A/n: thank you for the reviews, and happily they are all positive... did that make sense? IDK... Oh well l. So thanks again it really helps to know that people read this and like it. So on with the story...
(Major Time Skip to... after vacation)
You and Ryan are on a plane on your way home. Apparently Ryan live in Florid also. You and Ryan haven't talked about what your relationship is between the two of you due to you being scared to talk about it. Ryan is fixing a poker face mask on his face probably cause he doesn't want fans to see his face.
When the plane land you both go to get your luggage. You ask Ryan where in Florida does he live, tilting you head to the side. When he answers you are sad but don't show it since its two cities away from where you live. "Oh well I got to get home to find a job," you say. You hail a taxi and Ryan helps put your luggage in the trunk. "Bye Cry," you say without a backwards glance.
When you get home you go to start unpacking. When your almost done packing you find Ryan's green 'sup' sweat shirt with a sticky note on it. It says 'something to remember me by, (phone#)'. Looking at the note and then the sweat shirt you put the note on you cork board and put Ryan's sweat shirt on while trying not to cry and lay down on your bed. "How am I going to get through this?" You question your ceiling. 'Killing of course,' Maddie says in your head. "Wasn't asking you," you retort to the voice in your head. 'Well I'm the only one you have now (name),' Maddie replies back. You grab your laptop and start to record a video. But not the normal kind of video. No you are actually showing your face for the first time since you started making videos. "Hello people watching this it's me (YouTube name). I am recording this because well I'm having a hard time right now. So if you don't want to hear my problems that's fine just get off the fucking video. So my real name (full name) and I'm from (hometown). When I was 10 the doctors diagnosed me with MPD or Multiple Personality Disorder. So I have to take medication to control it but... my other 'personality' wants to take over completely. It's hard for me to control it and I don't know what to do. I've made friends in the real world and on the internet and some are in both worlds like Cry, Pewds, and Marzia. But I've lost most of my real world friends... your probably thinking that I'm doing this for attention... but I'm not. I'm not that type of girl. I just wanted to tell the truth of who I am and let my fans now I might not post videos for a while after this. So bye people of the internet," and you finish the video there. You post it on you account and let it load. You push your laptop away from you and cruel up on you side and cry until you fall asleep.
A/n: sorry for such a depressing chapter but it will get better I promise. By for now reader. ^-^