Jonathon and I have been dating for a whole month now and he's great. Really, he's amazing. Just like someone else...
"Hey babe, when are you gonna give that shirt back to your dad?" Asked Jonathon.
"Oh... Soon... You know... It's complicated since I moved out and stuff... He's jealous that you took me away and got me settled into your house." I said, falsely smiling. He didn't know about my dad being abusive... And that shirt? Not my dad's... It's Jace's and I've kept it because I wake up at night and cry while I hold it and wrap myself around it.
"So what about going out tonight?" He asked.
"I can't sorry babe. I gotta meet Alec or some brotherly talk." I said and he sighed.
"He's gay right? He can have other guys to talk about his problems." He said. Well... It's not his problems... It's MY problems.
"I know babe, but when I come back, I'll make it up to you." I said and he smirked.
"Good." He said before making out with me in the kitchen and walking out.
"I'm gonna go to work by the way!" He said and closed the door.
I called Alec.
"Hey Alec? You can come now." I said and he was on his way.
After Jace left, Jonathon convinced me to drop out and live with him. I accepted but still miss it... I don't hang out with Izzy or Magnus anymore because all Jonathon wants to do is invite his pervy friends, get drunk and end up bending me over the kitchen counter and have sex while his friends are in the living room laughing.
After a quick shower, I changed into some super skinny light wash jeans, a black tank top and an over-sized beige cardigan. I put on my foundation so Alec wouldn't see how tired I actually looked, some brown smokey eye, winged eyeliner, mascara and white eyeliner on my waterline. After washing my teeth, I applied some nude lipstick and put on my favorite Bottega Veneta Brogue Platform Bootie in a beige colour.
"I'm outside." Texted Alec and I smiled. I got my purse with my phone, wallet and keys in it and sprayed my perfume, then left the house locked.
"Hey Alec." I said as I got into his car.
"You're looking radiant today." He said
"Thanks!" I said.
"But not enough to fool me. You know, don't you?" He said sadly.
"Max doesn't keep his mouth shut..." I said.
"He'll just be here for a week." Said Alec
"Are you ditching me for him?" I asked.
"Of course not! He wants to hang out with other people too, so I'll dedicate my time to you." He said and pinched my cheek. We went to Starbucks and I asked for a Iced Skinny Vanilla Latte and a fudge brownie while Alec ordered a Cappuccino and a cinnamon roll. We got our snacks and went outside to sit on a chair.
"Why is he coming back though?" I asked sadly.
"Well, he says it's just to catch up but you know Jace. He probably feels disconnected." Said Alec.
"Do I have to see him?" I asked.
"Yes because I arranged dinner. You can bring Jonathon." He said but I shook my head.
"I can't bring him, I'll start crying the second I see Jace. Plus, you know how Jon is, he's just so clueless. He thinks the shirts I have are my father's but he doesn't know the truth. About Jace or dad." I said and he sighed.
Alec was probably one of the only people I trusted to talk about my dad.
"Then just dinner. You, Jace and I. Like good old times." He said and after some nagging, I said yes.
"When is he arriving?" I asked.
"Tommorrow at 3 pm. Dinner's at 8." Said Alec's.
"Don't tell me it's at Olive Garden..." I said and he laughed.
"No, it's at La Pierre." Said Alec.
"Damn, fancy..." I said and he smiled.
"Yeah, pretty fancy." He added and we laughed. We shopped a bit, then watched a movie and then I went back to the house.
"Ready to repay me?" Said Jon and I sighed a little.
"Of course.." I said.
After having sex with Jon, it's the same feeling. Guilt. Guilt and slight disgust to myself.
I hate myself and I didn't really know why I was with Jon. I liked him for the first two weeks but then everything just turned into sex... No talking, no cuddles, no kisses or cheesy signs of affection. Just sex and honestly? I was getting tired of it.
SHIT GUYS I KNOW IT'S SO SHORT AND I KNOW THAT IT TOOK SO LONG TO UPDATE! I'M SO SO SO SORRY! I JUST UPDATED THE BOY NEXT DOOR AND I HOPE YOU LIKE THAT ONE TOO.
PLEASE FORGIVE ME BUT YEAH CLARY DOESN'T LIKE JONATHON ANYMORE AND JACE IS COMING BACK AND ALEC IS GAY BUT YOU GUYS ALREADY KNEW THAT AND I'M SAD BECAUSE I'D LIKE TO DATE HIM BUT YEAH. BYE