CHAPTER 5

Soo, okay the last chapter was longer than the previous chapters. And to really have some progress every chapter, I've decided to increase the length to fasten the pace of the story. So let's get on with it!

Anna was scared. Scared that whatever Elsa would say would just inflict more pain to her. But she wanted to hear it, too. She thought that if maybe she knew how much Elsa really loved Hans, it would help her move past her forbidden feelings towards her sister.

"I won't ask, Elsa. I want you to share everything to me," muttered Anna.

Elsa didn't expect this response from Anna, but she agreed anyway. "Okay, this is going to be kind of embarrassing, so listen well 'cause I won't repeat it. It was at the first month of the school year that Hans started showing hints that he liked me. And then one day after school, he insisted on walking me home. When we were passing the park, he suddenly pulled out a rose from his bag and confessed, and I was like, what the hell? It's really old school right?" Elsa gushed, her cheeks glowing a rosy color.

"Then when I was about to get the rose, his friends came out of nowhere with guitars and started serenading me! I was like—I can't explain it! Many guys confessed to me before but never really put an effort on it. So, with Hans it was like, wow, he has guts. Anyway, after the song, Hans asked me if I would let him court me, so I said yes."

Anna scowled. "What, just because he put a little effort you agreed to go out with him?"

Elsa shook her head with a smirk and said, "Listen to me. It's just a yes for courting me, but, well, the ending was the same. But listen to this! Every day, since that day, he would put chocolates on my desk with a post-it note of sweet words. He also never got tired of walking me home up to the park so no one can see us together. It lasted for two months, you know. I agreed to go out with him just last week."

Elsa couldn't hide the redness of her face as she talked. Anna couldn't believe how "easy-to-get" her sister was. Just a few sweet words and actions that was probably inspired by movies was enough to send her swooning.

"You know, I can do much better than that—" Anna caught herself, wide-eyed.

A tense silence echoed through the room. Then Elsa's phone rang, startling them both. "Hello—Oh. Hans! Um, yeah, I'm here bonding with my sister, but we're almost done right, Anna?"

Elsa looked at Anna with a please-say-yes look. Anna rolled her eyes in irritation and said, "Yeah, we're done. Now get the hell out."

Elsa was shocked at Anna's reaction but didn't make a big deal out of it and left Anna's room, giggling at whatever Hans said over the phone.

As soon as the door close, Anna got up and locked it then turned her lights off and went to bed. She put her hand over her heart and felt her tears well up. She knew her feelings weren't something that would go away so easily. She realized now that it had always been there, she had always thought about Elsa differently but always brushed it off because Elsa was her sister. And so it was another night where Anna fell asleep with tears in her eyes.

As Hans hung up, Elsa plopped on her bed and remembered the awkward silence between her and Anna, as well as her sister's words. Her cheeks heated up at the thought before she firmly shook her head and prepared for sleep.

Months had passed and Elsa was still together with Hans. Anna didn't know how she managed it, but she was able to suppress her feelings during that period of time.

As Anna packed her things, Kristoff came to her and said, "Wanna go to a party? Our other classmates are going. C'mon, let's be teenagers and drink our asses off. It'll be fun."

Anna didn't even hesitate. The bar was full of excited teenagers, living life wildly and fully to its extent. Anna stared, surprised at how liberated and free people acted. In the midst of straight couple making out and basically having humping each other on the dance floor were the gay couples flirting and flaunting it.

Anna liked it. She felt free. She felt like she belonged here. No one gave a damn to each and everyone minded their own business. She could live like this.

"Drink your worries away, Anna!" She felt Kristoff twirl her around before handing her a mug of frothy beer. She took a huge gulp and laughed, determined to forget even just for a night everything about her feelings for her sister. She finished her beer in one go and immediately grabbed another, not caring about the consequences anymore.

It was past one in the morning when Anna found herself in the arms of Kristoff. "Hey, what happened? Why are you carrying me? I can move on my own." She tried to walk on her own but a sudden wave of dizziness and nausea made her almost fall down. Kristoff immediately caught her and carried her again and this time Anna didn't' protest. She felt like hurling everything in her stomach.

"Take it easy. I called your mom and explained everything. I'm taking you to your house now," Kristoff said softly. Anna nodded and leaned her head on Kristoff's chest, hoping sleep would take the pounding in her head away.

She woke up at the feeling of something soft and wet on her face. She realized she was back in her room. She turned her head and saw Elsa soaking a towel on a basin of hot water.

"Oh, just continue sleeping, okay? You need to rest. I'll be done in a minute so I can turn off the lights." Elsa stroked her head, and suddenly Anna couldn't hold it in anymore. She loved her sister. She wanted Elsa. She was tired of hiding her feelings, and so she wrapped her arms around her sister's waist and pulled her in for a kiss. For a second, it was so wonderful that Anna didn't want to pull away. And then Elsa began to struggle.

"Anna—no! Stop!" Elsa managed to say, trying her best to escape Anna's grip.

Anna couldn't stop herself, not after months of suppressing her feelings. "I'm in love with you, Elsa! And I'm not in love with you in the way sisters love each other. I love you so much that I want to be with you," Anna said firmly, chest heaving from her emotions.

Her chest tightened at Elsa's horrified face, mouth twisted in disgust. Elsa shoved her away and ran out of the room without looking back. Anna clutched her blankets tighter as her tears began to fall, resolve from earlier crumbling. She felt so awful, as if her heart was caving on in itself trying to protect itself from the heartbreak. And that's what it was. Heartbreak. Elsa had rejected her feelings.

AN: Well, I hope I'm doing a good job here to satisfy you guys , but please if you share your knowledge to improve my writing style please do so :) But of course I won't change the plot so thank you in advance! :)