*Dan's P.O.V* Trigger warning
Did that actually happen? Did I really kissed Phil? Did Phil actually kissed me back? "Think about it Dan, why would someone want to kiss you? You was probably just imagining it." I hate that little voice in the back of my mind, even though he is completely right. Phil doesn't like me, maybe he just kissed back because he felt sorry for me. I didn't want to leave Phil's house, but of course I had to my dad found out that I left school bloody teacher can't keep their mouth shut. So my dad knows about me leaving school with a guy. "Great job, Daniel are you trying to get yourself beat. Of course you are. After all you deserve it, I mean come on look at yourself."
I could see my house up ahead, I slowed my paced I don't want to get home anytime soon. I wish mom was here to help me "Haha! She don't care about you either. You're the reason she left without a trace. She don't love you Dan, no one does." As I was getting closer and closer to my house, let just say it feels like I'm about to fall down.
As I was reaching for the door handled, the door jerked open. I was grabbed by my hair into the house. "No, Hello?" I asked. "Bad move Dan." "Where the fuck did you go?" He yelled slamming me into the wall. "School called, you ran off with a boy, what did I tell you about being a faggot?" He yelled pulled me and slammed me back into the wall. "You disgust me." He kicked me repeatedly. "Worthless Faggot." He spitted on me then walked away. I laid their crying I'm used to this getting beat than crying like a little bitch
"You deserve it! You're a worthless Faggot Daniel. I pulled myself up using the wall for support, I couldn't be here when he comes back for round two I have to get out of here. "You can't go to Phil's" Why couldn't I? "Daniel he doesn't care, he will just laugh at you." I have no choice, I walked/limped to the door I opened it to see "P-Phil?" I turned to make sure my dad wasn't anywhere around. What is he doing here?
*Phil's P.O.V*
I wanted to make sure Dan was okay, I know where he lives I seen him exit his house a while ago. I know sounds like a stalker, but believe me I'm not. I reach the door, I was about to knock when I heard yelling "What did I tell you about being a faggot?" That's no Dan's voice, I didn't know what to do I was shock to hear everything, I was about to walk away when the door open. "P-Phil?" He asked turning to look behind him. "H-How l-long h-have be h-here?" He asked it sounds like he been crying.
"I just go here." I replied quickly a lot he seen straight through it. "You heard?" He asked looking down I shook my head. "He does it all the time, I'm used to it now." Dan mumbled. "Dan, he can't keep treating you like this." I said looking him straight in the eyes. "There's nothing I can do Phil." Dan said "What about your mom?" I asked, I regret asking about it because as soon as I did Dan almost lost it. "S-she l-left." He mumbled trying to hold back the tears. "Come stay with m-." "Dan?" I'm guessing his dad yelled. "Shit, Phil you got to go now." Dan said pushing me back and slamming the door in my face.
*Dan's P.O.V*
I turned to see my dad standing there "Who was that?" He asked walked closer toward me. "Just a friend." I muttered trying to walk past him, but he grabbed my arm. "A friend? The one you skipped with?" He asked with anger. "No, I didn't skip with him it was someone else. He was just informing me on what I missed." I lied. "Keep lying see where it gets you Dan." "Do you think I'm fucking stupid?" He yelled jerking me closer toward him. Yes, you're fucking stupid beating your damn kid. "N-No sir." I said hoping he would believe. "You stay away from that boy." He said.
I couldn't stay away from Phil, he actually makes me happy without him I don't know what I would do. "Well thanks to Phil, you're still alive." Is that not a good thing? "No it's not Dan." Why? I was knocked out of my through by a hard slap across the face "I said do you hear me?" He yelled. "Y-Yes sure." "Get to your room, and don't come out for the rest of the night." He yelled pushing me away from him. I walked up the stairs and into my room, I shut the door behind me I didn't slam it because I know that would just lead to another beating.
I looked under my bed for my box I founded it close to the back I pulled it off, I reached into my drawer and grabbed my key. You may wonder why I have a box right? I would tell, but you're about to find out I opened it and in the box laid: Sleeping Pills, Razor (A lot I made add) Other pills I don't know the name of and I sure in hell don't care. I grabbed one of the razor I held it in my hand, maybe I shouldn't do this. It felt like my arm was begging for me to do it. "Cut deep, make it bleed. I laid the razor down beside me I closed the box and placed it back underneath the bed.
I took off my jacket, the wrap Phil put on my wrist I stared at the marks I left "Go ahead, what are you waiting for." I grab the razor"Straight down Daniel!" I should do this I am better than this "No you're not!." What about Phil? "You think he care? If he cared he wouldn't of let you slammed the door in his face now would he? Why would he ask me to stay with him if he doesn't care? "He felt sorry for you Dan." Shut up that's not true. "He doesn't care." Yes he does. "NO HE DOESN'T!." "Shut up!" I screamed I grabbed my hair and started pulling repeatedly harder and harder each time.
"Worthless, Pathetic, Faggot!" I grabbed the razor and looked at it for a minutes or so I placed it to my wrist "Do it right." I pushed down and hard as I can, I can feel it cut into my skin I slide it across multiple times. Pushed down, slide across over and over again and again. I stopped when I had about 7 newly fresh cut. I started feel dizzy "You may have actually done it right this time Dan." I couldn't feel anything I felt numb, then everything went black. I hope I don't wake up, everyone will be happy if I just disappear.
~I do not approve of self-harm. If you find this triggering I am sorry. If you do Self-Harm and need someone to talk to please message me. You're to pretty/cute to be self-harming. Stay Strong~