Ross's POV

After dinner, Ally had gotten in the shower. I just kinda hung out in her room looking at all of our old pictures. I came across her song book. I looked around and picked up. I sat on her bed and started to read it.

(( A/N right now the (( or ( is going to be Ross' thoughts. ))

Dear Diary/Journal/Songbook 12/2/2011

I met this guy today. His name is Austin Moon. He was playing drums with corndogs...:\ I told him not to and he didn't really listen to me. (I laughed at the memory) Ugh! I can't believe this. I hope I never see him again.

~Ally xox

I frowned at the last part and kept reading.

Dear Diary/Journal/SongBook. 12/4/2011

Okay...so...I may have become friends with Austin. He really isn't a bad guy...sure he stole my song and everything but ...He said he was sorry and it really was an accident. hmm...well...now I'm his song writer. I think we can make it. Me and him together. We can make in the music industry! I just know we can! Together!

~Ally xox

But...we're not working together anymore...I am so sorry...

I skipped a couple of pages.

Dear Diary/Journal/Songbook 6/14/2011

Okay...Austin is really starting to worry me. he keeps fighting with his dad. I just worry about what he might do. Today he called me bawling. I've never heard him cry before. His dad really got to him this time. I know he can't take it. He's right now staying at my house. I'm sitting in his room on the window seat as he sleeps. I couldn't sleep myself, so I came in here. you know. He's really cute when he sleeps. I'd better get to sleep now. Good Night.

~Ally xox

Dear Diary/Journal/Songbook. 6/17/2011

I can't believe this! I just got off the phone with Austin. He hung up on me. I'm really scared now. All he told me was that he loved me and to remember that. Omigosh. What is he going to do! I'm literally trembling! I've called him about 10 times! He won't answer! Aussttttiiinnnn Answer! Please!

~Ally

She didn't put the 'xox' this time...

Dear Diary/Journal/SongBook. 10/18/11

I am officially crying my eyes out! My dad woke me up this morning...I went down stairs and there were Austin's parents...They told me he killed himself. I knew it! I can not belive this! he was my partner! I knew there was a problem! I should've just gone over to his house! I wasn't there when he needed me! I...I...just can't write songs anymore! Never again! If I can't write songs for Austin or with Austin. Then I won't write any at all! (tears ran down my face) Austin why! I loved you and this is what you do to me! To your parents! to everyone who loved you! Well. I hope you got your wish. Cause I am never going to continue my dream without you! I just hope you know that I loved you and you could've just lived with me. but no! You just Had to go off and do this to everyone. To me. To Trish. To Dez. Dez is over here crying. I've seen him cry a lot but now he just lost his best friend. All he has is us now. You could've just lived with me, changed your number and just-ugh! Why. that's my only question to you. Why? Why didn't you just stay and prove him wrong. (there were tear stains all over the paper) I loved you Austin Monica Moon! I really did. but...Just forget it. Good-bye forever.

~ Ally. R.I.P Austin.

Dear Diary/Journal. 10/14/13

Well, it's been almost 2 years since Austin's death. On the Anniversery of it...me and Trish are going to a concert. We're going to see this new group called Miami Heat. It's made up of 5 kids. 3 of them are siblings. There's Riker, Mary, Zack, and Ross and Jacob are from Miami. Ross is the one who made up the band. They're really good. I can't wait to see them. With Austin...every now and then I'll go on his website and look at his old videos. His fans have no idea what happened to him. All they know is that he's taking a break...They really want him back...but...he's not coming back. I wish his was...I miss him so much! If I only I could hear his voice once more, mess with his hair, Talk to him, write songs with him...Oh why...

~Ally

Every since my 'death' she stopped writing songs?! She stopped putting the cute little 'xox's ' ?! oh what have I done.?

"Ross! What're you doing with my book!" I quickly put it down.

"Nothing..."

"Were you reading it?! ugh! there is personal stuff in there! don't touch it!" She sat down and started to cry.

"Hey, I'm sorry. I shouldn't have touched your book." I said, putting my arm around her.

"no, no, It's not that. It's just that it's the 18th." She said.

"What's the 18th?" I asked, even though I knew the answer.

"The anniversery of my best friend's death. he commited suiced. I refuse to write songs now."

"Ally! no! You have to keep writting songs!" I said, standing up.

"What's the point?" She asked. "I have no more inspiration"

"...Yes you do. You can use me!" I offered.

"I don't know. Why should I write a song when I have no one to sing it" She said.

"I'll use it!" I said.

She started to cry again

"I'm sorry! I just can't. I want Austin back!" She sobbed "I loved him! I'm never going to see him again!"

"No,No...It's okay"

"NO! I miss him! everytime I close my eyes I see his face. In my dreams I can hear his voice! He's been all I've dreamt about for the past 2 years! He had so much life ahead of him! He was only 15! How could he have done this! I miss him so much." She just kept sobbing. Why did I ever have to break her heart. I just realized how much I really hurt her. I didn't think anyone cared about me so much...do I tell her? I mean, she'd be really mad! I knew she cared about me just...not that much.

"What do I do, Ross?" She asked, hugging me. "I feel so lost!"

I hugged her back "I know you do. I am so sorry. You...You know Austin's in a better place now..." I said to her. This is so weird. Why am I so stupid.

"I know he is...but I wish he was with me."

"I know you do...Just so you know...I read about what you said about me-Austin"

"You did?" She asked me.

"yeah...You really liked him..."

"I really do...But it doesn't even matter. He's gone! I refuse to think about him" She said. "And then you just had to bring him up! Why would you do this to me, Austin?!"

"You just called me Austin..." I said.

"I meant Ross! Just...go to bed! I don't want to talk anymore!" She sobbed.

"I'm sorr-"

"OUT!" She screamed at me.

I got up and walked out whipping tears away as I did.

"Man. I feel awful...I shouldn't have hurt her so much! Her broken heart is killing me. I have never cried so much in one day in my life. Except when I moved to L.A. and I was telling my Aunt all about Ally."

FlashBack

"Now sweetie. Why don't you tell me all about what happened" My Aunt asked me.

"Well, My dad would tell me what to do all the time. And would tell me I couldn't be a star. and...My girl best friend, Ally Dawson, was my song writer...I love her." I started to cry. "I don't even know what she's thinking right now. I had my parents tell her that I killed myself. I wish I could've stayed. She was my best friend. that was a girl. She was such a sweet heart. She always listened to me. And now in her mind. I'm dead. I feel awful...Do I call her?" I asked, through tears.

"No sweetie. it's not a good idea. it's time to let go" She said. My heart broke into a thousand pieces.

"But-"

"It's time to let go, hon."

I got up and ran into my room and cried. I don't want to let Ally go.

I heard a knock on my door

"Austin, sweetie...You okay?" She asked.

"No...just leave me alone."

"Okay...well, I'm going to go to the store. I'll be back. Do you want anything?" She asked.

"Just my Ally" I grumbled.

"What was that?" She asked,

"nothing. just go"

I grabbed my suit case and pulled out a picture of me and Ally. Gosh, I miss her. I looked at the pictures of us on my phone. I saw her contact. I looked at the texts we sent to each other

Ally Dawson

Austin!

Austin Moon

Ally!

Ally Dawson

Austin, You seriously need to get here.

I read through them all. suddenly my phone buzzed. It was a text...from Ally

Ally Dawson

Hey, Austin. I know you're...gone...but...I just want you to know...I love you. and I can't Bleieve you! You had so much life ahead of you, and you choose this path! I loved you! You're my best friend! I love you, Austin. Rest In total Peace.

~Ally 3

I wish I could've responded. I read it...Ugh! I am such a girl right now. Why did my dad have to drive me to do this! to leave!

End of Flashback

I walked into the guest room.

"Ross..." I heard Ally on the other side of the door.

"yeah?" I asked.

She opend the door.

"I'm sorry..." She said. "I shouln't have yelled at you"

"It's okay" I said.

"Well, Good night." She said.

I smiled. "Good night"

How am I going to tell her.

Laura: Awww! omigosh. This needs to get better before we-

Ross/Calum: *crying*

Rachael: *to Laura* cry?

Laura: yeah...

Raini: What's with the boys?

Ross: This is just sooooooo sad!

Calum: I know! It doesn't help that I was listening to Echo by Jason Walker!

Rachael: it's okay. I was listening to it to when I was writing this. It made me want to cry so much.

Raini: I love that song!

Larua: me too!

Ross: oh! can I listen to it and read

Rachael/Laura/Raini/Calum: NO!

Ross: ...why...?

Rachael: you'd end up crying...worse then Dez in Austin and Ally when he was watching the silent movie

Ross: oh...