Chapter three: My Past(part two)
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Light caresses my face and awakens me from my deep slumber. My senses alert me that I am no longer within the courtroom or the presence of mother.
"Your going to be okay again, Ki, and I now have full custody over you! Your wicked mother is off in jail- living it up I suppose!" Aoi giggled in great delight. It was a sort of joyfulness that can be felt through the air and leaves a tingling sensation. Relieved I snuggle up in a warm, azure blanket. It's truly all over, then. Mother can't harm me any longer and I reside contently in this knowledge; it brings great reassurance to my person which I am greatful for. "Oh, my daughter!" she cries and it feels so queer flowing from her scarlet lips but I know it's the truth now and nothing can take away this reality.
"Mummy, I can't believe it!" I gasped in joy and excitement, "Your truly my mummy now, Aoi?" I inquire with wide saucer-like eyes.
"Completely true, dear," Aoi grinned hugging me tighter and elongating the show of affection towards me.
We remained in a blithe set of mind for many months together-just the two of us. After all she was all the family I would ever need: she was all the care I needed, all the attention I wanted and all the support I could dream for. Although, I was taught well by Aoi from her vast resource of scientific knowledge I was still required to attend school-Seiyo Primary School. But that was one of the very biggest mistakes of my life with Aoi.
In the light of the candles(which Aoi would always place upon the fireplace to bring excitement to the atmosphere) the house phone called for Aoi. From what I could hear as she conversed over the phone and the way she bit her nails, I could tell she was concerned and vexed at the very same time.
"Look, Kiyoko, she just can't go to school. I doubt very much she can handle the social life because she tends to lash out when she's angry and the memories come back to her. I can completely teach!" Aoi hissed, irratibly. "But..." she whispered, faintly, causing me to strain my ears to hear their private conversation.
"I'm sorry, Aoi, but everyone is aware you didn't do so well in school and they certainly won't look past it as I suggest. Just send her to Seiyo or something. That would be perfect really since it's far from her past activities." the woman- whom I believe to be named Kiyoko- says and to that Aoi sighs in defeat. Aoi turns in my direction and feigns a bright smile as she hangs up the phone.
"Come on out, Kichona, I know your there!" Aoi laughs. "I'm not mad with you or anything. We just need to discuss this matter."
"What is it all about, Aoi?" I question as she wraps her arms around me lovingly. "Why do I need to attend school when I've got you to teach me. It doesn't seem fair that I have to attend with strangers and get pushed around by teachers!"
"I'm so sorry but you have to, Ki. They don't believe I can educate you so I am being forced to send you to a school. Ki..." Aoi sniffles in sadness at the terrible tidings that have come about.
"I don't wanna attend a public school, Aoi. I don't get why you can't tutor me instead of them." I whimper and frantically tremble in her embrace.
"I know it's not fair on you-I told them of your condition but I also need to go back to work, Ki. I didn't want to have to say it but we are gonna run run out of money so please..." Aoi wept on my shoulder making it even more wet. Before I became completely drenched in her tears, I spoke again in hopes of giving her comfort.
"If it's neccasary I shall attend. I just really hope I can make it through," I muttered under my heavy breathe,
"Thank you for understanding. And I very much doubt that the second grade can be so bad. That was probablly the least of my primary problems!" She laughed wildly and I so hoped she would be right.
–-xOx-
Timidly, I sat in the gloominess of the atmosphere completely surrounded by squealing, laughing and dashing children-around my age- across the playground. Every voice I heard shook my very form and seemed to taunt and tease me. Curiously, in my despair and fear, I stared longingly at the children playing happily together in the glowing light of the sun that seemed to peak through the clouds. I so desperatley wanted Aoi to return for me but it was quite clear she was unable to return for me until schools end. I very much doubted I would make it through the next six hours.
"Hey!" a voice called amongst them all and then another from beside.
"Hiya, are you new or something 'cause I haven't seen you around?" Automatically, I stiffen up at the sound of the voices and I glance up at them(very, very timidly). I catch sight of the first's long flowng rosy hair(an obvious dye) and porcelain-like, freckled face. She stood there clad in the appropiate uniform but the way she wore it seemed so inappropiate: her crimson skirt was pulled up to high, her legs were wrapped in ebony-black fish net tights and glossy, red platform boots. Clinging on her pale neck was an elaborate choker that contrasted perfectly with the hue of her skin. Her aquaintance had quite a contradicting guise. Unlike the the rosette, the second girl appeared to be a very humble lady-like girl. Her long glossy tresses and angelic grin hid a devilish beast from within her perfect form. Her hand stroke the glistening, white scarf wrapped around her neck. Excitedly, a grin plays on her lips as she stares at me.
"You have a tounge right, you little joker. Come on what's your name?" the scarfed one giggled which drove me to higher anxiety levels. In great fear, my lips parted and I uttered(almost inaudibley)
"I'm Kichona, and yes, I am new here," Curiously, the duo exchanged glances and turned back to me as if they something that I am unaware of. Their looks taunt me in their sly demeanor.
"Kichona, that means precious right. Our parents just gave us simple names. I'm Yui and she's Ren," she replied washing me over with me comfort and joy. In kindness, she stuck out her hand and pulled me up of the frigid bench.
"Ki, you don't mind me calling you that right?" the first chimes to which I shake my head in response. "Wanna meet the other kids although the are sixth graders-like us." I nod appreciantly at their show of compassion for a lonely newcomer. It felt like such a unique event seemed to good to be true but I did hope I was wrong.
Yet, as much as I had hoped for such smootheness in this time, it just did not
come about. Standing atop a bench, the multitudes were called over to greet me and I could suddenly feel the queer and all engulfing feeling of nostalgia: the memories of my past bliss with four year old aquaintances.
"Yo! We've got a newbie over here!" Ren yelled at the top of her strong, high-pitched voice. This seemed to instantly captivate their attention. Almost instantly, they seemed to burst out in question. I jump down from where I once stood and decied on be coming more aquainted with these strangers.
"Hey," several voices exclaimed beside me as we strolled onwards to the school at the chime of the bell. Several kids passed me and bombardex me with inquiries,
"Where are you from?"
"Why did ya move here?"
"What's your name?"
I was getting more angsty by the moment. I simply could not handle the horrors of the crowd surrounding me. My eyes glint irratiblly.
"I'm Japanese(it's quite obvious) and have never been in to school in a public school. I moved here because I am required to attend school. And you may refer to me as Kichona Yamaguchi." I muttered under the spot light of the attentive crowds. Then there was a sudden gasp from a tall, tanned boy who stepped closer. I was instantly taken aback as he exclaimed,
"Wow, wow, wow! Isn't that the name of the gang kid who belonged to a notorios gang. I can't believe you were in that gang. I don't think druggies and thieves like you belong in are school!"
"What, there is no way she's the same girl from the Blood Sharks," Ren huffed irratibly in complete disbelief. Ren stared me up and down in shock for a long, eery moment before speaking once again, "Right Ki, right Ki, right Ki, KI!"
Inevitablly, I tremble uncotrolably: now that the truth was out I was being turned on and the hate was murderous. My head shakes back and forth in disagreement to Ren to which she gasps at slowly backs off.
"You see she isn't denying, it must be all true then! Kichona was a druggie and thief, scratch that, she's probabbly still a druggie and theif! How do we know she won't try to steal from us or something. Seriously, she's probablly going to rob us all. I mean don't we all bring our phones to school and where expensive jewelery!" the tanned boy spat angrily at me. It is from that point that my fingernails dug deeply into my palms. Livid- I was completely consumed by my anger now. Why did they think so illy of me for my past mistakes and faults. I did not want to be chained by the woes of the past and the sins I've commited but it was to late for any change. The memories scolded as if they had come rushing back to haunt me. Perhaps I deserve this lonliness and sorrow, it makes sense in some ways that karma should be dealt at this time. In frustration, I wend (as quickly as possible) through the waves of gossip and question welling up with sorrow and self-loathing.
"Ki! Ki! Ki!" Yui and Ren called for me, "you can't really be planning anything like that, right? We can't leave you to do that sort of shit in our school!" Now ,completely livid, I could not control myself under these conditons. I thrust my fist toward Yui and stare stoically. Contact is made and leaves a bruise on her perfect complexion. Yui gasps at the instant and painful contact. A look of grave loathing plays on her face.
"Just leave me alone Yui and you too Ren, please just go.." I screamed feriously as I lash out once again. Yui is struck with another ruthless hit from me however It doesn't really feel like I'm in control of these savage actions. Am I truly conscience of my movements in this moment? Why do I seem to transform like this when I am threatened or angry? In a sudden jolt I am brought back to the reality of this matter. My hands- they are covered in scarlet blood, but why? My eyes wander down in horror at the sights before me.
"Ren! Yui!" I scream as I back off in dismay: I have done the very sin I have avoided in my hellish domain. With tears streaming down my blood splattered cheeks, I jerk the two furiously but to no avail. I glance down at Yui's dislocated shoulder and Ren's blood drenched body. "Please, please, please! Don't die, this can't be real" I cry fearfullywith a sting in my eyes. Scream echoes through the whole school- my screams. Prosecuting eyes stare holes into me as I fall to my knees.
"I can't believe it!" a voice screamed- my alert to run.
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