James was watching the shadows from the girl he loved. He had no idea Lily would react this way... her words came like snow in summer. His jokes were meant to entertain people not hurt, so people would look at him and think: that's the funny guy ,I like him. A joke was always the solution for him, you feel sad make a joke, when you feel angry get Snape locked up in a cupboard, you feel happy throw cakes at Sirius and the rest of the Marauders. He didn't realise until now that not everybody thought like him. There are serious people in this world who's opinion does matter. A perfect sample Lily Evans , of course she liked playing around sometimes but on the right moments she would be silent an understandable. While he would laugh at that person tell him to shut up and be happy. Now he finally knew that on a perfect moment on a perfect day with the perfect person, he should be silent , watch and enjoy. He finally understood that Lily didn't want to be with him because he always spoiled those moments. From now on he was going to be himself and less his character, she would notice it because she loved him no matter what, but didn't want to be with him.
The next morning Lily avoided the brown eyes that were staring at her from the other side of the table. She didn't know that everything was going to change.