his hands holding her face. "Okay?" he asked. "Okay" she was finally able to say, a smile forming on Harvey's lips.
"Okay" he repeated, kissing her forehead, before he turned again towards the grave, as her head rested on his shoulder, their fingers intertwined. He then poured three shots of whiskey, leaving one on the grave. "I wish you were here to witness this. Happy new year Dad" he said, raising the shot in the air before turning to Donna, their shots clicking. "Happy new year Donna" he said to her, their eyes locked. "Happy new year Harvey" she repeated.
You've been on my mind
I grow fonder every day,
Lose myself in time
Just thinking of your face
God only knows
Why it's taken me so long
To let my doubts go
You're the only one that I wanted
I don't know why I'm scared
Cos I've been here before
With every feeling, every word
I've imagined it all
You'll never know, if you never try
To forgive your past, and simply be mine
I dare you to let me be, your
Your one and only
I promise I'm worthy
To hold in your arms
So come on
And give me the chance
To prove I am the one who can
Walk that mile
Until the end starts
One and Only- Adele
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