Through The Darkness ch. 9
Sasuke's P.O.V.
I don't know where I was going but I need to get away from where I was. I don't why I thought that Naruto could love someone like me. I'm too damage to love or be around. I saw the dobe at the pizza place with a bunch of guys. One of them was giving the 'fuck me here on this table' look and I didn't like how close the red head was sitting next to him.
He looks really look at the dobe and don't want the guy near him. Wait… am I jealous? No, I'm not jealous. I just don't like the guy being so close to Naruto and nothing else. I continue walking until someone grabs my wrist. I turn to see that it's Naruto and he seems concerned. Why would he be concerned about me? He was flirting with his little friend.
"What do you want, dobe?" I asked glaring at him.
"Well, I want you and your fine self" Naruto said smirking.
I feel my cheeks burning when he stares at me like. I shake my head, ridding myself of those thoughts. I can't do this with him. I free myself from his grip and continue to walk away. I need to get away from Naruto and clear my head. I don't know what the hell I'm feeling and the blond isn't helping right now. Lately, I've been having weird mood swings and cravings. I usually ignore it but it seems to be getting worse.
"Come on Sasuke-kun, talk to me. Why aren't you talking to me?" Naruto asked walking next to me.
Why can't he take a hint? I don't want to talk him because he's an idiot. I just ignore, hoping that he'll just give up and leave. Naruto persists and probes me for answers. I was slowly getting angrier by the second and I know that I'm gonna exploded any moment.
"Sasuke, please talk to me. What's wrong?" He asked his voice filled with worry. '
"You wanna know what's wrong with me. I'm mad as hell. I'm mad as hell that you were in the place with that red haired guy!" I yelled angrily.
All my anger and rage was finally coming out. I took it all out on Naruto because he's there and an easy target. Why he did have to be in that place with that guy? Why wasn't it that he was with? I guess… I'm a little jealous that Naruto was with that guy. I feel myself being pulled into a chest and a pair of warm arms wrap themselves around my waist.
My face is in the crook of the dobe's neck. I inhale his scent and he smells like sweat and ramen. I like how he smells and I nuzzled my face into his neck. I want more of his scent and be close to him. I can't explain it but I feel safe and wanted when I'm with Naruto. I don't like being away from him but I'm no good for him. I'm not good enough for. I'm too damaged to deal with but I want him by my side.
"I didn't know that you felt that way, Sasuke. If it was bothering that much, you should've said something. I don't like Gaara like that if that's what you're thinking" Naruto said rubbing circles in my back.
I don't know why but I find it really soothing. His fingers feel really good and I wonder what they would feel like all over my body. What the hell? Why the hell am I thinking that for? I don't like Naruto like that… do I? I don't know what the hell I'm feeling right now.
"Whatever" I said trying to pull away from him.
He has a firm grip on my waist and I look him in the eyes. Every time I look into those blue eyes of his, I feel myself getting lost in them. I get this tingling feeling in the pit of my stomach.
"My heart belongs to you and only you. I do love you and I will prove it to you no matter what it takes" Naruto said smiling.
The next thing I knew, I was throwing up my guts in a nearby trash. I don't know why I was feeling sick all of a sudden. I hadn't eaten anything today so why was I throw up. Naruto was rubbing my back I finally finish throwing up whatever was left in my stomach.
"Are you okay, Sasuke-kun?" He asked worried.
"I don't know but I've been feeling really weird lately" I said holding my stomach.
"Come on, I'm taking you to a hospital" He said we walked to my car.
Naruto gets into the driver's seat and I'm in passenger seat. I didn't have to throw up, thank Kami. When we got the hospital, we got to see a doctor rather quickly since it was a slow day. They ran a bunch of tests and poked me with needles. I hate hospital because they always give you medication for the simplest of things and usually nothing is wrong with you. Naruto stayed by my side the whole thing and I'm grateful to him for it. The doctor comes back with a clipboard in hand.
"What's wrong with me, Doctor?" I asked curious.
"Son, I don't know how to tell you this" The doctor said scratching his head.
"Just tell me what's wrong with me and give me the medication" I said annoyed.
"Unfortunately son, there isn't medication for this type of thing. According to the tests and the blood work, you're… pregnant" The doctor said looking me in the eyes.
"Say what now?" I asked confused.
"Sasuke, you're pregnant. I mean you're having someone's baby" He explains.
I know what pregnant means but I couldn't believe that I'm having a baby. How the hell is that even possible? I can't wrap my head around this. A thought suddenly hit me. The world stopped all of sudden and time is slowing down. I'm pregnant with Orochimaru's baby. I'm carrying my rapist's child inside of me. Just when I thought I was getting my life, fate takes it all from up under me in a instant.
I'm numb to everything that's around me. I'm tuned out everything that the doctor was telling me and just walked out of the hospital. I don't want to deal with any of this. I walk pass my car and let my feet carry to wherever. I don't care anymore. I don't care where I end up. I don't care about anything. I just want to crawl into a hole and die.
Why does this have to happen to me? What did I do to deserve this? I'm not bad person. I never hurt anyone but I get hurt in the most painful way. I lost my dignity and any self respect I had for myself. This world sucks and I don't want to be in it anymore. I stop and realize that I was standing in front of a construction site. Accidents happen all the time so why not one more.
Another accident couldn't hurt anyone… least anyone important. I walk into the construction site only to be pulled back out by an unknown force. I look to see that it's Naruto and the look on his face hurts my heart. The look on his face is a mixture hurt, concern, confusion and anger. He doesn't say anything but just hugs. Why is he here? Why is he hugging me? He knows that I'm pregnant with someone else's child and yet… he's trying to comfort me. Why is he doing this for me? I don't deserve it.
"Sasuke-kun, please… don't. Don't leave me like that again. I was worried that something happened to you" He said shaking.
I look at him and tears were running down his face. He's crying because of me and my stupidity. I never meant to hurt him. I was being selfish and not considering what he felt.
"I'm sorry, Naruto" I said hugging him.
Dun Dun DUNNNNNNN! Shocker, ain't it. Okay this is the last possible bad thing that will happen to Sasuke from here on out. He hits rock bottom and now he either decides to stay in the hole or climb his way out. Either way, it can't get any worse at this point.
End of ch. 9