So... I reckon you all hate me huh? Six months of no updates... I'm surprised I don't have hate mail to be honest. It's never taken me so long to update. Theoretically I could use my semester that just finished a week ago as an excuse, as it was my third year of university, lots of third year courses and a shit ton of work, plus all my theatrical engagements. But to be honest, my writing has suffered the last six months. Hadn't been doing much of it (other than essays and those suck).

But enough excuses, I should have updated at least something. Especially considered I had four pages written during the summer. Nonetheless... I am updated now (obviously) and to make up for the six long months of not updating... I have made this chapter longer and JUICER! Oo-lah-lah!

2am... work at 9am... goodnight and enjoy! Thank you to those who continue to read this despite my horrible lack of updates!

Disclaimer: I do not own Naruto.

Chapter Two:

"You seem unusually energetic." The silver haired man commented on the constant tapping of fingers on the thigh next to his.

Sasuke merely glanced to where his mentor was directing his gaze and examined the unnatural fidgeting his body was displaying. Looking down at his foot, he noticed that it too was tapping on the floor of the car. He acknowledged these actions with a long, subtle sigh.

"If you're going to brood about it you might as well explain it." Kakashi insisted, turning back to keep an eye on the road. He could easily guess what was bothering his co-worker and friend of several years but he wasn't the type to simply give everything away. It would be better for the young raven if he got what he needed off his chest in his own awkward words.

Sasuke shot an irritated glare in Kakashi's direction. He hated this little game, he was all too familiar. No matter how much he hated expressing emotions, Kakashi could get it out of him with simple sentences such as that. It was his tone, his expression and the inevitable punishment if he didn't divulge.

"It's been a while." Sasuke muttered briefly. He knew that wouldn't satisfy the older man but he had to hope.

"Really? I would have never guessed."

Kakashi's sarcasm only earned him another morbid glare before Sasuke sighed loudly and ran his hand through his hair. "You already know the story. Guaranteed you already know this, even though you haven't seen him before, but he's the one I had the affair with... and the one who left me."

Sasuke knew Kakashi's skills of observation and deduction, sure he wasn't Sherlock Holmes but he was pretty damn good. Kakashi probably put everything together, Sasuke's lack of composure, how guarded the blonde was, it didn't take rocket science.

"Never was one for blondes." Kakashi's sentence breezed off his lips, taking away all seriousness to the conversation.

Sasuke's eyebrow raised ever-so slightly to this comment. "So how was it that you only came out to me after I came out and dealt with all this bullshit?"

It still irritated Sasuke quite a bit. If he had known that his mentor since youth had been gay as well as him, things might have turned out different for him and Naruto... and Sakura. He may have had more confidence and courage to come out of the closet and accept himself for who he was. He could have avoided that rather violent fight that put him on suspension for a month. But no, Kakashi had to move back to town three days after his final conversation with Naruto as lovers. He heard all the details and basically the next words out of his mouth were "That's why gay guys like ourselves shouldn't marry ladybits." Sasuke was lucky he was still in the hospital because if not... he would have gotten a longer suspension for beating up a commanding officer.

"Need to know basis. I couldn't corrupt you in your youth. Then I moved away and corrupting long distance is just no fun."

"You only moved away when I was 16, Kakashi. I've seen you dating boys the same age as me at that age."

"They were all eighteen and nineteen thank you very much, except that one but his birthday was in a few months and all freshmen are up for grabs."

Sasuke didn't know how this man managed it, but somehow Kakashi's twisted logic and reasoning always left Sasuke both amused and a little concern for his perverted older friend. More so concerned do to the fact that if Kakashi dipped any lower into the age stream he might get more than a simple suspension.

A sigh brought one of the silver haired man's eyebrows to a rise.

"Does it bother you that much?" He asked in a rare serious and concerned voice.

Sasuke ran his hand through his dark hair yet again, it was a habit he'd exhibit when frustrated or deep in thought. He honestly didn't know if it did bother him. He knew that looking back, he should have done things differently, but he wasn't sure if he actually regretted the years spent with Sakura.

He had married Sakura when he was twenty-three years old... on June 14th 2008, a month before his 24th birthday. They were together for just over a year in their marriage, happy and content. Although Sasuke had always felt uncomfortable to a certain degree. He discovered why one night, in September of 2009, when he'd been out drinking with friends after work. He walked home on his own and happened to run across a certain bar that suddenly intrigued him. He ventured in on his own and after ordering a drink, he shortly discovered that it was a gay bar. Watching the couples who were making out in the corners or dancing intimately on the dance floor awakened something in him that Sakura never had the ability to do. That terrified him and for a week he avoided that place and any idea that happened to relate to that nature.

Soon he realized that he couldn't avoid it and despite how much his morals protested, he made his way back to that bar Saturday night. He was nervous at first and sat alone at a table, attempting to look as unattainable as possible. However, one person dared to accompany him at his lonesome table. The young man had brilliant, bright blue eyes which reflected the dancing lights perfectly. But it was his smile that won the raven over. He couldn't get over how warm, playful, unique and enchanting that wide smile was.

Despite the inner voices of morality screaming against this, Sasuke invited him to sit and they talked the entire night. The blonde man with the sparkling blue eyes was studying to be a History teacher. He was thoroughly interested in Sasuke's career choice of becoming a detective, although he related it more to movies like "I, Robot" and a manga called "Fake." Sasuke soon learned that this man had an affinity for Will Smith.

When the bar closed, both men were surprised as they had talked so deeply that they'd become absorbed in their own world. However, regardless of time, Sasuke didn't want this to end. He'd never had such a strong chemistry with someone in his life. Not even Sakura compared, although they had conversations where they got lost in their own world but there was always something missing. But with this man, who's presence he found irresistible, nothing was missing. He craved to stay in his company, to be near him.

Exiting the bar didn't take long as there wasn't much of a crowd at four in the morning. Sasuke asked his new acquaintance which direction he lived and if he could drive him home. Sasuke knew he shouldn't have asked that but he couldn't help it. He ignored the guilty thoughts that bombarded his mind as he was given a direction which lead away from his own home but was told that it was only a few blocks away so he would not need a drive. Sasuke pushed his boundaries of ethics by asking if he could walk the blonde home. This offer was accepted and they walked and talked just as they had in the bar. Lost in their own world, Sasuke was surprised when it was announced that they'd made it to their destination.

Sasuke wasn't sure what was going on with his mind but he felt confident when he was near this man. He felt like he knew exactly what he was doing and he could mold him under his charm. It was probably the most adorable scene Sasuke had witnessed as his companion fumbled with his keys, trying to draw out their time even further. The door was opened and when the blonde turned around to say his goodbyes he found that Sasuke was incredibly close to him. Without anymore thought on what was wrong and what was right, Sasuke wrapped his arm around the blonde's waist and pulled him close. There was no protest as their lips collided in what Sasuke could only describe as his first real kiss. The door was quickly closed behind them and Sasuke disappeared into what would eventually become his future affair.

"Was he your first?" Kakashi's random question pulled Sasuke from his memories.

Sasuke narrowed his eyes at his superior for his incredible intuition and a possible ability to read minds. Despite how many times Sasuke had been told he could be the player type, he never really was. Naruto was the first and last man he'd ever been with. "Yeah."

"How long before you told him you were married?"

Sasuke looked at Kakashi before staring out the window reminiscently. That was a night that Sasuke could never forget.

Sasuke breathed long and hard as he stood outside the door to his lover's apartment. It had been six weeks since the night at the bar, when they met and talked until closing. Sasuke was horrified of knocking on that door. Knocking on it, having his lover open the door, and then throw him out. He had to tell him. He had to tell him the truth. Sasuke knew it had to be done, despite how much he wanted to pretend he was two different people, he couldn't. He had to merge them somehow and explain everything.

Three loud knocks were followed by footsteps and then the door swung open, greeting the raven with a bright smile, beautiful blue eyes and blonde locks of hair.

"Hey there handsome." Naruto beamed, moving aside to let Sasuke enter.

Sasuke smiled as best he could, given the circumstances and the choice he was determined to make. He stepped into the apartment, the familiar scent and objects flooded his senses. He didn't want to give this up, this man, this life, this feeling. He took off his shoes and jacket like usual before proceeding to follow Naruto into the living room.

The living room, however, was slightly unfamiliar with the amount of boxes, some opened and some closed, some empty and some with items packed away.

"What's with the boxes? Are you moving?" Sasuke asked, momentarily forgetting his goal.

"Looks like." Naruto ran his fingers through his hair. "My grandmother passed away a few months ago."

Sasuke gave a look of concern and made to express his sympathy for Naruto's experience. He knew Naruto, like himself, didn't have parents so losing another loved one must be hard. But Naruto continued without allowing Sasuke to speak.

"It's okay. She lived a good life. But she, well since I'm the only one left except my would-be aunt, she left her house to me in her will, along with everything else. All the paperwork has finally been settled and I've gotten the house in order, so it's about time I move in."

Sasuke nodded, it sounded like Naruto was good at handling stressful situations. He also become that way, considering his past. "Would you like some help? Packing?"

Naruto smiled but there was a certain level of mischief in his eyes. "Sure, I'd appreciate it. But... not right now. I have other plans for this evening."

Sasuke laughed, rolling his eyes. "Oh I'm sure you do." He replied in a suggestive tone.

The blonde grinned as he closed the distance between their bodies, pressing them together. Sasuke smirked and ran his hands down the blonde's back, gripping his tight ass when he reached it.

"Mm." Naruto purred against Sasuke's neck, running his hands underneath Sasuke's button up shirt and caressing his bare skin.

Sasuke growled as he leaned forward, taking Naruto's earlobe into his mouth, running his tongue along it and nibbling on it, making Naruto gasp and moan softly.

Suddenly, Naruto pulled them back onto the couch. Unknown to Sasuke, Naruto must have been shuffling them backwards in order to gain the proper distance for them to fall somewhat gracefully on the small couch.

Sasuke established his dominant position above Naruto, pressing their hips together as he began to devourer the blonde's neck and collarbone that he exposed by pulling the random band labelled t-shirt down.

Naruto moaned beneath the raven's hot body, tilted his head back to give Sasuke better access while his hands deftly unbuttoned Sasuke's shirt. The blonde's hand then pushed the shirt off Sasuke's shoulders and finally down his arms to free him of the fabric.

Sasuke momentarily paused in his assault on Naruto's neck to lift the hindering shirt from Naruto's bodies. He tossed it carelessly on the floor before attacking Naruto's chest and nipples with his lips, tongue and teeth.

The blonde arched his back and moaned loudly as Sasuke took one of his nipples between his teeth, licking and sucking it alternately between the affectionate yet bruising bites.

As Sasuke's mouth occupied Naruto's chest, his hands quickly disposed of Naruto's belt and undid the fly to his jeans before shoving them down off his hips. With the offending pants out of his way, Sasuke's hand dove underneath Naruto's boxers and wrapped his fingers around Naruto's hot member. Naruto threw his head back with a loud moan as he thrust his hips up, pleading for more. But Sasuke wasn't going to give into his that easily. His grip on the length relaxed before he began stroking it in a tantalizingly slow motion. Naruto writhed beneath him, attempting to move his hips to encourage Sasuke's speed but Sasuke used his opposite hand to hold the blonde's hips down. Naruto's breathing grew more rapid and impatient as he twisted his body about.

"Please..." He breathed heavily, eyelids flicking in reaction to the wonderful yet torturous feeling he was enduring.

Sasuke's eyebrow arched and he gazed down at his enthralled lover. "Please what?" He asked with a coy smirk.

The raven received a deep rooted glare through pleasure glazed cerulean eyes. Naruto's mouth, which previously lay wide open to allow all his gasps and silent moans to escape, shut instantly in a frustrated frown.

Sasuke immediately firmly gripped Naruto's member, causing the blonde's mouth to open once more with a loud, pleading moan. Before Naruto could get more satisfaction, Sasuke released his grip and repeated his slow, teasing strokes.

Naruto's eyes watered with need and his breathing quickened as he stared up at the raven. "Please... Sasuke... Faster."

With a quick smirk, Sasuke complied with Naruto's request so that the blonde was moaning and thrusting to completion.

The blonde fell back against the couch, dazed and out of breath. However, he did not have much time to recover from his state of bliss, because Sasuke had made quick work of their boxers and his pants and had already retrieved the bottle of lube and one of the condoms that Naruto kept in the stand next to the couch.

Naruto shivered when he felt the cold substance on his ass as Sasuke's fingers caressed his hole. Sasuke's well lubed fingers didn't waste anymore time before intruding upon his lover's opening, spreading it wide with two fingers to start.

Naruto groaned slightly but was still washed over with calm that it didn't bother him much.

Sasuke's fingers stretched him before curving and rubbing that sweet little spot that woke Naruto up from his blissful state and had him moaning and arching his back once more as he pushed his hips down to further impale himself upon Sasuke's fingers.

Sasuke grinned at Naruto's reaction before retracting his fingers and applying lube to his own member. Naruto squirmed on the couch and made little pleading gasps as Sasuke rubbed his head against the opening but didn't enter him. Once again he was teasing the blonde until he begged for more.

"Sasuke... please... I need you... fuck me." Naruto groaned as his eyes locked onto the raven's ever watchful orbs.

Sasuke didn't hesitate to comply as he thrust himself deep within Naruto's tight, welcoming entrance. They both breathed heavily and loudly once Sasuke was fully engulfed by Naruto but Sasuke did not wait long before pulling back and thrusting in even harder, aiming for that perfect spot that would make Naruto writhe beneath him.

Naruto moaned loudly, screaming Sasuke's name as he wrapped his arms and legs around Sasuke's frame. He thrust back just as hard, keeping in time with Sasuke's rhythm.

Sasuke rocked them harder and faster on the couch, groaning along with Naruto's audible and incredibly sexy moans before he claimed Naruto's sweet lips in a passionate kiss. Their tongues entangled and Naruto fought back with as much intensity as Sasuke. Naruto sucked on Sasuke tongue before pulling away.

The raven looked down into Naruto's lust filled blue eyes with his own hungry dark eyes.

"More!" Naruto moaned loudly before greedily attacking Sasuke's lips, engaging them in another fervent kiss.

Sasuke, of course, did not deny the blonde his plea and hastened his pace, hitting Naruto's prostrate gland with every thrust. His hand moved between their bodies to grasp Naruto's hard member and stroke it long and hard. His rhythm was sporadic as they moved closer and closer to their climax. Naruto exploded with a long and heavy moan, his body arched into Sasuke's and the muscles of his ass tightened around Sasuke's length. Sasuke managed a few more thrusts before he came, collapsing on Naruto's worn body.

Naruto's weakened arms wrapped around Sasuke's sweaty body, holding him in a loving embrace and placing a sweet kiss on Sasuke's forehead.

Sasuke breathed hard against Naruto's chest and ran his finger in circle on Naruto's sensitive flesh. Both of them were silent in their bliss for several moments before Naruto began stroking Sasuke's damp hair.

"Sasuke?" Naruto's voice was slightly cautious but normal enough not to alarm Sasuke.

"Yeah?" He replied without moving or looking up.

"Would you... I mean... Would you like to move in with me?" Naruto got out in a quick, nervous stutter.

Sasuke's eyes widened as reality firmly slapped him across his face. Yes... Yes was all Sasuke wanted to say at this moment. He wanted to look into Naruto's bright blue eyes, kiss him firmly on the lips and plead him to allow him to move in with him. But reality was cruel. He was cruel. And his heart fell because of this.

"Naruto..." Sasuke sat up as he replied in a deeply regretful voice even though he hadn't meant it to sound that way.

Naruto's voice suddenly became panicked and he moved back from Sasuke. "I mean... you don't have to say yes and I won't be made if you said no... We've only known each other for six weeks... It was probably a stupid question."

"No!" Sasuke assured him. "It's not stupid. It's a great question and I want to... I really do."

Naruto eyes lit up instantly and his frown transformed into a wide smile. "Really?"

This reaction broke Sasuke. He was so angry with himself for doing this to himself, and to Naruto. He hated the idea of hurting Naruto like this, especially when he'd just asked him to move in with him.

"Naruto... I want to... But... I can't."

Naruto's following expression felt like someone drove a knife into Sasuke's stomach. It was the most painful expression on the blonde's face he'd ever seen, and they had some rough sex... Sasuke shook that thought from his mind, as hard as it was to focus when they were both naked and post sex, he did have to focus more.

"I'm sorry Naruto... I really am. If there were some other way, I'd love to find it but I have to... I have to..." Sasuke struggled with himself. The words would not leave his tongue. All he had to say were those heart breaking words pertaining to how he was already promised to someone else. But they refused to be said. He refused to break this person who he cared about so deeply. He wanted to be with Naruto more than anyone else he'd ever met... and this was instantaneous. From the first moment they spoke, Sasuke felt something. Hell from the first moment he saw him it was there.

"Sasuke." Naruto's eyes were narrowed when Sasuke's gaze returned to them. The blonde was obviously trying to figure out what was on Sasuke's mind by staring at his expression but Naruto wasn't good enough at reading him yet. No one really was good at reading Sasuke, it was a natural Uchiha thing that allowed him to prevent his emotions and thoughts from being expressed through his face or eyes, or even his body and gestures.

"Naruto... I'm... I can't move in with you... because... I'm married."

Sasuke wanted nothing more than to shut his eyes from Naruto's reaction but his woeful eyes were unable to look away from Naruto's contorted face. His eyes widened in shock and his mouth parted slightly in anguish. Sasuke had never seen anyone look so hurt, offended and betrayed in his entire life... and he'd caused this. He was the reason for this reaction and he was the reason Naruto retreated within himself. Sasuke was left on the couch as Naruto, in a dazed shock, got up and walked the short distance to his bedroom, shutting the door behind him and shutting Sasuke out of his life for nearly a week.

"Just like that?" Kakashi asked, slightly surprised at this conclusion to the story.

"Yeah..." Sasuke replied, staring out the window rather than at his mentor. "He didn't yell at me, hit me, blame me, nothing... I think I would have preferred it that way. If he'd gotten angry at me punched me or something but he just walked away. Said nothing. I didn't even see or hear him cry. I didn't know what to do... I knew I couldn't knock on his door and ask him to let me in or let me explain, so I left."

Sasuke let out a long sigh as he pressed his forehead against the car window. "A week later... He called me on my cell, asked me to come over."

Sasuke sat nervously in Naruto's now empty living room of his apartment. Everything appeared to have been moved into his grandmother's house except for particular pieces of furniture, like the couch, that would be left behind.

Sasuke wasn't sure where to begin, especially after the completely silent welcome. Sasuke had opened the door for Naruto to stare at him with eyes that he couldn't read but he could feel the pain and sadness emanating from the blonde. Naruto said nothing as he moved aside and ushered Sasuke in before moving to the kitchen and sitting in a wooden chair from the kitchen that was placed opposite of the couch. Sasuke sat, staring at Naruto who was gazing back. Naruto, however, seemed to be in his own world of thought, not focusing on Sasuke which made it easier for Sasuke to look at him.

"Sasuke." Naruto spoke suddenly, startling Sasuke.

Sasuke nodded in acknowledgement because he didn't know how to verbally respond.

"You have a wife." It was more of a statement than a question which made Sasuke's eyes want to avert in shame, but Sasuke focused harder on keeping eye contact.

"Yes."

"You're gay."

Sasuke paused. He wanted to explain that he didn't know he was until after the marriage, but there were signs he ignored. He pushed things to the corners of his mind because he didn't want to think about being anymore different than he already was. But that was no excuse for doing this, for leading Naruto on.

"Yes." He answered as simply as he had the first statement-question.

Naruto's eyes shut for a moment before reopening with intensity.

"Is this an affair?"

Sasuke was faced with a legitimate question this time. A question that Sasuke instantly did not know how to answer. He'd never thought of this as an affair. True he was cheating on his wife, but he didn't feel as though he was betraying her. This was a different side of him which she didn't know about, couldn't know about and wouldn't be able to please. He needed a man... he needed Naruto. He wanted to be with Naruto but he had never thought about Sakura or what her position in this was.

"No."

The intensity in Naruto's eyes was softened, whether consciously or not. He had calmed down slightly from whatever intense stress he was feeling, and Sasuke finally felt the interrogation light ease up on him.

"Do you love me?"

"What?" Sasuke was struck dumb as he faced his wife for what he believed would be the last time.

"It's not a hard question Sasuke! Do you love me?" Sakura cried in a passionate rage. She was torn between rage and heartbreak as the tears poured from her eyes and her voice broke with every word screamed in anger. "Did you ever love me?"

"Sakura, of course I love you." Sasuke attempted to explain but Sakura cut him off by throwing a pillow from their couch at his chest.

"Then how could you do this to me? Lie to me? Cheat on me with... a man! How could you tell me this?" Sakura screamed, throwing another throw pillow at his face.

"I had to tell you, Sakura. I couldn't keep betraying you or anyone else like that."

"Anyone else? You mean him? You mean that whore you've been fucking up the ass for a year?" Sakura cried loudly, picking up a lamp threateningly.

"No Sakura. Me. I've been betraying myself as well as both of you." Sasuke said truthfully.

Sakura stared at him with confused eyes and her grip on the lamp loosened as she let her arms lower from their previous position that would have allowed the lamp to hurdle towards Sasuke's head.

"I was lying to everyone, including myself. I love you. I do. You're an amazing person and I love you so much it hurts. But I can't be intimate with you. I'm gay, I was gay before we got married I... I just couldn't accept it. I didn't want to so I pretended not to see the signs and instead of facing who I was I married my best friend. You are my best friend, who I love and who I betrayed. But I betrayed you before I started seeing someone else. This whole marriage is a lie. You know it's true."

Sakura's eyes welled up with tears once more and the lamp she was holding dropped to the floor, cracking slightly on one side. She covered her face with her hands and allowed Sasuke to come near her to embrace her. She sobbed into her hands that her pressed against his chest. He wrapped his arms comfortingly around her small body, holding her close to him.

No matter how this all started, no matter how many lies Sasuke told or how many people he'd betrayed, he was settling everything right now. He had to make everything right, no matter how much it was going to hurt Sakura. Living a lie for the next forty or sixty years of their life would have been more painful than this inevitable break-up, for both of them. Sasuke had to end this and face who he was without the marriage to hide behind.

"Do you love him?"

Kakashi's sudden question brought Sasuke out of his memories and back to his seat in the car which had stopped outside Sasuke's apartment building.

Sasuke's breath seemed to be caught in his throat as a build up of emotion threw him off guard. He glanced shyly over to his silver haired mentor with sad, heartbroken eyes that had lost everything precious to them. Tears threatened Sasuke dark, normally stoic eyes as he let out a deep sigh and lowered his eyes to his lap. Kakashi's hand gripped Sasuke's shoulder as the raven covered his eyes with his right hand.