Emma Runaway from the house, how Could she be so stupid? What made her think things would be any different... that he could actually come to love her? That she had a chance at finding happiness.

She did it again but this time, the hurt was beyong deep, her blood was frozen and her heart broken into pieces. Why it had to hurt to much? Why she had to hurt that much? Oh, Killian, why. Why?

Tears fell down her face, like pouring rain without any effort.

She knew he was special in the moment she met him, even though she couldnt trust herself with him because she didnt think it was possible for him to actually see her but then, it only took one evening together, with him and she magically felt it, he was the one... he won her heart with the softness of his eyes, with his fun and kind words... how could someone be so handosome and amazing? How could she felt for him so fast?- And now everything was gone, razed by a storm... a hurricane named Eva. How could she be so mean, why all the jealousy and hate... Why, Oh God Why?

She wished she could understand, to find a reason why she was broken beyond repair, why her heart felt beating dead... why she felt like she would never find a way to even smile again, why her sister took what, whom she loved the most?-

He slept with her sister... she wanted to laugh of how stupid she felt, she went to their place , a little late because she couldnt sneak out , trying to control her exciment, nervousy and happiness...because he would finally take her, make her body completely his... a surprise. Ha! What a surprise did she take . she will never be able to close her eyes and not see that imagine in her head again in her life... they together, in bed... she sobbed... their bed. The bed where he gave her pleasure, the same bed where she felt loved, cherished and even sexy, the same damn bed where he promised he would fully take her that night...instead he took her sister. He lost his virginity to her sister! Why, Killian?

Was everything a lie, did he even felt for her? She could not even think straight anymore. Everything seemed so wrong, so far away, she couldnt hear or see anything, only feel the heartbeats of her broken heart, and the sadness of her dead soul and spirit... Because he took everything, her first kiss, her first orgasm, her first I love you, her first dream of happy ending, her first and only hope, her body, her soul, her happiness, her smiles, her dreams and all that remained was pain and desolation.

He was gone and her dream of a future, happy future together...was gone as well.

What she was supossed to do now? How was she supossed to keep breathing when he even took all the air?

-...-...-...

"Ruby, please. I need to talk to her"- he begged with his eyes.

"Go away, Jones"- she looked at him fully with anger and fury "Or I will feel oblige to do what I feel doing to you right now, and believe me, it will hurt"- she said, forgetting her good manner, she couldnt care any less being a proper lady when she saw the broken expression in her best friend´s eyes the day before.

"Believe me, nothing can hurt more than it already does"- he said , his voice almost breaking and she looked at him.

"Talk, you have 5 minutes"

"I know she wont want to see me but I need to talk to her, I need to explain her . Please, make her listen to me"

"Have you go to the castle?"

"Yes, I only met Henry. He hates me as well but I didnt think it was good to go to her parents. I dont want to cause her troubles"- he looked down-" she will only hate me more"

"And you well deserve it!"- she snapped –"I mean, I know Eva as much as I know Emma and Im not surprised about her but you! How could you! How could you do that to her? You broke her heart"- she finished, almost tearing from anger and pain.

"I didnt know she had a twin, I swear! She never told me, for God´s sake! She , I"- he closed his eyes in exaperation and ran his hand throught his hair –"I, somehow felt that she was different, she even smell different but what was I supossed to think?! That she wasnt my wife, that she wasnt actually Emma!"- he said, everything seemed absurd, how a simple missing sentence, like I have a twin would had changed, probably their whole future. How this be fixed? He couldnt even tell his own name, at the moment.

"Emma doesnt see her as her twin, its complicated but Im sure you´d got a hint of it"- she said sarcastically. She could see the pain in his eyes as well, but she hurt for her good sad friend more.

"Please, help me, Ruby"- he begged.

"I dont see what I can do. You slept with her sister!"- she snapped again – "You felt she was weird and you still slept with her!?"

"Gosh"- he ran his hand over his hair again and sighed heavily –"I dont even remember. I kissed her, well, she kissed me and it was so, so intoxicating, I"

"I dont need to juicy details, thank you"- she protested but he ignored her complain.

"Everything seemed to vanish away, I felt dizzy and when I woke up, Emma was there, the two of them... I feel like Im going crazy, I cant even"- he closed his eyes in deep pain.

"You really dont remember?"- she asked, confused .He nodded – "Did you drink something, did she give you something?"

"Yes, she brought vine. It tasted different but she said it was from her parents tour"- he looked at her, trying to understand where she was going.

"That bitch! Emma was right, she would really do anything to hurt her"- she groaned but Killian just looked at her, in completely shock –"She had all this planned, she gave you something in that drink in case you didnt want her or something"

"She did?"- he could not come to undestand, why? Why all the hate toward her own twin sister. How could he not see it, how could he be so bloody stupid!- "Are you going to help me then"

"I will talk to Emma but I cant promise anything. I will not push where she is not ready to go. Are you going to the ball tomorrow?"

"I have to, I came here for that ball and the polite visit but Im not sure, if its a good idea. Maybe she doesnt want me there"- he would get in trouble with his grandfather if he didnt go but Emma was way more important at the moment...at the very moment he met her.

"You go there and I will see if you get a chance. Thats all I can give"- she said because she could tell that he was tricked and hurt but was their a way to fix this? Would Emma be able to forget and forgive? Could they move on from this, together?

"Thank you"- he said with his eyes watering. He wanted to talk to her deeply but he feared, he wasnt ready to see hate, he wasnt ready for her to hate him. He squeezed Ruby´s hand , she nodded and he walk away.

Tomorrow night. All to win. All to lose.

-...-...-

"Ruby, Dont. Just dont, okay?"

"Emma, come on. You have to listen to me. Im your friend, I just want you to be happy, you deserve to be happy. Dont let her take this from you, dont let her win. Not again"

"You came here to help me with the dress , I dont wanna talk. I mean it"- she said, as she looked on the mirror, trying her dress.

"You have to listen to him, Give him the benefit of the doubt. He cares about you"- Ruby said and Emma closed her eyes in pain. She didnt want to think of that. She didnt want to know . "Dont close up on me, Emma, please. Talk to me"

"He slept with my sister. I was a fool. Thinking that someone, that He could actually love me, feel something for me. But Now I can see that deep down I just wanted to believe that I could have happiness but I woke up from my dream, in the worse way possible. And its done, theres not coming back. He doesnt love me, and I dont love him. I just, we wanted a escape from our sad present, thats all"- she said with conviction. Ruby rolled eyes in exaperation.

"You know your sister... why you didnt tell him you are twins? Emma, for God´s sake!"

"I, I dont know if I did or not. I just, I guess I believed that if he loved me for real he would see or could tell that who she is but clearly, he doesnt. He never did"

"Emma"- she groaned.

"I dont wanna see him again, I cant!- He slept with my sister and I saw them. How could we fix that? He might not be guilty, It was her. I know it was her but I was an idiot to think that I could win, just once. Just this once and I know he is a good person, he is better off without me. Theres nothing we can do and I cant, Ruby, I just cant"- tears rolled down her face.

"You are trying to pretend, to lie yourself that you dont love him"- she said and Emma just looked at her- "But we both know that you do, Emma. You love him and he might really love you back"

"Just help me with this damn dress, So I can be done with this stupid ball already, would you?"

-...-...-...

Killian got dressed in his best prince outfit and went to ball, her family ball. He was nervous, really scared, this could go both ways. He kept hope that Ruby could convince her to listen to him and maybe if they talk... He had to fix this, to make it better. It couldnt just be over, there must be a way.

"Killian, We need to talk"- she said, shyly , coming from behind him. He turned around. It was her voice but ...

"What do you want?"- he said coldly

"Why do you talk to me, like that?"- she said, wide openned eyes in surprise.

"You migth look the same and fooled me once. But I wont fall twice. I know that you are not Emma"- he took her hands out of him and step away. She had to try hard to close up her mouth. How could he tell? He only saw her once!

"I never said I was"- Eva excused herself. She had to win him over. Why she felt that it would be harder, why her charms didnt seem to be working? But she felt the pull as well. She wanted, she longed for him... what was that? She never felt that way before. She would win him over, she wanted him. She wanted for him to hers, badly , almost desperately.

"Right"- he looked around, trying to not get much of attention or some scandal in the middle of the place. –"I love her. As you know, she is my wife and Im not gonna stop fighting for her"

"Wife?"- she raised her eyebrows –"The marriage didnt consumate, it was just a kids game. She is actually not"- she said, trying not smile or laugh. She really wanted him. He was surprised...How could she-? Well, he lost his virginity to her, she probably noticed it.

"Still, I love her. And you are twins and look the same but you are not her, you never will be, not to me"- he said and walked away. Leaving her in shock. What was that feeling? Why he was special to her?

-...-...-

"Emma, love"- he said softly against her ear , coming from behind her. Making her gasp as a shiver ran down her spine.

"What are you doing here? Leave, leave me alone"- she said, coldly quietly.

"Please, you have to hear me out. Please Im your husband"- he begged. Emma looked around.

"Walk after me but wait a while"- she said and walked out of the place. Moments later he followed her.

"Emma, please"

"Dont, Just dont. I dont wanna hear you. I dont wanna see you"- she said, trying hard not to break down and cry, sob or even pass out.

"Love"- where to begin, what to say to fix this. Could he?

"Im not your wife and you are not my husband. You consumate it with the wrong sister, Im affraid"

"I love you, you have to believe me"- he begged her, but she wouldnt even hold into their gazes

"No, I dont. This is yours, I dont need it. I dont want it"- she took the ring with his necklace and grabbed between her fingers, waiting for him to open his palm to land it there. He hesitated, he was hurt, deeply hurt, She could tell but she was hurt too. He closed his eyes and sighed as his hand wrapped the necklace with the ring.

"I didnt know you had a twin and I dont even remember what happened. She tricked me, you were right about her. I didnt know , Im sorry. Im so sorry"- tears were bluring his sight, he wipped his eyes, so he could see her... maybe for a last time.

"It doesnt matter anymore. You still hurt me as anyone before. We cant fix this. How can I ever let you kiss me again, touch me again?"- tears were rolling down her face –"How can I be with you, ever again. If everytime I close my eyes, I see you...with her"- It took all of her not to break into sobbing and fall to the ground. This had to be done.

"Emma, I love you. The last thing I´ve wanted to do was hurting you. I hate myself because I see the pain in your eyes. Tell me, what can I do to fix this, to make it better? Tell me and I will"- he promised.

"Go. Go back home and never come back"- she said, her eyes closed. She couldnt bear to look at him.

"Thats what you really want, what you need?"- he said, weakly. His worse fear was becoming real. There was not way to fix it-

"Let me forget this ever happened"- she said, begging with her eyes because she couldnt take the pain anymore. It was deep down, alive, consuming her.

"Theres not hope for us, then"- he stated and she could barely hear him.

" You are a good man and I was a fool thinking that I could stop her this time. She will never rest, she will keep doing it forever. I dont want, we cant live like that"- she closed her eyes again, making tears fall –"No, theres not"

"Emma"- he whispered and moved to land a hand on her but she instantely moved back. He could finally see it. She was right. She could not bear him to try to touch her. He could see the sadness in her eyes, her spirit. It broke him deeply. He did that, he just wanted to ease this for her in any way he could. – "I will"- he swallowed, trying to make the words come out –"If thats what you need... I will leave and never come back"-

She looked at him, her expression mixed with relief and pain. He couldnt tell, which feeling dominated her.

"But I need you to know that I will always love you, Emma. And I will wait for you, forever. So, maybe, if One day you feel that there is hope again. You will come to find me"- tears rolled down his face, his voice wrecked, his heart beating fast as it was going to explote. He wanted that. He wanted for it to explote and stop hurting.

Seeing him crying, was her undoing, a solo and deep sob escape her mouth, coming from deep down inside of her soul but she tried control herself, she had to.

He moved to kiss her, one more time. She didnt back away then and closed her eyes but as his lips were about to touch hers, she moved her head and his kiss landed on her cheek, tasting her tears on it.

"Goodbye Emma" - He said softly, almost as if he feared those words. As if them were his worse enemy.

"Goodbye"- was all she could give back, quietly.

He turned around and walked away. Out of her life, for good.

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A/N: Owkay, that hurt didnt it?- I know, I know but it was neccesary. I told you I wanted to give some fluff before the agnst.

I know its hard but it will get better, so bear with me. I have good plans for this story.

And if its to much, you should read "Crazy in love" as well, thats much lighter and fill with humor, so far.