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Chapter 4

(These are a few posts from Christine's blog. They span over several months after Raoul discovers her blog.)

"Tonight was wonderful! Raoul was a perfect gentleman to me J Oh, I can't wait until he takes me out again! I really hate saying goodnight to him. I miss too much and too often for my own good.

But, I must say, I wish he'd be more romantic with me. He suddenly seems very careful about doing anything besides holding my hand. I appreciate his efforts to be so gentlemanly, but what is a relationship without romance? I confess that I fantasize about him stealing me away for some private moments of kissing… I'm sure all of you are rolling your eyes right now, but I'm trying to treat this blog like a private diary, so deal with it or un-follow ;)

I guess I'll stop drooling over him now. I can't wait to tell you all about our next date, and always let me hear about yours. I love girl talk, haha!

Ugh I'm so lame -_-

Bye-bye."

"Oh goodness.

Raoul…

It's like he reads my mind sometimes.

He was so romantic tonight… We were often totally alone, and he often used those moments to his advantage. But sometimes he wouldn't do anything when we were alone besides hold me, and I truly enjoyed those silent little moments more than anything. And sometimes he would do little things that made me blush in public, like whispering things in my ear… I'll spare you the details of what he'd say exactly, but you should know that it wasn't vulgar enough to make me want to slap him, but it was enough to make me inwardly squeal a little.

I've never been loved like this before. I miss him so much… He told me that I'm welcome to call him at any time, and that the dates are only over when I say they are. I would take advantage of that, but I have a child to take care of, so I can never stay out quite late enough to be satisfied. Then again, I enjoy Raoul's company so much that I don't think I'd ever be fully satisfied.

I really hope he takes me out for lunch or something tomorrow. I miss him. I can't wait for the day when I wake up and his face is the first thing I see. Unfortunately, that won't happen for a very long time. While I do love him and want to marry him, I'm not sure if I'd say yes if he proposed to me this very moment. But it would really depend on how I feel in the moment. If I know my answer is yes and I won't hesitate to say it, then I will say it. If there is even an ounce of doubt in my mind, then I will tell him that I'd like to wait. But I do feel like he might be the one I've been wishing and hoping and praying for since I was a little girl.

I could write a book about his topic, but Daniel is crying, and I must go help him.

Goodnight."

"Things are still going nicely with Raoul. He's sexy when I want him to be, but he mixes it well with being a gentleman. That's very hard to do. This is good, but I need him to show me something else…

I need to see if he's a good father.

Raoul and I have had a lot of serious conversations recently. We're really taking our relationship to a very serious level; we're at the point where one of us would have to do something absolutely horrible in order for us to break up. We both are fairly certain that we are meant to be together.

It won't be long before our first annual anniversary comes; in fact, our 10-month anniversary is in just two weeks (coincidentally, on Valentine's Day). I personally think we'll be engaged within the year, but I don't know for sure. Raoul might want to tie the knot sooner than that or even later. But one thing's certain; if we're not engaged by our second annual anniversary, I will probably start dropping hints. But I doubt we'll be waiting that long.

Anyways, I want to make sure he's going to be a great step-father to Daniel before we get engaged. He's done a little babysitting for me, but I've never really seen how he treats Daniel first-hand. Maybe someday Raoul could spend the day with Daniel and me, just so I could see what it'd be like if we all lived together.

Honestly, I don't have any doubts about Raoul's parenting skills. Of course, I'll have to help him learn a few things, but I think he'll be great for Daniel, as well as any children I might have with him in the future.

Oh my gosh I haven't even thought about having kids with Raoul.

…

I must say that I like the thought of little blonde babies crawling around the house. But, I absolutely love the thought of being pregnant again. I remember how wonderful it was when I was expecting Daniel, and I know having a baby with the father around will be 110 times more wonderful.

Oh no, I hope I don't become too in love with that thought. I don't want to become baby-crazy. That could possibly end very badly.

There's so much Raoul and I need to talk about before we get engaged. I don't know how much money he makes, or what his family is like, or whether or not he wants children, or if he wants to move to house eventually. There's so much we have to discuss, but thankfully I know that I can talk to him about anything and everything.

As always, I'd love to elaborate more, but I know you're bored, and I have a toddler to take care of anyways.

Goodbye."