Hopes and Dreams
by: Liv-x-Case-Benson & dcmaters
Ch. 4: Anniversary
Catherine was woken early by a tugging at the covers. "Hey," she whispered, reaching for Ashlynn.
"Hi Mama."
Catherine pulled her into the bed, covering her over before cuddling her close. "How are you this morning?"
"Good."
Catherine smiled, her free had moving to her stomach as she felt a movement at the same time it gave a rumble.
Sara rolled over. "Hi princess. You're up early."
"Mama said I could cuddle."
The brunette smiled. "That's nice, considering you know not to come in early unless you feel sick. You know how late we work," she said, getting up and going into the bathroom.
Catherine pulled Ashlynn closer, stroking her hair. "Love you."
"Love you too."
"You'll always be my princess..." she whispered.
Sara undressed, stepping into the shower, letting the hot water take away the soreness in her muscles.
Catherine and Ashlynn fell back to sleep, curled up tightly together as Lindsay woke slowly in her bedroom.
Sara walked out, dressed and saw Lindsay's door open. She stood in the frame. "Morning."
"Hey Mom," she smiled, the first time she'd referred to the brunette as anything other than her name.
"Hi. How are you?"
"I'm good," she smiled, handing Sara a box, "Happy Anniversary."
Sara smiled, sitting on the bed. "Thank you, but you didn't have to get me anything."
"I wanted to. It's from Ashlynn too."
Sara opened the box.
It contained a silver engraved locket, a picture of Lindsay and Ashlynn inside. The engraving on the back read 'We love you, Mom xx'.
Sara smiled, hugging her. "Thank you."
"You're welcome. Is it ok to keep calling you Mom?"
"Yes, absolutely."
Lindsay smiled. "I mean, I'll always love my Dad, but you've been here for me so many times and I love you the same as I love my parents. It feels right to call you Mom."
"Awww!"
Lindsay blushed a little. "Is Mom awake?"
"I think she's still asleep with Ashlynn."
Lindsay nodded. "Shall we make breakfast?"
"Sure, what should we make?"
"Pancakes?"
"Sounds good," Sara said, walking out to the kitchen.
Lindsay smiled, helping Sara with breakfast as a tired looking Catherine emerged with Ashlynn in her arms. She moved to kiss her wife. "Happy Anniversary."
Sara smiled widely. "Happy Anniversary."
Catherine looked over her shoulder. "They look good."
Sara flipped a couple.
Catherine placed Ashlynn in her highchair, then wrapped her arms around her wife's waist.
Sara smirked, flipping the others. "How many do you want?"
"How many can I eat from your body?" she whispered in her ear.
Sara smirked. "Children present, remember? But I like the thought."
"Then two please," the redhead smiled, placing a gentle kiss against Sara's neck.
Sara smiled, placing two on a plate, pouring more batter.
Catherine smiled adding maple syrup before sitting down to eat.
Sara quickly made five more, two on each plate and one on Ashlynn's tray, sitting beside Catherine.
Catherine smiled, resting her hand on Sara's leg once she'd finished, resisting the urge to brush her stomach with she felt the baby moving.
Sara smiled at her. "Something wrong?"
"No, why?"
"Just wondering."
Catherine smiled, kissing her cheek. "Just going to the bathroom," she said, excusing herself. Once she'd washed her hands, she touched her stomach with a smile. "Good morning. You need to behave until I tell Mama," she whispered, smiling when she felt another kick before walking back out. She leant against the door, smiling as she watched Ashlynn wipe syrup on Sara's cheek, giggling.
Sara smiled, wiping her cheek with a paper towel. "Thank you."
"You are so cheeky this morning," Catherine commented, moving to pack Ashlynn's bag.
Sara smiled.
Catherine caught Sara's arm. "Once we drop them off, can we do presents? I can't wait much longer."
Sara smiled, wiping Ashlynn's face and sitting her on the floor, pulling her close. "Are you kidding?" she whispered. "You know how long it's been since we've been alone in this house?"
"Too long," Catherine smiled.
Sara kissed her cheek.
"You want me to get her dressed?"
"Please."
"Come on princess," Catherine smiled, carrying Ashlynn through to her room.
Sara cleared the table, setting the dishes to soak.
It was another hour before they finally walked back into their house alone, Catherine smirking at Sara.
Sara smiled, opening the door and walking in.
"God, it seems so quiet."
"Too quiet," Sara said, going over to sit on the couch.
Catherine quickly joined her. "So, did you get me anything?"
"Hmmm, let me check," she said, digging through a drawer and pulling out a box.
Catherine smiled, slowly opening the box.
The box contained the diamond that Sara hadn't been able to get when they married. Well, more of a set, with earrings and a necklace. Affording all this on their salaries wasn't easy, but Sara had been tucking money away, just a little from each check.
Catherine was speechless, tears welling. "I... Sara..."
Sara smiled. "Now you don't only have to use your engagement ring. I've been saving up for this since I bought it."
"They're stunning," Catherine managed, hugging her tightly, "Thank you. I love you."
Sara hugged her tightly. "You don't have to thank me. You deserve it. I love you too."
Catherine kissed her deeply.
Sara smiled, holding her gently, moaning softly.
Catherine kissed harder, pulling the brunette closer.
Sara moved to sit in her lap. "Mmm..."
Catherine unbuttoned Sara's shirt, pushing it from her shoulders.
Sara moaned deeply. "Yes..."
Catherine ran her hands over Sara's back, unhooking her bra, discarding it, kissing down her neck.
"Mmm... So good."
The redhead squeezed Sara's breasts. "God, you're beautiful."
"So are you... God..."
"Something you want?" Catherine smirked.
"Everything you can give," Sara said by her ear. "It's been too long."
Catherine nipped Sara's neck. "Should we... move... some place... more comfortable?"
"Please," Sara asked, standing.
Catherine took Sara's hand, leading her through to the bedroom, kissing her gently as she lay Sara back against the bed, undoing her trousers.
Sara smiled. "You're being very...assertive without my asking."
"I could always stop?"
"No! I've missed you."
"I've missed you too," Catherine replied, sliding down to remove Sara's trousers and underwear, kissing along her inner thighs alternately.
"Mmm..."
Catherine smirked, kissing Sara's clit lightly.
"Ohh... yes..."
The older woman sucked the spot gently, moaning against her.
Sara gasped. God, it had been way too long. Her fingers threaded through Catherine's hair.
Catherine gave another moan as she felt Sara's wetness, slowly pushing three fingers deep inside her.
"Oh...God..." she moaned. "Mmm..."
The redhead's fingers moved quickly, harder with each movement as she nipped once more.
"C-Cath..." she moaned. She always did this to "torture" her. Sure, it felt great, but by the end, Sara was always begging to be taken.
"Something you want?" Catherine asked, looking up at the brunette as she gave the nerve bundle a long, hard lick.
Sara nodded. "Please!"
Catherine kissed her way back up Sara's body, pulling one of their larger toys from the drawer, but instead of using the harness, kissed Sara hard as she replaced her fingers with the toy.
Sara moaned deeply, wrapping her legs around her, hips already bucking.
Catherine went harder, increasing speed as she felt Sara's hips moving against her, moaning.
"Mmm...yes! Harder baby!"
"Like this?" Catherine asked, going harder as she nipped Sara's collarbone.
"Ohh, yes! Yes, come on, more!"
Catherine smirked as she increased speed, thrusting the toy harder inside her wife. "God you're so wet..." she moaned by Sara's ear.
"I-I sh-should be... Oh God! Don't stop now!" she moaned, her hips bucking harder. "So good..."
The older woman complied as she continued at the same pace. "I want to hear you scream..."
Sara moaned. "Th-then do it right... I-I'll move, b-but you've got to use both!"
"That depends what you mean by both," Catherine smirked, pressing a button causing the vibration to turn on.
"Oh... Yes! Sooo much! Fuck me!"
Catherine turned it up another notch as she moved the toy harder, sucking Sara's left nipple.
Sara moaned louder, wrapping her legs tightly around her wife. "Yes... I-I need you here!"
Catherine smirked, grinding her hips against the toy, bucking a little when she felt the vibrations against her clit.
"Ohhh... It feels so good. You're amazing!"
"Oh, Sara!" Catherine moaned, bucking harder, nails raking down Sara's sides.
Sara moaned, bucking into her. "Come with me!"
Catherine gave a loud moan, kissing Sara passionately. She quickly pulled away, her body shaking as she came hard. "YES! S-SARAAAAA!"
"CAAAAATH! OH GOD!" Sara screamed, coming hard with her.
Catherine reached down to turn off the vibrator, resting against Sara as she attempted to catch her breath.
Sara pulled it out, setting it on the nightstand and hugging her close. "I-I m-meant the h-harness, but th-that works too."
"I know, b-but you were s-so close already..."
The brunette smiled, kissing her. "Can there be another or are you too tired?"
"I need a break, if that's ok?"
"That's fine. You could give me my present."
"Technically. it's not something I can give you right this second..."
Sara pouted. "Awww!"
"But I do have a question..."
"Yes?"
"I... If you had a choice, what would you prefer? A girl, or a boy?" she asked, looking deeply into Sara's eyes.
Sara bit her lip. "Well, we already have two little girls so..."
"A boy then?" Catherine asked, placing Sara's hand against her stomach where she could feel the baby gently moving.
"Well, yeah, but I'd be happy with ei- Oh my god! Really?" Sara asked, sitting up and holding her close.
"Yes, really," Catherine grinned. "Doc Robbins took a blood sample last night and had it checked five times."
Sara smiled widely. "I love you so much!"
Catherine kissed her deeply. "I love you too."
"Mmm, we need a doctor appointment then..."
"We do," Catherine smiled. "He said my levels are around 18 weeks."
"So four and a half? But you're not showing and it's moving..."
"I know, and then I felt it move yesterday. I knew it couldn't be anything else."
"And I believe I am totally entitled to say: I told you so."
"You are, and I do not mind one bit," Catherine smiled, pulling the brunette closer.
Sara smiled, hugging her tightly. "Do you want to just cuddle and be careful."
"Would you mind?"
"Not at all," Sara said, lying down.
Catherine smiled, moving into Sara's arms, holding her close. "I'm still a little shocked..."
Sara nodded. "Me too..."
"How quickly do you think we can get a consultation?"
"We can call tomorrow. I have no clue."
Sara sighed. "I just hope the young one won't throw a fit."
"We should get the scan done first."
"I agree. But it's still going to be hectic."
"I don't care. I'm going to enjoy every second of this."
"Me too."
Catherine smiled, kissing Sara gently.
"Mmm..."
"I could kiss you all day long."
Sara smirked, kissing her neck and licking the spot.
Catherine whimpered weakly, her breath catching.
"Mmm." Sara's one hand trailed Catherine, rubbing her clit as she kept up the action.
"Ohh..." Catherine moaned softly, closing her eyes.
"Shh, I'll be gentle," Sara whispered, sliding two fingers inside.
"Mmm, Sara..."
"Yeah?" she asked, moving slowly.
"That feels amazing," Catherine moaned.
"Pace ok?"
"Perfect," she nodded.
Sara increased her speed a tiny bit.
"Oh, yes... More," Catherine moaned seconds later.
Sara moved up, rubbing her clit.
Catherine moved against her slowly, giving a loud moan.
Sara smirked. "Yes, that's it. Go slow if you want."
"Mmm, I love you..."
"I love you too."
"Please," she moaned, moving a little quicker.
Sara slipped three fingers in, curling them.
"Yes!" Catherine cried, her breath beginning to quicken.
Sara's fingers went faster.
"Kiss me..."
Sara smirked, giving her a hard, slow kiss.
Catherine moaned, returning to kiss, her body tensing as it began to shake. She held out for a few minutes before finally giving in, screaming into Sara's mouth as she came hard, her body arching from the bed.
Sara pulled her hand away, catching her. "Easy, easy..."
Catherine rested against the brunette, her breathing finally beginning to slow as a tear rolled down her cheek.
Sara kissed it away. "Are you ok?"
"I am a lot more than ok."
"I love you..."
"I love you too, so much!"
Sara held her gently, covering them up.
Catherine stayed close, curling into Sara's side, a hand resting on her stomach. "Hey..."
"Hmm?"
"Do you think the baby is ok because I'm not showing?"
Sara sighed. "I think so. Last time you didn't show until around the middle of your fifth month, remember?"
"But at least we knew there was a baby in there."
"Yes, but still, you're a month away from then. And you've felt ok, taken prenatals, haven't had a drink. It's going to be ok."
"Sorry, I just want everything to go smoothly."
Sara nodded, holding them close. "I do too, but worrying will only hurt you."
Catherine kissed Sara's shoulder. "That was amazing, by the way."
"What part?"
"The slow and gentle part. I'd forgotten how wonderful it felt."
Sara smiled. "Sorry I'm usually in such a rush."
Catherine shook her head. "No, I love it rough and fast too, I just.. that was perfect given the circumstances."
"I know, but feel free to tell me to slow down if you want."
Catherine smiled, kissing Sara's softly, moving the brunette's hand to her stomach when she felt movement.
"Hi..."
"We should go for dinner somewhere," Catherine said as the baby gave another soft kick.
"Oh, you like that idea, huh? Mommy gets fed and you get fed," Sara said.
Catherine smiled. "We were playing a game at work last night weren't we, huh?"
"What kind of game?"
"Hide and seek. Every time I thought I felt movement I'd stop what I was doing and the movement would stop."
"Aww!"
"Nick kept asking if I was feeling ok," Catherine said with a small laugh.
"I'm sure he was just worried."
Catherine sighed. "Grissom's not going to be happy."
"Why?"
"I committed to training an intern in six months..."
"Oh...wow...you may have trouble with that."
"Yeah. I'll talk to him about it next shift. Maybe he'll ask Nick and I can train the next one."
"There's not really anything you can do about the circumstances."
"I know. I can't believe I'm nearly half way already."
Sara smiled, kissing her.
Catherine moaned softly, returning the kiss.
Sara caressed her cheek.
Catherine pulled Sara closer, deepening their kiss.
Sara wrapped her arms around her.
"I love you," Catherine murmured, her hand lightly brushing Sara's lower back.
"I love you too."
Catherine hand slipped between them, a finger softly stroking Sara's clit.
"Oh, mmm..."
Catherine kissed her slowly, taking her time as she teased her wife.
Sara moaned softly, holding her close.
Catherine sped her fingers up a little, occasionally dipping them inside the brunette. God, she was wet.
"Mmm, yes... don't stop..."
Catherine smirked, continuing as she licked a line down the younger woman's neck, blowing gently over it.
Sara moaned, automatically widening her legs.
Catherine lips move to kiss Sara's thighs alternately, her fingers moving quicker.
"Mmm..."
Catherine kissed her way back up to Sara's neck, nipping gently as she added a fourth finger, going harder.
Sara wrapped her legs around her wife, moaning loudly.
"God, you're so wet..." Catherine moaned by her ear, curling her fingers.
Sara wrapped her arm around her, her hips bucking.
The older woman smirked, increasing speed going as hard as she could.
Sara kissed her hard, coming, screaming for her.
"Mmm..." Catherine moaned against her wife's lips.
Sara leaned against her, catching her breath.
"I love you..."
"I love you too...both of you."
Catherine smiled, kissing Sara's cheek. "I can't wait until our scan."
"I know, me either."
Catherine smiled as her stomach rumbled.
"Hungry?"
"Apparently so."
"We could order something."
"Sure. What do you fancy?"
"Pizza?"
"Sure, but nothing spicy."
"We'll halve it. What do you want?"
"Chicken, pineapple and sweetcorn, please."
"Uh...ok."
"What?"
"Sweetcorn on a pizza?"
"It's what baby wants."
Sara smiled, kissing her stomach. "In that case, I will try."
Catherine smiled. "What are you having on your half?"
"Pepperoni, sausage and canadian bacon."
"Well, you can keep that to yourself."
"Alright," Sara said, ordering.
Catherine pulled a blanket tightly around herself, stroking her stomach.
Sara smiled. "Aww. Need something?"
"A cuddle?"
Sara nodded, cuddling them close, kissing her softly.
Catherine returned the kiss with a smile.
Sara snuggled in close.
"How long?"
"...Half hour."
"I still can't believe I didn't know. No morning sickness or anything."
"Some people aren't sick."
"I know, but I didn't feel anything."
"Like?"
"Cramps, back pain, sore boobs."
Sara nodded. "I would guess the last will still come though, just maybe later."
"I'm so sorry for how I acted. Pushing you away. Being unhappy around the kids."
The brunette shook her head. "Neither one of us really knew. For all we knew, it didn't work. Though I have a question, wait...how far are you again?"
"Around eighteen weeks."
"I wonder if things are going to develop normally? Not that they won't. Look at how many women don't even realize it until they show or just think they've gained weight so they starve themselves to take it off."
Catherine nodded. "But you think there's a problem?"
"Not necessarily. Don't worry. Everyone's different. Every pregnancy can be different. And, you never know, maybe with the stress you were under from thinking it didn't work, you could've mistaken a few symptoms, right?"
"Like constantly picking sweetcorn in most of my meals?"
"Maybe..."
"And being in a foul mood for so long..."
"Cue mood swings."
Catherine smiled, kissing her deeply. "We love you."
"I love you too."
"Was that a knock at the door?"
Sara quickly got up, tying a robe around herself and paid for the pizza, thanking him before walking back. "Where?"
"Table?" Catherine asked, tying the blanket around herself.
The brunette walked over to the table, setting it down.
Catherine smiled, sitting seconds later putting a plate in front of both of them.
Sara pulled a piece, setting it on her plate.
"Promise me something?"
"What?"
"You won't take me away again when this baby's due? As much of a good intention it was."
Sara smiled. "I promise, but, hey, until then, it did relax you."
"Yes, it did," Catherine smiled, beginning to eat.
Sara nodded, taking a bite.
"This is so good."
"Yes it is," she said, taking a bite.
When she was finished, Catherine gave a yawn.
Sara finished her second piece, hugging her gently. "Now what?"
"Movie?"
"Sure."
Catherine smiled, going to put one on, but stopped, quickly sitting on the couch.
"Something wrong?" Sara asked, sitting beside her.
"I think I just got up a bit too quick."
"Are you ok?"
"Lightheaded. I think it's called pregnancy," she smiled.
"Need a little water?"
"No, we're good," Catherine replied, kissing Sara gently, "You're so wonderful to me."
Sara smiled, hugging her gently.
"You choose something, then come snuggle under here," she smiled, loosening the blanket around herself.
Sara picked a random movie, popping it on the DVD player, then sat beside her.
Catherine pulled the blanket around her wife, putting her arms around her.
Sara smiled, untying her robe and pulling it down around her waist.
"Mmm," Catherine smirked.
Sara snuggled her close.
"I love it when you're this close."
"Me too."
"I still can't believe we have the house to ourselves."
"I know. It's kind of crazy."
"Crazy, but strangely nice."
Sara nodded, "Yeah."
Catherine smiled, relaxing as the movie started. "Ooh, I like this one."
"Really? I just picked a random one."
"Yes," Catherine replied, kissing Sara's forehead, a hand on her stomach.
Sara smiled, resting a hand on hers.
Catherine was asleep half way through, snoring softly by Sara's ear.
Sara smiled, pulling Catherine into her arms and turning the sound down.
Catherine mumbled something as she readjusted.
Sara kissed her cheek.
"I..."
"Huh?"
"Love you..." she sighed, giving another snore.
"Love you too."
Catherine slept through the rest of the film and a few hours afterward before finally stirring.
Sara smiled, kissing her cheek. "Hi..."
"Hi," she smiled, "Sorry. Have I been asleep long?"
"Half the movie, plus a few hours..."
"Sorry, sweetheart. I was just so tired."
"It's ok."
"How about I make it up to you?"
"How?"
Catherine shifted, then stood slowly. "Bedroom, lay on your front on the bed. I'll be two minutes."
Sara nodded, pulling the robe around herself again and walking back, lying down after shedding the robe.
Catherine walked into the room a short while later, straddling her hips. Slowly, she leant down, kissing the back of Sara's neck as her hands gently rubbed massage oil into the brunette's shoulders.
Sara moaned, laying her head to one side.
Catherine smiled sitting back up to massage her wife's neck and shoulders deeply.
"Mmm...so good..."
"The oil smell alright?" Catherine asked, moving to work the middle of Sara's back.
"Yeah."
Catherine smiled, massaging deeper when she reached her lower back and hips.
"Mmm..."
Catherine ran her thumbs hard up and down the sides of Sara's spine.
Sara sighed.
"Relaxed?"
"Mhm..."
Catherine moved off her to lay beside the brunette, kissing her softly. "You're so beautiful," she whispered.
"Thank you," she said, snuggling close.
Catherine smiled, holding her close as the pair fell asleep.
Sara covered them both up a few hours later.
It was nearly five when Catherine woke, slipping from Sara's embrace, running to the bathroom.
Sara followed, rubbing her back. "It's ok."
"I thought I'd missed this," she managed before being sick again.
Sara got her a glass of water, setting it beside her. "I know."
Catherine took small sips as she moved back from the toilet bowl. "Are you working later?" she asked with a shaky breath.
"Yes. Why?"
"Think you can convince Grissom to pair us?"
"I can try. Sure you want to go?"
"Yes, I'll be fine."
"I don't have to go in until seven."
"Toast and tea?"
Sara smiled. "Absolutely."
"I'll be out in a minute."
The brunette moved out to the kitchen.
Catherine took a few minutes before she stood, sitting on the edge of the bed, rubbing her stomach. "I know you're there now, there's no need to remind me," she whispered, then pulled on a robe, walking out into the kitchen.
Sara already had a plate of dry toast and tea on the table for her as she made herself some pasta.
"Thank you," she smiled, eating slowly.
"You're welcome," she said, pouring some sauce over her plate of pasta, turning off the stove and sitting down.
"It's getting dark already."
"Yes it is," Sara said.
Catherine went to speak again as Sara's phone rang.
"Sidle," she answered.
"It's Grissom. Can you and Catherine come in early? We have a triple homicide."
"Sure, if you pair us up."
"Just this once. But it's a whole team case."
"We know. We'll work with the team. When haven't we?" Sara sighed.
"Sorry. It's just high profile. I'll fill you in when you get here and text you this address."
"Ok, we'll be in soon," Sara said, hanging up. "We need to be in early."
"How early?"
"ASAP."
Catherine sighed, downing her tea. "I'll get dressed."
Sara followed her. "For some reason, he didn't seem happy about pairing us."
Catherine frowned. "Did he say why?"
"High profile case."
"But we've dealt with plenty of those before," she replied, pulling on her jeans.
Sara nodded, pulling on some clothes.
Catherine quickly buttoned a blouse, tucking it into her jeans, figuring she'd better not look scruffy before brushing her hair. "I'm good to go."
Sara pulled on a t-shirt and jeans, brushing her hair before pulling her jacket on.
Catherine took Sara's hand as they walked to the car, pulling on her jacket, then handed Sara the keys.
Sara smiled, get in the driver's seat.
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