Title: Innocent Ideas
Author: Nesma
Summary: It's hard to predict the results of words and actions at such a young age. It's difficult to fathom that an idea formed without much logic or reasons at a young age will carry on through to adulthood. It's terrifying and exhilarating that the ideas and stories from childhood have such curious results in adulthood. And this could be no truer than with the case of Lily and Petunia Evans and Severus Snape.
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At the age of ten, Lily Evan's woes were hardly long. Though, she did keep an orderly list in her pink and purple journal that would get lost in the years of growing up.
Lily didn't like how Tuney was growing older. She didn't like the girls Tuney was hanging out with or the paint that Tuney thought was necessary to look older and prettier. Lily also didn't like how she couldn't play with Tuney. Tuney had books and books to read for school and Lily had oodles of time to play in the playgrounds.
On a hot day in July, Lily was bored out of her mind. The heat found a way to creep through the cracks and keyholes and suffocate everyone in the house. A thin layer of sweat seemed to stick to Lily's skin and the idea of re-reading some of the battered second hand books that Petunia gave her seemed like a horrible idea. Any activity that required much thought seemed like horrible idea.
And so, Lily convinced Tuney to walk her to the park to play on the swings in the shade. Tuney grumbled for a bit (mummy said it was because she was reaching 'puberty') but eventually trudged along. The walk was a bit miserable since Tuney wanted to make sure that everyone on the street knew that she was in a horrid mood. But by the end, Lily was able to get her laughing and smiling when they reached the park's edge.
It was then Lily's special talents were coming out. The rebirth of a flower. The gentle grace of flying off of a swing. The things that Tuney scolded her for because it wasn't 'normal' and really a 'freakish' thing. Mummy hated it too. She was worried that Lily would get herself killed trying to jump off of tall buildings or whatever she thought Lily would do next.
It was that afternoon that Lily met Severus Snape. A boy who lived at Spinner's End, or so Lily gathered from the huffing and puffing of Tuney. After consoling her older sister for what seemed like an unbearably long time (thirty minutes), Lily decided to sneak away to the street that lay at the end of the neighborhood.
Lily had only been to Spinner's End once before, on a dare by the boys in the nieghbourhood. Last time, it was close to dark; right when the purple in the sky waltzes with the blue and the stars start peeking out. Last time, Lily tripped and started crying until Tuney found her. Last time, Lily promised Tuney that she would never go back down Spinner's End.
But today Tuney was grumpier than usual and this boy had answers. Today, with the sun shining and the sidewalk cracks were visible. Today, Lily decided to find Severus Snape.
His house wasn't hard to find since it looked like it was the only one that still had people in it. Plus, the letters on scattered around his house gave enough clues that it was indeed the 'Snapes' house and not the 'Smiths'.
As Lily stared at the door there was a brief moment, she considered running to the other end of the street and never looking back.
She didn't want to be an outcast. She didn't want to be a freak or a witch. She wanted to be Lily. She could make the strange things happen, right? She could pretend not to know of the magic in her veins (is it magic?). She can shut her eyes and stuff her fingers in her ears and count to ten to rid herself of whatever she knows that isn't normal. She could try to mimic Tuney more, buy make-up and play with it in front of the mirror instead of making things move in her room alone. She could buy girly magazines that had scandalous headlines and workouts to make your body look right. Or maybe, Lily could read books and books and learn to be a great writer until her mysterious skills are nothing more than a plot line and a twist.
For a second, Lily considered all of her potential 'normal' future and there was a glimmer of hope in her heart for acceptance. A second later, Lily realized that the clocks could turn round and round and her memories and knowledge of her powers would never fade.
They always said knowledge was power and Lily was dying for some. And that's why she knocked on the door and stood still as Severus Snape opened the door with a smile on his face.