Tori's POV

It's been a week since I've been told that Beck was killed in combat, and I still felt like I was living in a really bad dream that I can't wake up from. I entered my bedroom for the first time this week, and glanced over at his side of the room. I can still remember the day before he left for Afghanistan, like it was yesterday.

*Flashback*

I walked into the bedroom, and glanced over at Beck who was still sound asleep. "Beck! Come on, we're suppose to meet my parents in an hour and you're still sleeping." I said, shaking him.

Beck groaned and rolled over. "What time is it?" He asked.

"It's 12:30." I said, crossing my arms over my chest.

He glanced at his phone and then dropped it on the floor. "We still have time."

"Uhh...no we don't, so get up." I said, grabbing a hold of his arm and tried to pull him off the bed. My plan completely backfired because he ended up pulling me towards him, so that I'd be laying next to him. "Beck."

He just laughed and wrapped his arms around me. "You've been working way to hard, just relax for a few minutes."

I tried to free myself, but failed. "Beck, someone needs to run this place and besides that you're leaving for Afghanistan tomorrow. You know my parents want to see you before you..." Beck cut me off by kissing me.

"I know you're parents want to meet up."

I smiled, and shook my head. "Then come on. Get ready."

"In a few minutes." He said, kissing me again. I've always loved moments like this. "I love you, Tori."

I looked in the eyes. "And I know you, too." I said, giving him a quick kiss. "Okay, now it's time for you to start getting ready."

"I still need to shower."

"Then go shower."

"I don't want to shower alone."

I laughed a little. "Too bad, because I already showered. Now get up." I said, climbing off our bed. I glanced down at Beck, who was still looking a little too cozy.

"I will always love you, Tor. No matter what happens." He said, sitting up.

I sighed, and sat down on the bed. "Nothing is going to happen. You'll be fine over there because you'll have Andre watching you're back." I said, reaching for his hand. This was the conversation that I was afraid of having, with him heading over to Afghanistan, anything could happen and I knew that. I just didn't want to believe it.

Beck rested a hand on my cheek. "I know Andre will be watching my back, but we're at war with Afghanistan. Anything is possible and I need you to know that no matter what happens, I'll always love you. I always have. Your the one for me Tori Vega."

I have not expected that, and I smiled. "I've always loved you too."

Beck smiled, and then kissed me. It was a sweet kiss, and I was one of the happiest people alive right now.

*End Flashback*

I leaned against the wall, and felt my eyes start to tear up again. "Why?" I asked. I knew the lord was listening, and I wish that he'd give me an answer. I've always thought everything happened for a reason, but somethings were unpredictable. That's the way I see it.

I heard a knock on the door and shortly after Jade walked in followed by Cat "Hey how are you doing?" Jade asked. She's been keeping me company for the past week, which I appreciated big time.

I tried my best to hold back my tears but couldn't. "How do you think I'm doing?" I asked.

Jade pulled me in to a hug. "I know, it's been tough on all of us."

That was true because everyone loved Beck. "I miss him so much."

"I know."

Cat soon joined in on the hug. "We're all here for you." She said.

I heard my son crying and went to attend to him. "No, you stay here. I'll go take care of him." Jade said, walking out of the bedroom.

I sat down on the floor and pulled my knees close to my body. "Has there been any news on Andre?" I asked, wondering if he was nearby when Beck was killed.

Cat shook her head. "Not yet, so I'm gonna guess that he's still alive." She said, sitting down next to me.

I just nodded, as Jade came walking back into the bedroom and sat down next to Cat. "He's sleeping." She said, running a hand through her long dark hair.

I didn't know what to do anymore, what would I tell my son when he asks about his father. After thinking about it for a few seconds I decided that I'd him the truth. That he was a good man, and cared about those around him. He also died a hero, though that doesn't make me feel any better. I knew that when my son was old enough, that he'd ask about his father. "Do you think it'll get any easier?"

"For us it probably will, but for you, I honestly don't know. It'll probably get easier, but the pain is always going to be there. After all, you two were meant to be." Jade said, glancing over at me.

I gave her a sad smile. "Thank you. For everything." I knew that she was right, that the pain was always going to be there and how do you move on from someone you loved so deeply. My answer is that you can't. No matter how much you try.

Short chapter and probably not the best. It's been a while since I've last updated, but I've been super busy and usually have writer's block. I've tired to work on new chapters, but usually got nothing. I hope that the chapter is alright, and I'm gonna try to update at least once a month. I can't predict my schedule at this point, but I'm certainly going to try.
So I'll start working on a new chapter soon, and hopefully have it updated sometime in February.