Clary POV

Jace and I walk into class just as the bell rung. A few moments late the teacher followed.

"Hello class, today we will be talking about algebra." Said .

"Oh perfect." Mumbled Jace who was sitting beside me on my left.

"I hate algebra." I said, but sadly I said it too loud.

"Miss Fray, Have something you would like to say to the class?"

"Uh, no sir."

"Are you sure? You seem pretty occupied back there, nothing you care to share?"

"No sir, sorry sir."

"Umm, very well then, pay attention. You too Mister Herondale." Jace nodded his head towards the teacher in response. We stayed silent for a while, but once the teacher got back into the lesson we began to talk again. In till we were interrupted by .

"Miss Fray, since you won't pay attention to my class I must assume that you already know this correct?" He asked me. I stayed silent.

"Sixteen." Said Jace beside me. I quickly look at him.

"What?"

"Sixteen." He said again.

"Miss Fray, if you already know this then can you tell me the answer as to what X is?" I panicked thinking fast I just said the number that Jace was mumbling this hole time.

"Sixteen." He looked taken back.

"Y-y-why yes Miss Fray. But I would still like you to pay attention in my class."

"Yes sir." I turned to face Jace and mouthed the words 'thank you.' He mouthed back the words 'no problem,' back and we were quite again.

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When lunch rolled around Jace and I made our way to our usual table. "Hey guys." I said.

"Clary!" Yelped Izzy. "Are you and my brother really dating, Jon said that you too are dating!"

"Well-"

"Yes." Said Jace cutting me off. I glared at him. He just gave me a smirk and threw his arm around me bringing me closer towards him.

"Oh my god! That's Great!" Said Izzy. "Eeekkk, I knew it I told Alec, I knew it!" Hearing his name Alec spoke up.

"Izzy shut up, you're breaking everyone's ear drums."

"Whatever, Clary, do you want to come over tonight, have a girls night maybe?"

"Girls night?" I asked her wondering what that meant. I never really had 'girls nights' with anyone before.

"Yeah a girls night, you know when you talk about boys, eat junk, watch movies, talk about your childhood and have a sleepover." Oh god, I thought of the night before, waking up screaming. The last thing I need is to have a sleep over with Izzy and wake up screaming.

"Izzy, that sound like a lot of fun, but I can't have a sleepover, I'm sorry." I could feel my anxiety getting worse by the second. Jace knew what I was thinking and pulled me closer to him and whispered in my ear.

"You want to go out and get some fresh air with me?" I nodded. Jace could see it was hard for me to speak, with all the images running around in my head.

"Izzy, Clary and I are going to get some fresh air." I stood up with Jace and clutched with arm and hand.

"Hey Jace, you and my sister better not be going out there to make out." Said Jon. I turned around to face him and I saw the color in his face disappear.

"Clary, I'll come Clary you're fine, okay?" Jon held me other hand and we walked out of the school and sat by the wall of the side of it. "Clary, what triggered it?"

"Th-the-um the childhood thing, I-I didn't want to wake up screaming again and then I remembered and-"

"Clary," Said Jace. "You're safe, you're safe." He repeated as I put my head on his shoulder.

"Wait Clary, does Jace know?" Asked Jon. I shook my head 'no.'

"Okay."

"What happened?" Asked Jace. I let out a little noise.

"Jace, that's Clarys place to tell, it's just about her past. That's all you need to know for now."

"Okay, I understand." He went back to running his fingers through my hair. "Clary, you don't have to tell me, you never have to tell me if you don't want to, okay?"

"Th-thanks Jace, thanks J-Jon."

"Clary, Class is about to start, do want me to go in and tell Mrs. Rose that you left school because of anxiety. Jace can bring you home if you want." Said Jon. "Right Jace."

"Yes don't worry I'll make sure she's okay."

"Thanks Jon." I said. We all stood up with me leaning onto Jace, with his arm around my back supporting my weight.

"I'll come straight home to check on you Clare. Jace, I'll tell Mrs. Rose that you brought her home. I already have two detentions for being late so it's better if you take her just in case."

"Yes, don't worry."

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I got to my house half asleep in the car. Whenever I have a panic attack I tend to get sleepy afterwards.

"Clary." Said Jace as he got out his side door and walked over to mine. "Are you awake?" I nodded my head and tried to say 'yes' but it just came out as a mumble. I heard Jace chuckle.

"Here, up you go." He said as he picked me up into his arms.

"Jace." I mumbled.

"Ssshhh Clary, sleep." He said, and I did.

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Jace POV

I walked into the house and sat Clary down on the black leather couch and ran my hand though red hair air once through. "There you go." I whispered. I had to say I really liked Clary, more than I did any other girl that I slept with or was around. I liked Clary in a different way. I found the need to take care of her, protect her, make her laugh so I could she her smile. I loved her. Not that I would ever say that aloud. But I did. Even with her panic attacks and bad past I loved her. I enjoyed being her fake boyfriend. I found that if I did ask her out, and she did say yes, that it would make it easier to tell Jon, he would see that I already was good to her, and that I will continue to protect her, love her, and be with her. It also gave me a reason to spend so much time with Clary. At first it was just a stupid prank, but then I actually grew feeling for Clary.

My thoughts where interrupted by Clary waking up, I checked the clock that hung above me on the wall. 1:40, it had been an hour since she fell asleep. I went on over to her and sat beside her on the edge of the couch. "Hey sleeping beauty. How do you feel?" She sat up looking slightly confused.

"Uh, I'm better." She smiled at me. "What time is it?"

"1:40."

"Okay, listen Jace, I'm sorry, I just had a bad past, I freak out when it comes up."

"It's fine Clary, I know how you feel. My past wasn't the best either." She stayed silent. I felt like I needed to tell her, not just to get it off my chest and tell someone, I wanted her to know that she could trust me. "When I was a kid, my parents died. They were coming to pick me up from day care, they told me over the phone that they had a surprise for me. On the way to the day care they got into a car crash that killed them both instantly. Later on I found out from my Aunt that the surprise was that my mom was pregnant. I-I was going to have a little sibling." I could feel my throat getting tighter and tighter, so I stopped.

"Jace, I'm so sorry." Though her words said it, her eyes didn't look down on my like I was a lost puppy, they looked at me the same as they always did. I was thankful to her for it."

"It's okay; it's not your fault."

"Jace,"

"Yes."

"Do you want to hear about my past?" Asked Clary.

"Not if you're not okay with telling me." She was silent for a moment.

"When I was little…" Began Clary.

Oh, what happened to Clary in the past? Why does she get panic attacks? I'll update once I have the next chapter ready or enough reviews. Whatever comes first. I hope you enjoyed. Tell me what you want to happen in the story or your ideas on it.