Chapter 8 Part 1

Hearing Yohan's voice sent such chills up my spine and I could no longer tell what emotion those chills

After I let the park I felt like a stone doll. My limbs were heavy and no matter what I did I felt like I was in the line of fire. So I decided to make myself useful and do some pretending. Truthfully I was in no hurry to see Ada. I had gotten a text from Alice who informed me Ada had broken my window into my home and was lounging on my couch watching my Netflix account. I grimaced. She meant no harm other than to shatter my sanity clearly. Alice tells me she'd be invested into 'Orange is the new Black' long enough for me to come back. I wanted, no needed to enjoy my last few minutes of piece so here I was. Being human.

I went into town and proceeded to grocery shop. I had not been in Kitsap for a while and it was nice to see some of the normal human friends, particularly those ones who worked at the grocery store. There was one woman who always gave such an inviting smile and smelled especially delicious. She was very beautiful for a human. She always gave me nervous looks, though. Sometimes I wondered what humans really thought about us. Was it curiosity? Perhaps fear? Whatever it was it was intriguing.

What was more interesting is what vampire found intriguing in humans. What had I missed when Yohan found an apparently brain dead Ada in plane crash and decided to reclaim her? Why did Edward fall in love in with one so absolutely thoroughly? I steadied myself and decided now, as I was in the checkout line, was the best time to do something I had not did in months.

I reached very slowly into my purse and pulled out a cell phone. My fingers knew the number and I slowly-so very slowly- typed it in.

The phone rang only twice, before a deep accented voice answered.

"Lucy, I was starting to think you had begun to think you hated me." He mused. Yohan's voice gave me emotions I had no knew I still had. Electric currents flew through me and I repressed a frown at my weakness.

"Never." I say too quickly and was disappointed I was telling the truth. I lower my voice.

"You can call me, you know. Cells do work two ways."

"EH! Technology!" He made a gagging sound. "Parish the idea. I am always breaking this vile piece of plastic. I'd never understand humans of this generation."

I laugh a little. I am next in line, but the lady who typically works is not here. There is another teenager working. She has curly hair and glasses, I had seen her at school, but she was a senior so I did not know her name.

"How…how is life?" I ask finally. Yohan's big boisterous laugh cracks through the phone.

"I am as strong as ox in my afterlife. You know that? Lucy dearest, what bugs you? Do you need more blood?"

"No, no! honestly I have been enjoying a new…vegan diet. I'll have to tell you all about it later. Reguardless, how is Ada?"

"She called to me about a week ago. Saying something about Alaska. Of course I pleaded with her to come home, but you know her."

It was quiet and I suddenly felt so snappy.

"Why do you let her do this to you?"

"My heart. She is it. I cannot do anything without her." He says slowly and matter-of-factly.

"That does not make any sense! You can love anyone, any way you want." I make an attempt to smile at the cashier woman as she scans my case of water. She looks very interesting my conversation. I had to make my whispers more human like so I was sure she heard every word. I resisted a frown and regretted buying so many groceries.

"Ada is still young. I can only fault myself for being so boring and lack luster that she'd need to find adventure elsewhere."

"That does not make sense either. Yohan, you are selling yourself short and you know it. If ada was smart enough she'd know you are the best adventure."

"Lucette, that is sweet. But I'd beg you not to talk down about Ada."

Even when I was standing up for him, Ada was still better than me! I frowned heavily and fixed my expression fast.

"Are you ever going to admit Ada is less than perfect?"

"She is not! She is perfect in every way. She is kind and more beautiful than all the suns."

"Is that why she rather spend months away from you? Because she is kind. We both know Ada is not just traveling the world looking at the scenery."

Perhaps that was unlike me, but I was blazing mad and I was feeling threatened. Ada would not led the voultori here. And if I had to sell out the object of affection's lover then so be it!

Anything for my coven.

"You lewd dog! Lucy how could say something so vile? Do I even know you!?"

"Yohan. Look." I said softly. I pay the lady and I was all to egger to leave the store with my basket of groceries. As I get to my car s soft snow is starting.

"Ada has hurt you and took you for granted. That is not my opinion. That is my fact. She used you for a crutch, because as soon as she could she leaves you. She leaves you and enjoys the company of others. Yohan. She loves you because you gave her power. When you found Ada bleeding and broken you assumed that being her knight in shining armor would make her love you. You assumed it would be a life for a life. But that is a imperfect fairy tale. Not everyone gets that happily ever after."

"What are you saying?" he cries in a fury. I never made Yohan mad. I flinched as my hands quickly loaded up my car.

"Ada does not owe you her heart because you were a "nice guy" to her. I'm sorry, but Ada does not love you…not in the way…not in the way I love you."

The phone was dead for a while and Yohan cursed under his breath.

"You know it in your heart don't you?! Think about the way she looks at you, Yohan. Think about her eyes for Christ's sake! You are the rich old man who gives her money in her eyes!"

"Lucy. I love her. And you and your jealous wicked mind cannot change that!"

I stopped. "What?"

"Ada told me about you. About your jealousy for her. I should have known. Everyone is Jealousy of my Ada. That is why you attacked her."

"Don't get the wrong idea Yohan, I-"

"DO NOT SPEAK UNLESS YOU ARE APOLOGIZING FOR WHAT YOU HAVE CALLED HER, SLAVE. JUST BECAUSE YOU ARE A VAMPIRE DO NOT FORGET YOUR SAVGE ROOTS!."

I narrowed my eyes.

"You can choose not to listen. That is fine. But I will not be silence by any man. I am no slave. Ada is here in Washington. I watched her murder a child. And when I saw her she was adorned the volutori drab. You understand what that means. She is gone for good. She never wanted you. She never will. And even knowing that- even knowing you had someone who did love you, it was not good enough. Because deep down you were just as bigoted as she was. Well listen to me. Like it not, Ada is long gone. I wanted you to know this, because I could not bare you hurt. Yohan…I…"

I hung on him. I hung up so hard my fingers crushed the little buttons and smashed the screen of the phone. I could handle the emotional pressure and what supposed to be a finger tap made a whole in the phone.

"Shit." I said dropping the crumpling pieces to the sidewalk. I get into my car and start to drive. If choosing another girl was not heartbreaking enough now I understand that I would not ever be good enough. I wish I could cry, but all I feel is rage and determination. This kitty had claws and if Ada so much made a move towards the Cullens I would have the most delicious revenge. Of course that would mean Yohan would haunt me down. I do not think I was strong enough to kill him though. I still loved him, but at least I could leave him hurt and scared. I pictured Yohan sizing up Emmett. Yohan was stalk, but not nearly as tall as Emmett. I pictured him looking at Jasper and seeing his scars and feeling all the things I felt.

Anger.

Betrayal.

Hurt.

Love.

Stupid me.

Part II

I grumbled loudly as I pulled up.

Ada, I could smell her. This was my reality now. I made an effort to pick up some of my groceries and haul them inside. I tried not to notice my window shattered and the glass on my drive way. Snow had been piling in my home for hours, leaving what I knew to be water damaged from melting snow on my carpet. I unlocked m door and I was greeted by Ada.

Well greeted is too nice of a word. I would like to say 'plagued' instead.

She was wearing one of mysilk pajamas, but she had ripped it to where it was way above her thigh. The sleeves were torn and she made sure to silt down the once chaste v-neck to where there was no imagination needed. Her long black hair was side swept and hung flat

"Welcome home!" she praises happily. Her arms in the air. and my eyes glimmer with hate.

I walk around her, careful to slam my door close behind me. I started to put the groceries as human pace. It's give me more to focus on.

"Oh come on, Lucy don't be that way. Are you still miffed about a few days ago?" Her voice is so sweet t is crushing. I wish I could rip her voice box out.

"One is not just a little miffed about murdering a child." I growl back unloading a pack of chips.

"He was like 17. Humans are practically passed their prime by 16." She says jumping on my counter top. She pumped her legs as I continued putting up groceries like a child on a swing set.

As much as I hated her I rather Ada be here than by the Cullens.

"Why did you defile my wardrobe?" I ask. The home was be expected. Ada is destructive by nature, but digging through my personals.

"Well your clothes are boring! It's not the 1930s you know?" She leans on my counters so she is laying down seductively.

"You like it right?" she mused and I tell her to go to hell before walking back to my car to get the last of the groceries. I hear her laugh.

When I come back in she is in the position. I ask if she is going to ruin my home she could at least help. She shakes her head. "Nah, A body like mine doesn't work."

"You are stuck up."

"You are too." She fires back which surprises me. Am I?! No. That can't be true. I sit on my couch and sure enough my Netflix was playing.

"Great pad by the way, Lucy. A girl could really get used to this non nomad life! …very humble."

"Thank you. I say dryly.

"That's not a good thing." Lucy says as she sits next to me on my couch. I wanted to burn the seat she was on. I stare her down and she stared back only to laugh and throw her arms around me and hug me.

"Come here kitty." She purrs and I growl. "I've missed you."

"Well I haven't missed you." I say prying her off me. She giggles and pokes my cheek.

"Don't be like that…is this about Yohan?"

I stiffen, but look away.

"Oh Lucy grow up. Its been years…Don't you owe it yourself to get over it." She says holding my hand. I keep my eyes on the floor.

"Look you are here and he is there. You could at least try acting like it." I hate to admit it, but Ada is right. I should not be sad over a fight with a man who is not my lover.

"Besides why would he be with you when he is got me?" She sings happily. Was that supposed to make me feel better? I hissed at her.

"Relax! We aren't…together right now."

"Excuse me."

"We had a fight and I left."

I narrowed my eyes. What she really meant is that she got bored.

"Lucy, Lucy. We an eternity, do you really think I'd spend it making a wrong choice? These things happen…" She leans back prompting her feet on my lap. I stiffen to avoid killing her and after a few moments I talk.

"He thinks you are coming back you know."

She laughs and shrugs her thin shoulders. "He always does, love. It's a game of cat and mouse. And you know I never lost a game of hide and seek."

"That is cruel…he'd give his life for you and you are just….You don't even care do you?"

Her eyes are closed and they look like she hasn't slept in years with the purple shadows under just above her cheeks. Her pink lips are smirking and she lets go a deep yawn.

"So Kitty. You going let me crash or what?"

She ignores my question, but I know the answer. My blood boils and for a moment I was a newborn again seething with anger and bloodlust. I bare my teeth and hutch my shoulders like a cat stalking prey. Ada's right eye opens lazily.

"Why so serious? Do you really think you can kill me?" she taunts. "And break Yohan's heart?"

I stiffen and stop breathing. She closes her again. "Lucy. Sweet pathetic Lucy. You know if you kill me Yohan would never forgive you. And if you think one little fight made him mad…well…" she smiles again and puts her arms behind her head. "You think I don't know everything Lulu? About the fight? Even about your little student the half breed? Oh please."

She opens her eyes again. They are red and they burn into my head. For a minute I almost felt actual fire licking at my face from her glare. "I'm royalty now. Being the volutori gives me power you do not understand. In fact you should feel honor I graced you with my presence."

"Are you blackmailing me?" I ask.

She laughs and sits up. Her soft hands caress my face and in one fluid motion she sits behind me and wraps her thin arms around my shoulders.

"No. You are like family. I actually came here for you dearest. You see Aro sees my amazing potential. I cannot blame him. He wants me to be one his closet companions, expect I am not yet ready. You see every princess needs a lady in waiting."

My jaw snaps and I dare not breathe in her awful scent. "Why me?"

"Well can you picture, if I Ada, was to be more perfect. It's so hard to imagine even for us immortals. Surely Aro himself would sit me on the throne and bow to me…Everyone would bow to me."

She wanted to use my power?

"And if I refuse?"

"You won't." she sings in my ear. She kisses my forehead. "Because you love Yohan more than anything else in this world, it would be absolutely heartbreaking if something cut his very long and boring life short."

It was silent for a long time. I felt a fear different from Jacob, but it still gave the same jolts of pain in my frozen heart.

"He is your husband; no…he is your mate. Ada have you no heart?"

She laughs and shakes her head. "While I was away I found myself enchanted by another. Nothing can compare to Alec and he and I shall be together. I will be a queen. Far better than Jane. Think about it. Me…and you together. Ruling. For forever."

It is silent again and she sighs. "Honestly Lulu I am too good to you. Think it over for a month or so."

Think it over?! I have no choice!

I feel dizzy and I wonder if vampires can pass out. Lucy then smiles and gets up. "Well! I am off to bed. You don't me taking your bed right?"

"We don't sleep." I say softly.

"Well then you won't mind me using your bed." She winks at me and walks away towards my bedroom. She was toying with me. No she was pushing me. I had no choice. I am left on the couch and I can hear Her turn on my TV. For hours she switches from TV shows and porn and I wonder how much a sadist is really is.

Yohan would never believe me if I tried. He think I was against him and Ada and leave it to actress Ada to play up the role. There were only a few people who'd believe me and I dare not even find them due to fear of what Ada could do. I think about emailing Alice, but she already knows. I sit for a long time in the dark. Listening to bad programming and lewd moans.

I thought about Nessie. I think about my students. I recall how great my life here in Kitsap was. Ada must have known the volutori never really love her, but my talents were different. I figured Aro knew all about me now. Or at least what Ada knew about me. I thanked my lucky stars that were not much.

Then suddenly.

It came to me. The volutori would never miss a wannabe like Ada. I simply refused to be associated with that filth of a coven in Italy. Perhaps I couldn't kill her.

But Jacob surely could.

Yes. I'd lure her onto Quileute turf. I'd do it so Nessie and I could be rid of her stench forever. I swear I felt my heart quicken with excitement, then with sorrow for Yohan.

I dream of a life without her, but a life without her means Yohan would be forever broken hearted. Ada was right. I loved him more than I hated her. Could I kill her when it meant killing Yohan too? I looked over my shoulder at my laptop on the dining room table. I swiftly walked over to it and booted it up. I half expected to see emails from Alice, but I had not recognized the email in the blank subject. It was from Yohan.

Dear Lucette

I am regretful and very ashamed of my words. I feel like I had blasphemed and I should have my tongue ripped out. I cannot defend my words, but I can apologize for them. I realized you were just looking out what was best for me. Please accept my apology. I also know you and Ada are together and spending time as coven mates. I must have been wrong about your jealousy as well. You seem to hold Ada's attention far better than I ever did. I am as clueless as an ass. I miss you Lucy. And Ada misses you. I am on my way to your location and should arrive in a few days. We can all live together again. Untill next time.

It was from Yohan.

I suppressed a deep growl of hurt. Even now I am just a second thought even though his life is in danger. When Ada vanishes I cannot trace her. She's get to Yohan far before I could even know what happened. I think about her offer. I picture Ada's thin pale frame on a solid stone throne. She is laughing and drinking blood from a wine glass. Only as she sips she looks more like me. I touch my iris and look at my reflection in the screen. My eyes were a dull brownish gold. No as bright as Cullens, but almost all traces of red was starting to retract. How much like was I? Willing to kill to get what I want- Yohan.

Even if Ada was dead.

I'd still be second best. I thought about Jacob's expression at the Christmas party suddenly. They were so deep I thought I never even reach any level of comprehension of that emotion. But right now looking at my reflection, I think I understand.

Before logging out I type up a quick email to Alice. Suddenly I hear my door crack open and Ada steps out. She is grinning.

For the first time I realize that was morning. Ada is wearing a pair of my jeans and boots. The jeans are ripped, but I did not buy them that way. I grimace.

"Good morning, my dear." Her voice is happy and she reaches out to hug me. I dodge her embrace and tell her that I do not wish to be anywhere her fingers are. She laughs although not ashamed.

"Oops. I must have been a little too loud. Oh well."

Ada then asked me to go out with her to have fun. She wanted to the town. I want to refuse, but I was not about to let a vampire loose on the streets. I agreed to follow her and show her some of the tourist attractions. Ada was always bored and seemed to always want more.

Part 2

It was almost evening when Ada got the point that I was purposely dragging her places that lacked in people. The out city limits, the forest and hiking trails, the lakes and rivers. I am surprised that she was dumb enough not to catch on earlier, but here we were, in the Forrest lit by orange soaked sky and loose snowflakes spinning onto the cold rocky ground.

"Take me to where you work." She says.

Even on a winter vacation I would not chance students being on the grounds.

"Teachers are not allowed on the grounds when we aren't paid." I lied. "Break is over in two days though."

My heart drops and I suddenly wish all this will be over before then. I missed their normal, blood filled faces.

"Well then what do you for fun?"

"I read."

"That bullshit you at the house. Not fun. Where is the fun Lucy? Surely you aren't the only vampire here in area. I can smell male all over you."

I stiffen and start giving her facts about the lake in front of us. She makes a face and then smiles. "Lucy baby. Don't ignore me. You know how much I hate that right."

I know what she meant. Most times I reeked of the Cullen's girls, but males smelled genetically different. Stronger. More potent. Especially when around their mates. It really demonstrated how animalistic we really were. That bear hug Emmett gave me, that high five from Jasper. Even that humble back pat from Carlisle was liable to stain my body for weeks. As I debate this I watched Ada grow more and more impatient with me.

"If you won't entertain me, then I am going out for dinner." She announces.

"NO!" I roar reaching for her, but her body is already twisting out of my sight. I try reaching her with my power, but my chains are too slow. I cannot see or smell her any longer.

And when it comes to vampires a few seconds could send her clear over a state line if they ran fast enough. I curse under my breath and take off. I never planned for her to hunt. If anyone got hurt because of me…

I think to follow the stronger scent of human, but Ada would not follow anything obvious. She knew I'd look for her.