Chapter 13

Adam returned home half an hour later determined to sort things with Kono. He didn't want to hurt her or upset her but she needed to hear a few hard words. When he walked in Kono was lying on the couch as he had asked. He smiled inwardly glad that she had listened. Kono looked up as Adam walked over to the couch and sat by her feet. She smiled shyly and bit her lip.

"Do you want to talk now or bath?" Adam asked.

"Talk" Kono mumbled softly.

Adam nodded and waited for Kono to sit up. He scooted closer to her and took her hands in his.

"I need you to just sit and listen to me please" Adam begged as he found Kono's eyes.

Kono nodded her head and watched Adam.

"Firstly you need to know I love you more than you know and Kelly and we are not breaking up okay" Adam stated.

"Yes" Kono replied softly biting her lip nervously.

"I will be honest with you Kono, I am still really mad. When you told me about the case all I could think about was the possibility of you getting hurt that's why I asked you not to go ahead with it. I didn't want there to be any problems for you at work that's why I went down with you and explained and you promised me that you would not go undercover and put yourself at risk but you did Kono and to make it worse you went behind my back to do so. What you did was so stupid, putting yourself at risk and something did happen Kono. You were attacked and nearly raped!" Adam said angrily.

Kono almost flinched as Adam's tone rose.

"What would I have done if you had been killed? Because that was his intention. You put yourself first Kono over your family because you're stubborn as hell! It was selfish Kono and it was selfish when you left with Kelly." Adam snapped.

Kono bit her lip hard at Adam's words, trying in vain to prevent the tears from falling. Adam noticed how Kono was trying not to cry and he felt bad for dragging the past up.

Adam took a breath and held Kono's face, gently pulling her lip from her teeth so she wouldn't hurt herself. He felt a few stray tears roll over his hands. He felt bad but couldn't let her tears stop him from being honest.

"I didn't mean to drag up the past I'm sorry but your actions Kono have shown me that you're too stubborn and pig headed. I know you are fantastic at your job and from what the guys said you certainly gave that arsehole a good beating but in your situation he got the better of you. I worry when you go to work and you chase down criminals on a daily bases with all the guys as back up, how the hell do you think I felt when Steve called me and told me what happened?" Adam argued.

Kono pulled herself from Adam's hands and wiped her eyes furiously nodding in understanding of what Adam was saying.

"If you had died Kono how would Kelly have felt when she got older and I had to tell her that her mum put herself in a dangerous situation and got herself killed because she was to stubborn? How would Kelly feel growing up without a mother?" Adam asked knowing it was harsh and would hit Kono but also knowing she needed to hear it.

Kono covered her mouth in an attempt to contain her sob. Her tears flowed freely and she bit her lip desperately trying not to cry. Adam pulled Kono close trying to hold her but she fought and cried.

"I'm so stupid! I'm a terrible mother I …I ! Kono sobbed in hysterics as she fought Adam coughing and crying and blaming herself.

Adam tried to contain his own emotions forcefully grabbing Kono and holding her in his arms stroking her hair and trying to calm her.

"Don't you dare say you're a terrible mother don't you dare!" Adam said harshly into Kono's ear, his loving care embedded under his tone.

Kono hiccupped and tried to calm down but sobbed more.

"Breath Kono ,please darling you are not a bad mom, stupid yes but not a bad mom. You need to calm down baby. I've only said all this so you see how bad it would be if we ever lost you." Adam said softly.

"I *hiccup* didn't th…th…think *hiccup*. I thought I was doing the right thing *hiccup* by catching him to save other women." Kono sobbed tearfully as she let Adam hold her.

"Baby you are so amazing and courageous and I know that because of you, you have protected more people getting hurt and I know someone has to do these things but I don't like it being you. I am mostly angry because you lied to me Kono, you can't do that." Adam said his tone softer and calmer.

"I'm sorry" Kono whispered tearfully.

Adam held Kono close looking into her tear filled eyes and seeing the genuine apology. He lent his forehead against Kono's before dipping and kissing her lips softly and quickly.

"I am not perfect Kono but I do not lie to you. I'm not going to let our relationship be based on lies and I don't want you hiding things from me. Please talk to me even if I don't like what you're saying I'd rather you were honest." Adam whispered.

Kono sighed and buried her head in the crook of Adam's neck and nodding her head in understanding.

"Are you okay?" Adam asked seriously as he sat up and focused on Kono.

"Yeah I feel so terrible for lying and I was selfish and…"

"No Kono, are you really okay. Forget our argument and me being mad I want to know if you are okay after what that bastard did." Adam defined.

Kono swallowed and bit her lip again. Adam knew she liked to keep things bottled up and her lip biting was a tell-tale sign.

"Stop the lip biting you'll hurt yourself." Adam said gently as he ran a thumb over her lip.

"I had a nightmare last night." Kono admitted.

Adam felt guilty for leaving her alone, but knew deep down if he had stayed he would have hurt her with words he didn't mean.

"Tell me about it." Adam asked.

"He just kept hitting me and I couldn't breathe because I didn't think I could get away from him then he raped me." Kono sobbed.

"Baby your safe now. He didn't rape you okay he didn't touch you there." Adam reassured.

"The last thing I remember was him spreading my legs and trying to unbutton my shorts." Kono mumbled.

"The guys got to him before he did anything." Adam stated.

"I bruises everywhere."

"They will fade."

"It's my fault I have them though." Kono said sadly.

"No Kono don't do that to yourself." Adam said firmly.

Kono looked at Adam and nodded. "Okay"

"Do you want to bath now?" Adam asked.

"Yes…will you help me?" Kono asked

"Of course."

Chin and Malia lay in bed, a twin lying on each of them. It was a nightly routine for the family of four. After feeding they would just lie together the evening breeze coming through the window relaxing them and grounding them. With such busy careers, Chin and Malia had not seen much of each other and they cherished these moments.

"How's Kono doing?" Malia asked softly not wanting to wake the sleeping babies.

"Still being stubborn. Adam called me and said Kono discharged herself and walked all the way from the hospital to the house and Adam said he was going to talk with her tonight after he dropped Kelly and Leia's." Chin explained.

"That girl has always been a stubborn one; she just always wanted to be like you." Malia sighed.

"Maybe I should be blaming myself" Chin chuckled.

"No Kono is a grown women, she knew what she was doing when she went behind everyone's back. I just can't believe Steve went with it." Malia said in surprise.

"I know I'm pissed with both of them but there exactly the same. They don't think before doing things." Chin explained.

"Kono was always like that, I just hope Adam can accept her stubborn nature because I know he loves her and the things he does for her. I do think Kono takes him for granted sometimes." Malia admitted.

"Maybe you should have a word with her, she looks up to you." Chin suggested.

"Maybe I will" Malia smiled as she leant over awkwardly and kissed Chin goodnight.

Kono sat on the edge of the bath waiting for it to stop running. Adam stood bent over the side pouring bubble bath into the running water hoping it will relax Kono. Kono sat biting her lip again, she didn't realise it was a nervous habit of hers and it revealed her vulnerable side allowing Adam to read her like a book. Adam watched her out the corner of his eyes, noting not only her habit but also how tired and stressed she was looking. He knew Kono was a head strong person, very stubborn and self-sufficient, but he also knew she showed her softer side around him and only him. Of course she had let Chin in before and even Malia, but they had to fight to break her walls down. When Adam first started dating Kono she let him in easily, he didn't know why she was suddenly so different, making him work to get to her soft side.

"What?" Kono asked nervously as she noticed Adam staring.

"I'm just watching you." Adam said simply.

"Why?" Kono asked as she blushed and tucked her hair behind her ear.

"Because you're beautiful but you seem so closed up all of a sudden. You used to let me in and let me see your softer side but you're putting a wall up and I'm finding it really hard to break Kono, want my girl back." Adam said softly.

Kono bowed her head and twiddled her thumbs. "I'm just so scared that if you see me vulnerable you'll think of me differently. Everything changed when we had Kelly. Everything became so different to what I'm used to. I'm used to being the girl who looks after herself and doesn't need to show anyone her vulnerable side. When I was little I was always one of the guys and always tried to be like Chin, so when I did fall or hurt myself I would try and be tough about it because Chin wouldn't cry. He used to get me to open up an di would only talk to him but then I grew up and although were close I still try to be that girl who can look after herself, but then I met you and you made me see a different side to me but it wasn't what I was used to. Then we got serious but I could still be kick arse and show you my softer side when we were alone, then I got pregnant and I had to take responsibility for someone else and it scared me. I had to be tough for Kelly and look after her but I didn't realise all the emotions I would feel and I couldn't keep my tough exterior and I didn't know how you would perceive me so when Kelly was born I just reverted back to me being tough and fearless and your right I've become selfish with it. I haven't meant to I didn't realise I had until you pointed it out. It just scares me knowing that I can be vulnerable with you, feel crazy motherly emotions and letting people in." Kono admitted.

Adam smiled at Kono without saying anything.

"Why are you smiling?" Kono asked lightly.

Adam stood and pulled Kono with him holding her face in his hands. He kissed her temple, her nose, each cheek then her lips. "Thank you" Adams smiled.

"For what?" Kono laughed.

"For finally being honest and open with me." Adam replied.

Kono smiled at Adam and he kissed her softly. He slowly stripped Kono of her clothes taking care to kiss every bruise and mark on her body so she knew only Adam could and would ever touch her their again. He pushed her hair behind her ears and grinned at her beautiful looks.

"Get in" He instructed as he guided her into the hot bubble bath.

"So good" Kono said appreciatively as she settled in the water, letting the heat relax her muscles.

"Lean back" Adam said as he gently poured water over her head, and began washing an dmassaging her head.

"How did I ever get so lucky?" Kono asked as she closed her eyes.

"You didn't…I did, and I'll cherish you forever." Adam replied.

Okay so I think I will write two more chapters and I will leave it so there's possibility for another 3rdpart if you guys want it but after I finish this I might start a new story so give me prompts.