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Sesshomaru

These past 10 months have been possibly the hardest of my life. After work I come home I expect her scent without thinking about it then my demon goes into a rage. I can barely control him anymore. I'm absolutely cruel to everyone that approaches me. My normal stoic demeanor had transformed into something much darker.

I heard from Rin's father that she is returning today. He was ecstatic in the car as he drove the information burst from his mouth almost without his knowledge. Of course I didn't mind I had a hard time holding in my happiness with this news. The whole day my demon was muttering something about waiting is something that he was more than finished doing. He kept trying to take command and run to find her. I reminded him time and again that she was on a plane right now. That did nothing for either of our nerves. All of the horrendous things that could happen to our one and only on her trip home made it even harder to keep my anxious demon in place. The end of the day drew near and I rushed home to wait for her.

Rin

I waited patiently for my father, knowing that I would wait for some time. My train came in a bit early. The quiet of the station was nice and it was sunny outside. I gazed off into space thinking about what it would be like to see Kohaku again I hadn't thought about him much on the trip over. Or at least that's what I'm telling myself.

"It looks like you need a ride home. "

The familiar voice startled me out of my previous thoughts. I would recognize that voice anywhere. I looked up to find him gazing down at me, his brow raised and his charming smile graced his lips.

I took a deep breath in and replied,

"oh I'm just waiting for my father, he should be here any moment now."

Kohaku looked around for a moment and then he said " well as far as I am concerned you are stranded and need a ride home."

The butterflies in my stomach wouldn't seem to settle. I hoped my father hadn't left home yet.

"alright fine," I said, good naturedly,

"it seems that you can give me a ride after all."

He smiled once again and helped with my luggage.

" So, where do you live?"

I frowned for a moment; he didn't recognize me. It took me a moment but I realize that over the course of the year I had changed quite a bit. My hair had become quite manageable with all of the new techniques I'd learned from other women that went to my cooking school. It looks smoother and fuller and it was much easier to make it look beautiful. I had also become more shapely as a woman. Before I could of been mistaken for a young boy, but now it was easy to tell that I was quite a woman. With these physical changes I had become more feminine and the way that I dressed. I never used to bother with dresses, or high heels, or even jewelry. I still shy away from these things preferring to be comfortable however now I have the confidence to wear them. Right now I am wearing cream-colored dress that comes down to my knees and black flats. My hair is down And the curls are nicely placed.

I tried to help load up my things but he wouldn't let me. He insisted. That made me blush. we got into the car and he started the engine

"So," he glanced at me before looking ahead of us, " where to?"

" just drive and I'll direct you"

Sesshomaru

I took to pacing in my office. Her father hadn't left yet. That means she isn't close. I need to calm myself. It isn't like I can hold her when she gets here. That thought created a spider web of pain in my brain. I pushed the thought from me as best I could. I heard my cousin's car come into the driveway. I didn't think much of it till I heard the voice I have been missing. I stalked to the window and piered out.

There she was

Her hair had grown quite a bit and looked softer, her figure had become much more womanly, she exuded an air of confidence. My cousin was clearly paying attention to her he got to drive her home. I bet he didn't even recognize her.

Rin

My heart was running a hundred miles a minute the whole ride home. He still didn't know who I was even as we pulled into the driveway.

Sesshomaru came quite suddenly to the driveway, he spotted me and made very unusual eye contact.

"Hello Rin. Did your school year go well?" He asked after he looked away smoothly. He talked with little emotion and I wondered why he bothered asking. I looked down at my hands, " quite well sir, thank you for asking."

Sesshomaru didn't say anything else he just stood he seemed to be breathing very deeply and he looked as though his mind had gone very far away. He then went back towards the main house.

"So." Kohaku spoke from behind me. I turned towards him and smiled.

"Rin, the Chauffeur's daughter." He smiled back at me

"I was a little surprised you didn't rcognise me." That was a lie. I knew I looked a great deal different.

"Let me help you take your things up to your room." I agreed and we spoke of nothing in particular. I simply basked in finally being his object of attention.

Sesshomaru

I rushed to my office my demon fought me every step breathing in her sweet scent made it hard to stay rational. I got into my office and slammed the door. My body shook and my demon began to fight harder than ever my face began to elongate and my eyes glowed red. I heard growls and snarls bubble from my throat that I didn't remember making. I tried to breath but it was almost like my body was rejecting the air because it wasn't what it needed most right now. I gulped down the air by this time I was on my hands and knees trying to contain the beast. A knock on my door caused my demon to viciously snarl.

My father walked in. I hated that he saw me on the floor like a domesticated dog instead of the proud dog demon I was. Smelling him in the air and it almost made me vomit. It repulsed me that this smell wasn't the one I wanted. My father sat at my desk while I managed to lay on my belly on the other side of my desk. The grip on my lungs began to let up little by little and I took deep breaths. My demon pased furiously. I just stayed on the floor.

"Son, you need to find a way to get your mate or your demon will with or without your consent or Rin's."

I looked up at him. " how long have you known?" I could hear my demon still in my voice a bit.

"I have known just as long as you have. Your demon is clearly done waiting and if that little show was any sign you won't be able to fight it much longer."

I stood and sat on a near by chair.

"Son, you need her like the air you breath why did you wait so long? I saw you just now, you were turning bright red even by human standards it was shoking."

I looked at him venomously," you enjoyed evey minute didn't you?"

My father's eyes softened," I woudn't wish for my worst enemy to go through the pain of being without his mate."

I looked down,"she doesn't want me. She is also still much too young to be burdened by me." My father got up and put his hand on my shoulder. " Rin is a kind, beautiful young woman. I won't pretend to know her well but I highly dought she would reject your wishes to be close to her. Just that might help appease Your demon for a bit longer. However, soon you will need to talk to her about it because once your demon wins one of those struggles, she won't be safe." The thought of her being in danger hurt my brain. My father walked out and I layed back down on the floor.