Chapter 4- I'm scared of losing you, but yet you're not even mine.

POV Sideswipe

I was horrified she wasn't supposed to find out this way. I transformed down, and ran after her. "Alexis!" I shouted there was no reply.

'What's the matter Sides'. I tried to ignore my brother I was busy.

Where could she have gone.

'Sides?'.

'Sunny I screwed up.' I felt him metal shake his head.

'Help me fix it Sunny.' I heard him mentally sigh.

'Sorry bro, but this is something you have to do alone.'

Then he left me alone, I ran into the forest, I searched frantically, but found nothing. "Please come out 'Lex. I can explain," first time in vorns I felt like crying. She will have to go home sooner or later right, yeah. I wiped my tears, and I drove to her house I parked on the side of the street, and I waited.

Normal POV

I ran down into a small underground cavern, I heard footsteps chasing after me. I held my breath to stop the crying. I couldn't believe it he was a robot. I thought we were friends, but he didn't tell me,

I sat there for at least two days, my father was going to kill me. I could last weeks without food or water, but I was tired of lying here it was boring. I got out of my hiding spot, and began to walk home it was really hard to see it was really blurry, and my head was spinning. Probably overthunk, and cried too much.

When I found my way home I dug in my pocket to get the keys out when a firm hand was placed on my shoulder, I slowly turned around to see who it was.

"Don't," I ripped my arm away, "I said stay away from me!" I ripped his hand off me as he grabbed me again. I slammed the door in his face.

On the way to my room tears were streaming down my face I didn't want to be mad at him, but I was. How could he do this to me? I opened my door to see Sides sitting on my bed.

I glared at him, then at the window like it was the windows fault. I left it open from this morning.

"Look 'Lex I'm so sorry you had to find out this way," I looked at him anger and betrayal clouding my vision, but it all disappeared because I wasn't mad at him, I didn't hate him, I just didn't understand.

"Why Sides? Why didn't you tell me?" I asked completely heart broken.

"I wanted to, but they said I had to really trust you. So I just waited, and when it was a good time I would have told you I swear,"

I looked at him 'So trust was the issue.'

"So you don't trust me?!" I shouted loud enough neither of us heard the car pull up to the driveway.

"Lex you don't get it I had to wait for the right time, a good time." I narrowed my eyes at him,

"When is a good time to say 'Hey before we get to be close friends I'm an alien robot.' huh tell me because I say right a fucking way!"

"That wasn't what I was talking about." I throw my phone at him,

"Then what were you talking about, because every time you say something, and I throw it back, you have another fucking excuse. You douchebag!" Sides took a deep breath in.

"I know, I couldn't have you telling anybody that's what I'm trying to say," I could tell he was holding back his anger.

"Sides now you're just lying!"

"I'm not that's the truth I swear on it,"

"It's the truth huh," I laugh bitterly,

"Who. Was. I. Going. To. TELL! Answer that for me! Since it's the truth, and you know me so well!" he winched, I was anger.

"I literally have no one, and you know that. You were the only one I've trusted in 12 fucking years! The key word there though is you WERE! That's how you treat people right!?"

I shouted at him not containing my anger any more. I was shaking from all the anger. "What are you talking about?" I could tell he didn't really want to know,

"You, don't care how it affects others, it's you, yourself, and NOBODY ELSE!" I had, had enough I collapsed to the floor tears sting my face. He got up he gentle fell to his knees he picked me up and placed me on his lap. I did respect that he sat through me yelling at him, and he didn't even yell back.

"I am truly sorry for what I did. I do care about you a lot. You don't know how bad I want to kiss you, to make you smile, to make your day. All I feel is the ?pleasure of making you happy," he stared at the ceiling.

"That you would be happy with me, and I thought if you didn't know the truth it wouldn't hurt you, I thought if you didn't know who I was you wouldn't be scared of me. I don't know I just do,"

I was sitting in his lap blushing like a mad dog. " You want to kiss me?" I asked innocently. I looked at his face a blush was occupying it at this moment.

He slowly nodded, I leaned up, and brushed my lips across his. He groaned at the contact. I moved back a little did I like him? He was funny, nice, cute. All my thoughts were thrown to the side when a pair of nervous lips clashed with mine.

It was kind of odd, when it happened, he looked brave, but when we started to kiss me he was so nervous.

My eyes widen at the contact, that was the last thing I was expecting. I slowly kissed him back not quite sure if I was doing the right thing he did keep a secret from me. I felt him smile into the kiss. 'oh what the heck why not.'

He appealed a little more force into it. He positioned us so that he was on top of me, and my hands wrapped around his neck, and his back was arched slightly.

He got his hand, and slowly moved his hand up, and down my back. I arched up, and moaned quietly into the kiss, he looked like he was liking it.

When I arched up I felt his gender defender get hard which only made me moan a little louder. That time he slipped his tongue into my mouth. He slowly explored my mouth, then he pulled away.

"Now is definitely not the time for that," I nodded my agreement, not trusting myself to speak.

He lifted me up, and gently placed me on the bed. We both laid down facing one another, he had had his hands shoved in his pocket.

Then a look went across his face that I couldn't read. He pulled a piece of paper out of his pocket, then a smile lit up his face, "I wrote a poem for you, want to hear it?" I smiled then nodded. He took a deep breath then began.

"When I saw you I was afraid to meet you. When I met you I was afraid to talk to you. When I talked to you I was afraid to kiss you. Then I kissed you, and now I'm afraid to love. Now that I love you, I'm afraid to lose you. So please don't make me write another verse to this poem, That starts off 'Then I lose you'," I smiled then kissed him. We both just laid there holding each other. Both oblivious to the world.

There you have it, I didn't even know I had already written this chapter I just found it.

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