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I must say find this one really sad I cried while I wrote it but … Let's see what you say.
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A 'Kanashi' person
Chapter Three:
Loved, lost, broken
Allen had a feeling that this was going to be great. The trio took the night off to visit a bar. Allen was so happy. First he finally got Kanda, second Cross didn't leave every night for wine and cheap whores and last but not least Lavi, his best friend, seemed to found love. But he knew that in all of his happiness the disaster was waiting to come. He threw the thought aside. It was time to have fun and to enjoy not to think about things that could happen or not. The three entered the bar and were welcomed by the smell of cigarettes and alcohol and loud conversations. The music came from a little stage at the back. It was nice listening to live music. The bar was small and cozy. All dark wood and red leather. It gave a nice feeling with two poker tables and a few sitting corners. The bar itself took the whole left wall. The wall was covered in shelves which were filled with all kinds of glasses and bottles. They got a little sitting corner and ordered their first drinks. Allen was sitting in the middle. Well he was practically sitting in Kanda's lap. Cross' arm was resting at the back of the booth. His hand was playing with Kanda's ponytail. Kanda didn't seem to meant. The black haired man had a hand under Allen's shirt. Letting his thumb caress the smooth skin of Allen's lower back.
"You wanna play poker?" Cross asked after a while.
"Later." Allen murmured against Kanda's neck. He was busy leaving a big dark mark on the asian because Allen saw the interesed looks Kanda got. And he couldn't have that could he? Allen was a bit angry that Kanda got some even through the young one was sitting in the swordman's lap. 'Unbelievable.' He thought.
But Kanda didn't notice the looks or anything else except the hand playing with his hair and the warmth of Allen's lips against his neck and the way he suckled on it. Allen's weight on his lap didn't do his concentration any good. He could feel himself getting excited. He put the glass he was holding down and turned his head to kiss Allen on the lips. His hand tugged on Allen's hair as the kiss quickly became more and more passionate.
Allen shifted in Kanda's lap so he was straddling the older one's hips. He rolled his hips against Kanda's causing a sweet friction between them. Allen mewled into the kiss.
"Enough you two." Cross groand. "I can't put you over the table now. So stop making me want to do it."
They broke the kiss. Allen was giggling like a schoolgirl and Kanda had a little smirk on his lightly swollen lips.
The raven leaned towards Cross. His smirk growing into a full grown shit-eating grin. He placed a hand against Cross' jaw. The thumb sliding over the general's bottom lip.
"You want one too, master?" Kanda purred. He fucking purred!
"Shit." Cross breathed out.
Kanda licked his lips. Immediately Cross' eyes were fixed on those lips he wanted to kiss so badly.
"Yes or no?" Kanda teased still having this stupid grin on his face.
"Yes." Cross gave in. Why should he fight if he could get what he wanted so easily.
Kanda closed the gap between their lips. The raven tried to dominant the kiss but failed miserably. Not that it mattered to him. He didn't really wanted to be the dominant one of the two. Cross graped Kanda's neck to pull him closer which – of course – didn't work with Allen in Kanda's lap.
The white haired chuckled at his master's action and Kanda slapped his ass in response. That caused Allen to gasp.
A throat clearing caused them to stop fooling around. They looked up to find one of the finders standing there.
"What?" Cross asked, sounding a bit breathless and annoyed.
"There was an activity a few streets away, sir." He answered.
Kanda sighed. "I will go check it out."
"You shouldn't go alone." Allen protested as Kanda lifted him off his lap to place him in Cross'. "It be too dangerous."
"It's not. And I can handle that stuff, you know." The raven said, flicking Allen on the forehead.
"Ow." Allen rubbed the spot with his palm. "But it's a dangerous mission Komui said. And it could be possible that there are still a few strong Akumas out there."
"I will be fine, Moyashi." Kanda leaned down to kiss him again. This time tender.
"You two play nice while I'm gone." The raven said before giving Cross too a second kiss. The swordman turned and followed the finder.
"You think he will be alright?" Allen asked Cross as he snuggled against him, seeking comfort.
Cross put his arm around the small boy, hugging him tight. "Of course. It's Kanda we're talking about. Don't worry."
Allen began to relax and Cross started to rub circles on Allen's back. They sat like that for a little while before Allen turned to his master and kissed him hard on the lips. Their teeth collided. The kiss went on a long before both leaned back to take a breath. Cross raised an eyebrow at Allen.
"A thanks for the comfort." The boy smiled. He got off Cross' lap.
"Where are you going?" The general asked.
"Playing a bit poker. I won't take long. I don't want you to get lonely." Allen teased but leaned down to give Cross another breathtaking kiss. After that he took off to one of the poker tables. 'Kanda is doing Allen good.' Cross thought as he too got up but to get a few shots for later. It was their night off after all.
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Allen really played just one round of poker that he won – of course – and came back to their booth.
Cross had ordered a tablet of shots. Not only one type but eleven and three shots of each type.
"Do you want me to get drunk?" Allen asked obviously amused.
"Maybe." Cross smirked. "Let's get started. Kanda gets his when he's back."
The general took two shots and hold one out for Allen.
"But he needs to drink them all at once." The boy laughed as he took the glass from Cross.
"Cheers baka apprentice." The red head raised his glass to Allen.
.-.-.
Meanwhile Kanda finally arrived at the street where the finder said the 'activity' was – or better should be. There was absolutely nothing!
"Are you sure it was here?" Kanda asked already pissed.
The finder just nodded and looked around.
BAAM!
They turned around to see a cloud of smoke a few houses away.
"Shit." Kanda swore. They took off towards the explosion.
The whole street was chaos. The buildings were destroyed and fragments of them were lying all over the street.
.-.-.
Allen was in Cross' lap again. Their kiss was sloppy and wet. The reason was obvious. Allen was as good as wasted. They had shared Kanda's shots since he was taking so long.
Allen had his hands deep in Cross' mane and was grinding his cock against Cross' stomach. His ass over the older man's groin.
"Shishou~" He moaned wantonly. Cross groaned in response. The man already had his hands in Allen's pants, kneading the taut ass.
.-.-.
Akumas were coming from everywhere. Most of them were Level two but there was a good among of Level threes too.
"Shit. They are too many for me alone." Kanda looked at the finder. "Go get the others. Fast!" The man turned and ran. Kanda draw Mugen and activated it.
Kanda began fighting. The situation was serious he knew that. He alone couldn't do this. His hope was that the other two didn't had drank too much til now.
"Ah!" He heared a scream and turned.
.-.-.
"Restroom. Now!" Cross ordered and bit down on Allen's shoulder. Allen nearly fell as he tried to get off Cross' lap as fast as he could. But drunk as he was it wasn't that easy.
"Haha easy." Cross laughed. He helped Allen up and to the restroom. It was good that Allen had problems walking so it wasn't too suspicious that the two were going to the restroom.
Once there was Allen tugged into one of the stalls and pushed against the now locked door of it. A passionate kiss greeted him as he looked up.
.-.-.
Kanda saw the finder. The man was held by two Akumas and was slowly being torn in two. The screams of the man were horrible. Kanda tried to reach him. He fought his way to him but as the asian reached the finder was the man already dead.
"Shit!" Kanda screamed. Now there was no help coming at least not fast. A few people sure heared the explosion and such news usually spread fast. He could only hope that Cross and Allen heared about it soon and came here. He didn't know how much longer he could hold out. His right shoulder was badly hurt and he had a few other injuries.
.-.-.
"Hm~ God yes!" Allen moaned shamelessly as Cross plunged into him over and over again. "More! Harder! Yes!"
Cross groaned. Shit Allen was so good. He missed fucking him. He didn't had a chance since Kanda had joined them.
"Allen. I so missed fucking you." The older man moaned into Allen's neck. He bit down to mark what was his.
"Ah~ Shishou~" Allen screamed as he came against the door. He came just being fucked from behind. Cross' thrusts were getting more frantic since he was so close himself. Allen tighten around him. After a few fast and deep thrusts he too came deep inside the willing body of his apprentice.
"Allen." Cross moaned softly into Allen's ear.
.-.-.
He was hurt all over and exhausted. 'Please let them come in time.' Kanda thought. He could bearly stand his ground.
"Shit." He cursed. A Level three was approaching him from behind. He didn't see it coming until it was to late.
.-.-.
They got back to their table which was surprisingly still free. Allen still glow from his orgasm. 'He's beautiful like this.' Cross thought.
"There they are." Someone said and hurried over to them. "You are exorcists right? Was there a dark haired man with you?"
"Yes." Cross answered. Allen started to feel anxious.
"There is big trouble! There was an explosion and there are so many Akumas. We were searching for you but couldn't find you. Come!" The man said.
"Oh no. Kanda!" Allen was now panicky.
They ran after the man who was leading the way towards Kanda. 'Kanda. You have to be safe. Please.' Allen thought and Cross as well. They couldn't lose him yet. Not yet!
.-.-.
"Kanda! Watch out!" Kanda heared Allen scream. Allen! Hope! He could make it. But then he turned he saw teeth. Only teeth and when was there pain. So much pain and screams.
.-.-.
"No! Kanda!" Allen screamed. Tears running down his face. He activated his Innocence and began to fight. He was furious and anxious and panicky and god knows what else. He fought and fought but he couldn't reach Kanda. Kanda's sreams died. And that only made Allen's emotions more of a mess.
Cross too was fighting with everything he had. But there were just too many Akumas.
.-.-.
After what seemed forever they managed to kill all the Akumas and ran to Kanda.
Allen was a shaking sobbing mess as he hugged Kanda. Or better what was left of him. Kanda's right arm and side and both legs were gone. Just gone. Nowhere to be seen. And there was so much blood. Everywhere. Kanda was lying in a pool of blood. Allen was kneeling beside him. The boy's face was pressed against Kanda's neck as Allen slid his arms around him.
Cross stood there for a moment just watching the scene before him. There was something wet on his cheeks. He wiped his fingers over it. Tears. He was really crying. Then he finally moved over to Kanda. Falling to his knees beside the asian, wrapping both boys in his arms.
"W-What are y-you cry-ing for?" Kanda asked. He sounded so weird with all the blood in his mouth and everywhere. So weak.
"Kanda. Don't die. Please." Allen cried so hard. Kanda lifted his remaining arm and put his hand on Allen's face.
"Don't cry Moya-shi." Kanda smiled, tears lingering in his eyes. "I lo-ove you. Bo-oth. I love you Allen. I love you Marian." Kanda coughed bloody.
"I love you too Yuu." Allen managed to get out. He kissed Kanda on the lips. It was just a peek.
"I love you too Yuu." Cross said too. Also kissing Kanda also just a peek on the lips.
Kanda smiled at both of them. "I kno-ow." He said as his eyes drived close and his hand fell back on the ground. And a single tear ran down his face.
Allen fell on Kanda's chest. An endless stream of tears running down his face and on Kanda's chest.
Cross threw his head back and howled all his sorrow out loud. Clenching the boys harder.
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They were about to reach to order after a three day long journey. Allen still hadn't stopped crying. There were always a few tears running down his cheeks. And he hadn't said a word since Kanda died. He didn't eat and drank only a bit.
Cross was not really different. He only talked when necessary, eat only a few bites and drank hardly. He would even cry when he was alone or with Allen or with Kanda's corpse.
Shit. Kanda's last words were a confession to them. How he had managed to talk or live long enough for them to arrive was a miracle and so damn cruel.
Allen had taken Kanda's ponytail ribbon and wore it around his right wrist. He would have prefered to wear it on his left but since it was his Innocence it wasn't possible.
Cross slid closer to Allen in the carriage, putting an arm around him, pulling him close. Allen looked at him but his eyes were near dead. There was no sparkle or light or life in them anymore. Only a little tiny bit when he looked at Kanda's ribbon or into Cross' eyes.
"Ready?" Cross whispered. Allen leaned forward to kiss him. The boy got so much more physical since Kanda was dead. It was like he was going to make sure everything else was still there by touching it. Allen climbed into Cross' lap deepening the kiss. Buried his hands in Cross' mane. He did that a lot since that day. Cross pulled away.
"We're nearly there. We can't. Not now." He said breathlessly. But that only caused Allen to slide to the floor, kneeling between Cross' open legs and hands on Cross' belt buckle. Before Cross could protest had Allen his pants open and low enough to take his already hard member out. Allen didn't waste time to admire the sight before him. He just leaned forward and swallowed Cross down.
It didn't take long for Cross to come since Allen was endeavour to make Cross come. Being the good boy Allen was he swallowed it all. Cross leaned down to kiss him again.
"I love you Allen. Only you." Cross whispered into Allen's hair. He knew the kid was crying again. Everytime he told him he loved him the kid would cry and hug him. And of course got Allen up, climbed back in Cross' lap, snaking his arms around the man's neck and snuggled close.
'Now. You love only me because Yuu is dead. And it's my fault.' Allen thought. 'If I wouldn't have drank so much and ended up fucking in the restroom he would still live. If I hadn't wanted to go to the bar he would still live. If I hadn't seduced him he would still live. If I hadn't loved him in the first place he would still live. If I wasn't alive he wouldn't have died. If I weren't he would still live.'
But Allen lived and Kanda was dead. Kanda. Allen loved him and he still does but he loves Cross too. And Cross loved him back but Cross loved Kanda too. 'Shishou should blame me for Kanda's death.' Allen thought. 'It's all my fault! I need to suffer as much as Kanda did. I don't deserve to be happy.'
Allen made the decision that he would do everything for Cross but nothing for himself.
He wasn't worth it anymore. He needed to suffer.
It was his fault after all, right?
End of chapter three
And how was it? Bad? Really bad? Awful? Or maybe good?
I don't really have much to say now but I think I will have time to upload about two chapters a month from on. So stay tuned.
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