Hours had gone by, but to Clarke it had seemed so much longer.
Eventually, Abby came over and checked on Bellamy. She decided that he was improving, but he still hadn't woken up yet.
Clarke and Octavia continued to sit by Bellamy's side, making small talk every once and awhile.
"You care a lot about him don't you?" Octavia asked breaking the silence that they had been sitting in for some time.
"I've lost so many people, I just can't lose another person, Octavia."
"I saw your face when they brought him in. I've seen the way you two look at each other. Maybe you haven't realized it yet, but everyone else has."
"What are you saying?" Clarke asked confused.
"I know my brother, and I have never seen him look at anyone the way that he looks at you. Or listen to anyone like he does you." She said with a smile, "He doesn't say it, but he cares a lot about you, Clarke."
"Bellamy and I are just friends. We're…partners, a team." But she knew there was more to it than that.
Octavia just looked at her with a knowing smile and hoped that if...no...when Bellamy woke up, they would both finally realize what had been in front of them all along.
"I know you think that you loved Finn and maybe you did, but I don't think you were in love with him. I never saw that. Not when you two interacted, not in the way that I see it with you and my brother." Octavia said gesturing to Clarke and Bellamy.
"Right before Finn died, he told me he loved me and I told him that I did too. I think I just wanted him to believe it in his last moments. And I think I did love him in a way. I cared about him a lot and he was a great friend, but I don't think I was ever in love with him. Maybe just the idea of him? I wish I had realized this earlier. Saved Raven all the pain. And yet here I am again still causing her pain when it comes to Finn." Clarke said sadly.
"Clarke, what you did was brave and selfless. You did the right thing." Octavia said reassuringly.
Clarke smiled, "You know you and Bellamy are a lot more alike than you think. But, thanks. It doesn't feel like it though."
"I know it doesn't and it won't. Not for awhile, but it will get better."
Clarke nodded and they both returned to discussing more neutral topics.
After a few hours, Clarke reluctantly left to go help her mother with something, leaving Octavia and Bellamy behind in the med tent.
Clarke was helping her mother, both of them working in silence, lost in their own thoughts. Suddenly, Murphy burst into the room, startling both of the women.
"Murphy? What's wrong?" Clarke asked suddenly feeling panic overwhelm her.
"Octavia sent me to get you. She thinks Bellamy is waking up. She said he started moving around and mumbling. She wants the both of you to go check on him right now."
Clarke felt hope filling her heart when she heard Murphy's words. She looked at her mother with an excited and hopeful face.
Abby looked back at her, hopeful that her daughter maybe for once was going to have something good happen to her.
The three of them went over to the med tent, walking in to see Octavia and Lincoln smiling and talking to Bellamy at his bedside. Bellamy was awake, tired bags under his eyes, pale sweaty skin, but awake and alive.
Abby bent down and started examining Bellamy's vitals, his pulse, and pupils. She checked to make sure the stitches were still in, and that there were no signs of infection.
"I'm fine Doc. I need to go and do something, help someone with something. I'm done lying around." Bellamy said weakly trying to get up, but falling back down onto the cot.
"What you need is rest." Abby said sternly. "You will not be going anywhere until I give the say so, okay? Just rest and regain your strength. Make sure he gets plenty of fluids" She said turning to Clarke.
Clarke nodded and followed Abby out with Murphy and Lincoln, letting Octavia and Bellamy have a few moments alone.
"Hey mom," Clarke said reaching out to grab her mother's arm, "Thank you." Clarke said.
Abby smiled and touched Clarke's cheek, then walked back to finish what she had been doing before getting interrupted.
Clarke waited outside the tent until Octavia walked out.
"You can go see him now." Octavia said smiling knowingly. "I know you're dying to get in there. Don't even try and deny it!" She said before Clarke could even open her mouth to reply.
Clarke smiled, rolled her eyes, and stood up to hug Octavia. "I'm really glad he's going to be okay." She said.
"Me too." Octavia replied.
Clarke let go of her and walked back into the tent and sat next to Bellamy.
"I would hit you right now if you weren't injured." Clarke said.
"Clarke-" Bellamy started to say.
"No! I told you not to go out and you went anyway! Do you know how worried I was? I thought you were going to die!" Clarke shouted, all of a sudden the anger spilling out of her.
"I know. I'm sorry Clarke." Bellamy said apologetically.
"You need to start thinking about how what you do affects those around you! Did you even consider what might happen if you died? How I might feel? Bellamy, I just lost Finn! I don't know what I would have done if I had lost you too!" Clarke shouted, letting everything she had been feeling these past few days out.
Bellamy looked at her, "I'm sorry you were worried, but I'm not sorry that I left. As a leader you know what it's like to make a decision that you think is right and that can be beneficial to your people. I know you're hurt Clarke, but I'm okay." Bellamy said, gingerly reaching out to run his thumb down Clarke's cheek.
"If you ever do something stupid like this again I will kill you." Bellamy rolled his eyes at her exaggeration. "We're a team, Bellamy. We make decisions together."
"Okay Clarke" Bellamy smiled sleepily.
All of a sudden, Clarke bent down to hug him fiercely, breathing in his scent. He was shocked for a moment, thrown again by her blatant display of affection, but soon his arms circling around her middle.
"Get some rest and I will check on you later, okay?" Clarke said into his ear.
Bellamy nodded against her head.
They let go of each other and Clarke stood up. She started to walk out, but stopped, turning to face Bellamy.
"I'm really glad that you're okay, Bell." Clarke said smiling and leaving the tent.
For the longest time she had felt like she was drowning, but now she felt like she could finally breathe again.
A/N: Thank you for the reviews! The final chapter will be uploaded in a few days! The 100 comes back this Wednesday! I'm so excited! :)