I'm so sorry that it took longer this time, but I was sick and couldn't write for some days.
Any restraint was gone from him. Ellana had never felt such passion and such a desire in him.
His kiss was more demanding. No sign exists, that he would let go of her, the opposite, he pulled her closer to him, ran his hands over her back.
She had never experienced that he had a physical reaction to her presence, but this time she was so close to him that she could feel his erection. A smile stole on her lips. He felt it and released her lips.
"What's so funny?" he asked, confused.
"I did not expect it to ever experience that you let yourself fall for something completely." She saw his brooding face.
"Oh no, do not start thinking about it! I love you, but to experience you open yourself to me in such a way makes me only love you even more . "
She looked at his face and had to grin and before he could say anything she sealed his lips with her own again.
In fact, he never expected to find someone, who would draw his attention from the fade.
Ellana was not willing to let him go this time. He had watched over her after the explosion.
In fact, she would have died without him.
Over the past weeks, months, he started as her rescuer, became a friend and finally the man she loved.
No mission of the Inquisition she performed without him. Without Solas she still would know so little about the fade, spirits, demons and the culture of her own people. Even as a mage and first of her clan she had learned from him.
A life without him she would not and could not imagine.
It wouldn't matter her what others would think about it, that she as Inquisitor loves an apostate Elf Mage. She knew that there would be enough people in skyhold, that would be happy for them.
As ye all of this was clear she withdraw from him, took his hand and led him to her bed. Shortly before her goal he stopped, doubts sneaked back into him.
She was the first of her clan, trained and educated to be the next keeper, for someone better than him determined. She could never go back to her clan, when they were together.
Especially not when she decided to sleep with him. The Dalish, he knew, had little to no understanding for such compounds. He let out a sigh.
"Solas?" In her eyes uncertainty could be seen.
"Vhenan, we should not go so far." he said, looking at her bed.
"Solas, you talk always of us, but actually you speak only for yourself." Tears sparkling in her eyes.
"Every time you decide to go, why is it just so hard for you to be honest with yourself? Or are you saying you feel nothing for me and don't want me? "
Dismay and guilt, how could he hurt her like that? Alone Ellana could believe that his feelings for were not real.
"I did not meant to hurt you. No matter what happens,I want you to know that what we have is real." He wiped a tear from her face.
"Ellana you know as well as I do that your clan will not accept me. They would cast you and you could never be the keeper. I don't want to take away your future. "
"I choose my future not my clan. I've already decided for you when we were still in Haven, but you need forever to recognize it . "
There it was again, the glow in her eyes when she stood up for what she believed in.
Could you love someone more? He did it. Every day he fell for her again and was surprised by it.
Again he closed her in his arms, kissed her on the forehead. Ellana held her hands against his chest, feeling his heart beat faster because of their proximity.
She pushed him away from her.
"Let us be happy, at least, away from all the burden and fear that surrounds us all here. Please Solas." She whispered.
He could hear the pleading in her voice. She wore so much responsibility, had to watch over the lives of so many and herself came always too short. If he could, he would take her burden, but all he could do was to be there for her.
His decision was made. A short outcry of surprise escaped her as Solas pushed her suddenly against the wall.
"If that's what you really want …" Something flashed in his eyes. She had the feeling to recognize a power in his eyes that she never noticed in him.
Ellana took his face in her hands and looked him in the eyes.
"You're all I want." Immediately, he kissed her. Now his mind was finally defeated.
He had felt how a part of his power had flared up because of her. And she had also noticed, he was sure.
He put his hands on her waist to her thighs and lifted her, so that her legs wrapped around him and she was pushed further back against the wall.
Solas wandered with his lips to her ear, further down her neck.
As he slowly ran his tongue over her skin, it flashed through Ellana, what elicited a moan from her.
He kissed and sucked on her neck, at the same time his hands wandered on her butt and he pushed himself as close to her as he could.
When she could feel his erection between her thighs, she went through a shiver which not remained unnoticed by him.
With one hand he began to open her blouse, when he arrived at the last button she took his hand and stopped him.
Solas looked confused at her, has she changed her mind? Ellana gave him a loving smile.
"You worry too fast, Solas. After all the trouble to keep you here, I'll let you definitely not go. "
She opened her hair and he realized for the first time, that they reached to her hip.
However, he also see now that her blouse had slipped.
He kissed her neck again, but only briefly, immediately he moved deeper to her collarbone and finally to her breasts.
"You're so beautiful." he whispered in her ear when he raised his head again.
Before Ellana could say anything she felt his lips on hers. It was a kiss full of desire .
Light he ran his tongue over her lips to get entry, which she happily grant him.
During her tongue game he massaged her breasts with his hands, what again drew a pleasant moan from her. Solas could feel her body responded to his touches, he could feel her heartbeat getting faster and faster under his hand.
She pushed her hips forward, pulling him as close with her legs to herself as she could, that it was gradually too tight in his clothes for him. He wanted to get rid of his troublesome clothes, but above all he wanted to feel her bare skin on his own.
He shoved his hands from her breasts under her bottom and held her pressed to him. If she would hold even tighter on his shoulders, the cloth problem would be solved soon.
He quickly carried her gently to the bed and as she sat on the edge of the bed he kneel in front of her and unlaced with nimble fingers her boots, which flew few moments later through the room, followed by her socks and pants.
Ellana smiled and knelt down on her bed and threw her blouse. Now she knelt before him, clothed only with a chest strap and panties.
She was just perfect. It was now dark, and only the moonlight provided light. Ellana couldn't have imagined that this little light would be enough for him to see all her body had to offer him.
Her hands pulled him to her and she began to help him get rid of those annoying clothes.
Moments later, he was completely naked and grabbed with one hand behind her neck, pulled her head to him to kiss her again. Together, they let down on the bed and Solas overlaid her body with kisses. When he arrived on the inside of her thigh she shuddered.
"Solas ..." To hear his name moan from the woman he so desired, made only that he even more desired her. And he wondered again if you could love someone even more?
Apparently so,because with every second they spent together he loved her more and more.
He devoted himself to her chest belt, which he quickly removed. When it was gone, he began to suck on her nipple, at the same time he let his fingers slide into her panties.
She moaned again and bent against his hand. He could feel how excited she now was, and it was for himself more and more difficult to control himself and wait for it. Ellana began to rub her hips against his hand. She never would have expected to want and need him so much.
She caressed his cheek and he looked at her. Anything more beautiful than her with this smile on her face he had never seen before.
His hands were now on the waistband of her panties. He looked at her, waiting for a signal. Her nod to him was confirmation enough and he drew it down from her hips.
Her legs were slightly spread an invitation he could not refuse. Slowly he lay down on her, leaning with his elbows beside her head so she would not have to bear his full weight.
"Ar lath ma, Vhenan." He whispered. "I love you too." She replied and took his face in her hands.
Kissed him gently, then more demanding and granted his tongue entrance. Briefly he broke the kiss to look into her eyes.
She nodded and he slowly entered her. Solas felt her tightened and stopped so she could get used to the feeling. As Ellana had relaxed again he began to move, slowly at first, but when she began to moan and moved her hips, he goes faster and harder.
Her legs wrapped around him, her fingernails left marks on his back. It would not be much longer.
When she packed from her climax, moaned, his name he came, too.
* Why? Why I don't remember this night with Ellana? How could I let it go so far. *
To see this memory made sure that he could hardly control his emotions. If he had control over this dream, probably anything would be blown up in all this which has swelled in him.
* Dread Wolf ... It's not over yet. Look there! * Mythals voice. For the first time he could hear her clearly.
He looked how he and Ellana lying in bed as he hugged her from behind and kissed her neck while she was about to fall asleep slowly. Before she fell asleep definitively he heard her say
"Solas, please stay with me." He pulled her close. "For Always, Vhenan."
There was nothing he would rather do than to be like this forever with her. A life without her would be his end. He had never been so happy as at this moment. A decision grew up in him.
His eyes began to glow blue and he kissed her on her shoulder. As he pulled his head away from her you could see shortly light up a blue mark on her shoulder. Now he fell asleep from exhaustion.
* Do you understand now why you could not hear me directly Fen'harel? * Now showed to him at least some sense, the lack of memory had his connection to Mythal disturbed. Especially since he had left a part of himself in Ellana, however, it was still not clear why he had not remembered.
But a part of him wished he couldn't still remember all of this. He'd done much worse to her than he previously thought.
* I gave her my mark ... the thought of living without her, I couldn't stand. She will not age or get sick ...but if one of us is killed dies the other, too. I have bound her forever to me without that she knows it or that I ever asked, I have forced immortality to her. So I am not better than the other, who branded their slaves with the Vallaslin. * Pure scorn was in his voice.
* You did not select her as a slave, dread wolf. You wanted her as your wife. We both know very well that a wolf needs his pack and above all a partner. But I must unfortunately ask you to see the rest, so you realize why you do not remember. Only when your mind is clear again I can lend you my power, to do what needs to be done. *
Again he saw they were in bed together, but they were both asleep. On her face was a satisfied smile. Now that he remembered the feeling to feel her in his arms as she gave herself to him, this sight pure happiness they had together was unbearable for Solas at this moment.
He saw himself awake, at first not clear about where he was. But when he felt her warmth body dismay was in his face. Especially when he saw the mark on her shoulder.
As gently he could, he withdrew from her, in order not to wake her. Gathered up his clothes and got dressed. One last look on her before he closed the door of her chambers behind him, when he had gone a few steps he sank against a wall.
Another mistake. One which he could not be undone. Although he had had the power to give her the mark but to take it back, would require more than he had at that time. Even though he was anyway still far from its former power, he had now also given her a part so that she is immortal.
"Mistake. Everything destroyed. Anger, sadness, despair. The desire to run away, never to have been here. Simple to disappear. " Solas looks up when he hears Cole talk. "Cole, stop!"
"No. Not this time. This time I have to help, otherwise she will break. She's afraid to lose you, would search you, and despair because of you. Always ask why you went. You must both forgotten."
* Of Course. Who but Cole could make us forget. He did it to protect Ellana, in order to protect her from the suffering which I had caused her. Mythal, do she remember that night, too? *
His greatest fear was actually to die alone, but now she was replaced by Cole's words. Would she really broke because of him? Had he destroyed the most precious in his life?