Sorry it has been such a long time since last chapter. I'm in the middle of all my exams and cosplay preparations and have been really stressed out. I have finally gotten some time and have written this chapter and hopefully I will soon get the last one up ^^
"I have just been scared. I didn't want to have feelings for you, I wasn't used to it and didn't know how to act. But my head is clearer now, I have finally realizd my own feelings and I know what I'm feeling"
Chapter 17
"I do believe you have changed" Naruto said slowly and didn't miss the relieved look on Sasuke's face."But that doesn't mean we should date. You do know you can also have friendly feelings for others, they don't have to be romantically?". Naruto knew he was slowly beginning to see Sasuke differently and would probably not be able to go back to before, but he wanted to keep Sasuke as a friend. He was sure that Sasuke would just be scared away if they began dating, and his feelings wasn't like that at all.
"But they are" Naruto sighed. He felt like he was trying to explain something to a stubborn child.
"I've dreamt about you.." Sasuke mumbled softly, not looking up at him."I have wanted to kiss you for so long, wanted to touch you, to keep you for myself. Didn't you just tell me that others couldn't tell me what I was feeling?" Naruto blushed and tried to forget about the kiss they shared at the hospital. It had been nice and maybe he actually wanted to do it again.
"I know you might find it hard to believe me, but I do like you. You know I don't sugar-coat or suck up to anyone. If I don't really mean something I won't bother to pretend I like it" Naruto had to agree. He had never seen Sasuke do anything he didn't really mean. Sasuke was always brutally honest and that was one of the reason why people thought he was so cold. If he didn't like a person or thought their idea was stupid, he would immediately let them know. He also didn't hang around people he didn't want to be with unless he was ordered too. He knew Sasuke had changed. His whole demeanor was different. He had heard Sasuke had cried over him, that he had stayed beside him while he was hospitalized. Sasuke was acting shy before and now he sometimes caught him sending him worried looks... so maybe Sasuke was right.
Maybe Sasuke really was beginning to love him, and not just like a brother or a friend. Maybe he loved him like a lover would. That just didn't mean he would for long. Sasuke could just love him now and leave him later on, when Sasuke had gotten him head over heals for him. Then he would have had a taste of love and he would feel even more alone. Naruto had no idea how long Sasuke would continue loving him, since he had never seen Sasuke obviously love something. Sasuke could feel Naruto was slowly being convinced and just needed a few more good arguments.
"Humans are ever shifting, always changing. One day they like something, the next day they hate it. Parents throw out the child they loved just because they made choices they didn't agree with. People dies or abandon their lovers, friendship crumbles because of disagreements or rivalry" Sasuke looked up at Naruto and took a deep breath. Naruto didn't really have any idea where this was going but it didn't sound good.
"You can never really know, never really trust that the person who said would always be by your side, actually will" Sasuke took Naruto's hand. "You just have to trust it. You have to trust that the bond between you is special and will be strong enough" Sasuke smiled up at him and gave his hand a soft squeeze. "So can't you try that too, can't you try to trust me this one time and see where this will take us?"
Tears was beginning to well up in Naruto's eyes at the end. Somehow he couldn't deny him anything after this, the way Sasuke looked at him, the way he spoke and what he told him. He felt so loved and warm and he couldn't deny that Sasuke was right. It wasn't like he could really know if Sasuke would leave him or not and he wanted to try. He didn't want to regret this later on, he wanted to see where this would take them and hopefully they would both be very happy with that decision.
"I..." Naruto bit into his lower lip to try not to cry. Sasuke moved his thumb under Naruto's eyes to catch the few tears and cupped his cheeks. Sasuke gave him a soft smile and leaned in to kiss his forehead.
"I will probably go back to being stuck-up, I will probably keep annoying you, hissing at you, calling you dumb and try to get you to behave" Naruto's lips twitched, somehow all these things seemed different now, like this was just their way of interacting with each other. "We won't be that romantic couple who is acting all lovey-dovey. We're the couple that bickers over everything and competes against each other, but it's not in a mean way, that's just how our personalities match. But I know there will also be sweet moments. We will hold hands, we will kiss each other goodbye at the door and we will sleep wrapped in each others embraces. I just want you to know I won't change and I don't want you to do so as well. We will never be like all the other couples, but I like it like this and I will never change this weird relationship we have but deepen it instead" Sasuke let go of him and got up from the couch. "I will go now and let all this sink in and hopefully you will have a responds tomorrow"
Naruto just starred at him dumbfounded.
So what do you guys think so far? It's almost the end now, which seems so weird but it can't go on forever...
