Okay, so I don't know how many people will actually read this, but I feel like I should put this.

The last time I was on, I was a high school student that was trying to figure out what to do after graduation. Now, I'm a college student who is trying to figure out what to do with the rest of her life. After my last chapter, I had stopped writing because I didn't know how to continue the story, and it made me very upset because I was determined to finish. I took my time away, and thought back to why I even decided to write this in the first place, and asked myself if I should even continue. After more than a year I realized that I did have to finish this, not for anyone else, but for myself. I have always started things and never finished them. I'm the "what if" type of person, and I'm determined to change that when it comes to things that are important to me. I love writing and reading, if I didn't than I wouldn't be an English major. I would like to believe that from 2011 to now I have changed not only as a person but also as a writer, and that also encouraged me to finish this story. My thoughts and ideas for this story have changed from when I first began writing it, and I now have a new direction for it. I reread the first four chapters and realized that I have to edit them and change them, but I don't plan to do that until I'm on my summer break.

I don't know how many people will read this story and I don't know how many of those people will like it, but I will finish this story. For those of you that do read, I would be happy to read your comments. I would also appreciate constructive criticism, not hateful comments. I hope that my writing gets better over the course of this experience. I don't want people to believe that I'm doing this as an obligation to prove something, because I'm not. I'm doing this because I love writing, and I don't want to loose something that is important to me.

I don't own Twilight or the names of the characters, and now without further ado…

Chapter 5

The day seemed to be dragging on, and the pain in my head was getting stronger. My body began to go on autopilot because every once in a while when I would regain some form of consciousness, I was in a new room with no recollection on how I arrived there. I was starting to get worried because this had never happened to me before. At some point things around me began to spin around, and I was feeling myself loosing balance. I realized that I was in my algebra class and walked as quickly and calmly as I could to my seat. Soon after sitting down I saw Alex walk into the class and throw a quick glance at me. I smiled a forced smile at him, and I think he noticed because he smiled back but his brow was furrowed as if he was worried. He continued to walk towards his seat, at the other side of the room, and I saw him pull out his cellphone, but not before looking back at me. I turned my head, and tried to concentrate on my breathing to keep my head focused on something other than the pain that was now coursing through my body. I heard Cathy's and Kelly's familiar laugh and hoped that they wouldn't notice the way my knuckles were clutched tightly, or the way my eyes were closed shut with more force than was normal. I opened my eyes for and noticed that my vision was becoming blurry. I unclenched my fists and took a deep breath before looking around the room. I looked to Alex and noticed that he was looking at me with a very concentrated look, but his time he was also accompanied by Cathy and Kelly. I smiled at them and jumped when I felt some ones hand over my shoulder. I looked up and noticed that it had been Steven.

"Bella, are you okay?" Steven asked as he began to take his seat beside me. "You look a bit tense."

Before responding I controlled my breathing and nodded my head to hide the fact that I was having trouble breathing. "Yeah," another nod, "I'm fine. I'm just really tired. I had a nightmare last night and it has me a bit shaken up." What I said wasn't a complete lie. I had had a nightmare, and it had shaken me up, but no more than usual. However I was sure that Steven didn't believe what I had just told him, but he smile and nodded anyways. I saw his eyes look behind me and send a short nod no doubt to one of the three of our friends.

"You know Bella, you can always come to any one of us if there is anything wrong. No matter what it is, we will always be by your side, protecting you and helping you. You don't have to worry about sounding crazy around us, because we would believe you. Always." I smiled and thanked Steven. I wanted to tell him, but I no longer had the strength to speak so I turned and faced the front of the classroom. I think he thought that I was going to spill what I was holding back, but after just staring at the side of my face for the next two minutes he sighed and faced the front of the room was well. Shortly after, our teacher walked into the room and began the lesson. I don't remember anything that was discussed in class, but I was aware that it was time to go to lunch when the bell rang. I waited for the students and teacher to walk out of the room before I could try to get up from my seat.

"Bella, are you coming?" Kelly asked from the doorway. Cathy, Steven, and Alex were standing behind her, all giving me strange looks of pain and worry.

"Yeah, just save me a seat, I'll meet you guys in the cafeteria, I have to go to my locker." I noticed that Alex was about to protest but Cathy held him back and smiled at me.

"Okay, but don't take too long, we have to discuss something very important." Cathy said as she gave me look that I knew meant that I was going to tell them what was going on whether I wanted to or not. I nodded back at her smiled, getting annoyed because it seemed as if that was the only thing I was capable of today. My friends nodded back at me and walked away.

I took a deep breath and began to support myself on my desk to help me stand up. It was painful, but I was able to stand and walk out the room with my book bag hanging on one shoulder. I leaned on the wall next to my algebra class and walked over to my locker that was around the corner. I was able to open my locker the way I had that morning and was just glad that I was still able to stand.

As I was putting my books away and pulling out the books I would use for my next class, a strong pain pricked my heart. It was like nothing I had ever felt every before. I clutched my chest and was prepared to collapse. All the pain that had been around my body was now all in my heart. I wanted to scream and ask for help, but I couldn't. The pain didn't let me breath and I was beginning to get scared. All of a sudden the pain disappeared, and all that was left was a small pressure. There was no more pain or dizziness. I was able to stand up straight and breath with no pain. I burrowed my brow and looked around me making sure no one was looking at me. I was alone in the hallway. After a couple of minutes of confusion, I resumed to my previous task and when I was done I left for the cafeteria. When I rounded the corner I froze at what I saw in front of me.

Edward Cullen had his arms around Emily Henderson's waist and she had her arms around his neck combing her fingers through his hair. Emily's back was resting against the wall and their foreheads were touching. Seeing them like this caused a painful emptiness in my chest. Unlike before, I couldn't breath my way around this pain. I couldn't even move from my position no matter how hard I tried. Edward and Emily had been best friends before they began dating at the end of last year. When I had gone to Cathy and Kelly's house over the summer, Emily was also there most of the time. Edward and her were inseparable throughout the whole summer. I knew for a fact that Emily was one of the kindest girls in the school, and I could see why Edward fell for her. Everyone loved her. She was the smartest girl in the school. She was on a sports team every season. She did a lot of community service both in and out of school. Emily was the role model that everyone wanted as his or her friend, daughter, and student. Edward was just the lucky one that got her as his girlfriend. But that didn't change the fact that I didn't want them together.

I stood there for I don't know how long, without me moving, and without them noticing that I was there. Others looking at them like this would be happy for them, and aw at their closeness, but I had had enough of it. I was finally able to look down and walk forward since there was no way other than this hallway to get to the cafeteria. I continued to look at my feet as I passed them, and began to walk faster with every step I took. When I reached the stairs to the doorway I looked behind me and saw them pull apart from their kiss. They began to smile at each other, and I had to smile at how pathetic I would seem to someone else. I walked through the door, went down the stairs and headed towards the cafeteria.

The cafeteria was filled with students' voices and laughter. I quickly looked at the right end side of the cafeteria and saw my group sitting and enjoying their day. I walked towards them and when they saw me they smiled once they realized that I was better and not acting all weird as I was before.

"Hey Bella! It's great to see that you look much better." Alex yelled from the table even though I still needed to walk through the other half of the cafeteria. I hated having people look at me and so naturally I blushed and looked down wishing I had let my hair down.

"Bella we were really worried about you. You have been acting really strange all day and we just want to make sure that there isn't anything wrong." Kelly asked me once I sat down at the table. Cathy just nodded her head while giving me the looking at me with a worried expression.

I smiled at my friends and said, " I'm fine guys. I just had really bad craps all morning and couldn't go to my locker all day until after algebra. I feel much better now though so there is no need to worry." As soon as I finished everyone's face looked relieved, all but Stevens. He gave me a tight smile and I knew that he again knew that I was lying. I avoided his gaze and it took me to notice that there were two more empty seats placed at our table.

"Who are those?" I asked.

Cathy was quick to answer, "For my brother and his girlfriend." My eyes widened and my pulse quickened at her response. I never told any of my friends about my crush on Edward, so I tried to compose myself quickly before anyone questioned me.

"Oh," was my only response.

I saw Alex looking at me from the corner of his eyes and I looked down at the table.

"Why are they sitting with us now anyway? Don't they have their own table?" Steven asked. I couldn't help but notice a small hostile tone in his voice and Alex nods his head.

"Apparently he wants Cathy and I to get along with her. He said and I quote, 'I want my sisters to get along with the other important girl in my life and see her as a sister.' Well hate to break it to you buddy but something about that girl rubs me the wrong way, and until I don't find out what it is, I don't even want to ask her about her day." I smiled and laughed.

"What's so funny Bella?" Cathy asked.

I shook my head and said, " It's nothing. It's just that, he's your brother, you should be happy if he is happy. So what if she doesn't "rub you the right way." He likes her and you're going to have to accept that. And if she one days breaks his heart into a million pieces than I'm sure you'll be there to help him through it. Isn't that what siblings are for? To love them and help them when they need help?"

"Exactly, because I want to help him, I don't want him to be too close to her. I don't want him to get hurt that's all." I nodded and shrugged not really wanting to continue this conversation.

Have you accepted it yet Bella? I bet you want her to break his heart into a million pieces. I can help you. Then he would be all yours.

"What did you say?" I asked.

"Nothing, we didn't say anything. Why?"

"No, no reason I must have thought I heard something." I frowned.

"Bella are you sure?" Steven leaned over and said in a very calm voice, "You can lie to Cathy and Kelly, and maybe sometimes even Alex, but you can't lie to me. You can tell…"

"I said I'm fine!" I said with unnecessary force, stood from my chair and walked away, but not before I noticed that I made Cathy jump. I felt bad and wanted to sit back down to apologize but at that moment I saw Edward and Emily walk into the cafeteria heading towards our table. I continued to walk and ignored the quick glances the students were throwing my way. I guess I had been louder than I had intended to be.

I can help you get rid of her. I can help you make him love you. Isn't that all you want? I can make sure you get your happily ever after Bella.

I clenched my fist and headed towards the exit. Once outside I headed to my car and turned it on. The inside was cold but I couldn't care to wait for it to heat up. I sped out of the parking lot and headed to my meadow that was a little out of Forks. Before I began to walk into the forest I heard that same voice from the cafeteria.

Don't worry Bella, soon you will get what you want, and I will get what I want.

"And what is it that you want?" I asked. I must be going crazy.

Oh, now I can't say what that is my dear.

"Why do you even want to help me?"

Because my sweet Bell if you have what you want, than what I want will be so much easier to accomplish.

"So, I'm just a pawn." I state.

That's one way of putting it.

"Yeah I'm going crazy," I say as I hear a laugh that chills me to the bone and makes the hairs on the back of my neck stand up.